Eustacia Vye

what do you guys advice my calorie intake should be?? where do i get that information from??

Tomorrow would be my first month but I have only lost 16 pounds. I feel so so frustrated. I cut down my calories to 600-800 and I am still stalling. I was 173 pounds and 5'2. I wonder if it has to do with my low BMI. I am really really frustrated and scared that I won't lose anymore.

At age 21, I was 5'2 and weighted 140 pounds. In the next 7 years, I gained another 60 pounds, I lost my will to live, got in to severe depression and there would be days when i wouldn't even bother to brush my hair. My younger sister took care of me as if I were her baby. People who looked up to me for my sense of style or fashion choice would comment on how i had let myself go. I wasn't as big as some other people I came across but my health issues were pretty much damaging me internally. I couldn't fit in to anything and no matter how much I dieted, the weight came back. In the last three years, I became insulin resistant, pre diabetic and developed the periodontal disease. I also hadn't had my period for over two years regardless of how many times I was put on promethium and Metaformin. When my skin color started changing due to the over production of melanin in my body and my doctor told me I could save my teeth for 10 more years maximum unless I had a surgery for 7000 dollars, I figured it was best to take care of the root of the problem rather than that. Imagine being told you will have to wear dentures in ten years at the age of 28.. I did it. I booked my appointment, spoke to the only person who supported me, ignored everyone else and got the surgery done in Mexico. I didn't show it but I was scared as hell. I knew things were going down hell anyways so whatever risk I was going to take was inenvitable. At the end, the surgery wasn't bad at all. A piece of cake in comparison to the emotional pain I had been going through all these years.

I took my 21 year old sister who has the physical capabilities of a 12 year old but I saw a lot of women there who were there all by themselves. By the time you are expected to travel, you will be walking on your own. Pack lightly, you will be alright.

4 days after surgery, I was dying for something crunchy. Anything!' I took corn chips that they serve with salsa dip.. Fat free and all. I took one piece, chewed it and then spat it out. Then I rinsed my mouth and cried a little in shame...

I stopped taking the medicin on the 4th day. I just could not continue anymore and strangely enough, I was not dizzy and austere bymore. I take the magnesium every once in a while when I feel bloated and it helps. I am just being extra careful and making sure I keep up with how I feel during the day or after I eat.. As dude said, I can not even look at a box of broth. I had some in my room the other day and I nearly threw up from the smell of it. I open a tiny cup of activia yogurt and eat it through out the day. Last bit of it I have just before sleep. I got the protein shake and it's disgusting. I can not have that either. Today I tried two servings with natural and sugar free apple juice. I know I won't benefit from it much but I wanted to put something in my stomach since the lack of energy is really getting to me. I did not have sugar or juice for the rest of the day. The shake was alright but towards the end of it, I could not soo anymore.. I ate two straws of ramen noodles yesterday. I wanted to see if I would feel sick which I didn't.. Today I bought some mushroom soup and put lots of water in it. It tasted so so good but I didn't want to push my luck with it so only a couple spoons ful..I was feeling satisfied already which feels amazing.. I don't recal ever feeling ful before. One week ago on this day, I had my surgery. I know I did not take my time with the clear liquid phase but everything I was having, I either hated too much or included sugar and that can't be good.. Transitioning right now but being very very very careful.. So far I haven't felt sick from anything I have eaten except one time I had a tiny spoon ful of solid split pea accidentally. I forgot for a moment. I felt nauseated and dizzy but it was over shortly after. In the mornings when I wake up, I feel like my tummy hurts a little as if it would from hunger. I sip a little Gatorade and it really helps. Starting to feel better.. For those of you who have come out of the surgery recently, hang in there.. Things will get better soon!

It has been one week and I am only 28 but I see my hands and legs and they look pretty wrinkly and dry. I have been trying to drink plenty of water but I know and it's clear that something is going on under the skin.. Maybe it's part of the weight loss process.

I was sleeping on my back for the while I was at the hospital and hated it since I am a tummy or side sleeper. I use pillows on each side normally since I tend to cross my arms around my chest (ptsd) so after I came home from surgery, I would lay on my side and hold the pillow on each side gently. I have been noticing that when I lay on my back now to watch tv during the day, I feel a very weird sensation in my belly. I also tend to feel gas moving around in my stomach more when I am on my back rather than sides.. Strange.

I am 3 days out so that puts me on a clear liquid diet. I just can not stand the thought of broth at this point.

I confided in two friends with whom I work and they joined together to try to convince me against it the minute they found out and they are both health professionals who know my history with pcos and insulin resistance.They may want the best for you but only you know how hard you have struggled. and once you make a decision about your own health as an adult, others should respect it and you shouldn't have to justify it to anyone. Tell her you don't want to talk about it at work anymore. And if that doesn't cut it, smile and tell her "it's done now, time to move on". And then, walk away from her. I personally did not confide in anyone else beside those two friends and my sister. This whole process is stressful not to mention painful. It takes courage and dedication to go trough something like this. Focus on getting yourself back to health rather than her comments. She maybe conflicted about her own decisions regarding her own health and trying to justify her own inability to come to a conclusion. Congratulations on the 73 pounds down by the way!

I am 3 days out of surgery and back in Canada. I dont know which one of the medicin is making my mouth taste horrible but I tried not taking anything and the stomach started feeling nasty so I got back on them after half a day. My main problem at the moment is this. If I smell that chicken broth from half a mile away, I am sure I will throw up. I am sick and tired of apple juice and even jello is not doing it for me. I am used to be being up and around and at the moment I can't even move around the house for longer than 5 minutes because my legs feel weak and I know it's due to the fact that I haven't eaten. Is there anything else I can be having instead of broth?? Diluted milk maybe?? The antibiotic is huge and nasty so I cut it in half and hide it in jello. This morning I had it with a spoon full of activia yogurt. And how much is too much for a meal at this point?? I do half a cup of diluted juice or 10 spoons ful of that nasty soup and then I stop since I am too scared and put off by the idea of broth. Are you guys taking all of the medicin given out by Mexico bariatrics??

I am a 28 year old female with pcos. During the last three to four years, I became insulin resistant, pre diabetic and am now having periodontal issues. I am 5'2 and 175 lbs. I think that puts me to 31 or 32 on the BMI chart. I am working on having my surgery sometime in the next 3 months but I am also not getting any support from friends or family members. My sister is the only person supporting me. I wish people knew that just because one is not 300 pounds, it does not mean they don't have health issues that needs to be addressed.