Over the past year of my pre-op dieting I have completely changed my life and dropped 40 lbs by myself. I do Protein shakes, eat less and avoid carbs as much as possible. I'm basically eating the same way I would post op except with a normal stomach. All I can think about is how the are cutting out 3/4 of my stomach and that I will never be normal again. I have an Aunt that had gastric bypass in the 90's and to this day she still has issues with dumping. I don't want to be that person who throws up every time they go out to eat or has one drink and acts like a drunken fool. Since I have already completely overhauled my lifestyle I find myself wondering if I truly need the surgery. I can't even think about it without crying (like I am now while typing this). I recently overcame my depression/anxiety and got a job for the first time since my nervous breakdown 10 years ago. I am petrified that I will have this surgery and then won't be able to eat the things I enjoy ever again or ever sit around campfire and have a few beers with friends. I honestly have no idea what to do. I have been stalling for as long as possible but time is running out and I don't know what to do.
