kris10bsmith@yahoo.com

I found this website by searching online for a support group.  I'm a fairly confident person, but this is going to be a HUGE life changing event for me, and I'm getting nervous.  I was always used to being, well, beautiful in my teens, twenties and thirties.  As I aged, the weight piled on.  I dieted, lost some, more came back, exercised myself into exhaustion, nothing.  Diet again, lose some, more came back, and so on.  I am now at 5'10" weighing 260 pounds. I work in an industry that is very youth-oriented and my boss critiques people's bodies and "confides" in my like I have no feelings.  Hello!  I'm in the room! He couches these comments like he's joking.  He is not.  It is very hurtful.  I can't find clothing in my taste that fit me.  I feel like I have to settle for the ugliest clothing.  I ache all over, I snore, I'm pre-diabetic and I'm so unhappy with myself because I can't make dieting and exercise alone work.  It's been torture.  My energy level is really low, and I've become depressed, which is completely out of character for me!  I usually see the bright side of everything.  Well, come October 7, the light will dawn and I'll finally have what I need to succeed!