janielear285

Hi, my name is Janie. I am 50 years old and I weigh 285. I have an eating disorder which I have been unable to change. I am seriously considering getting the lap band. I really enjoyed looking at all the before and after pictures, they gave me a lot of encouragement that there is hope for me. I also enjoyed reading different postings and the encouragement you all give to people. Sometimes I just resign myself to the fact that "I am fat and that is that". Then at other times I wish I didn't have this huge belly hanging out in front of me that I had to fashion a diaper to stick under because it gets sticky. I also think that most of my health problems could probably be relieved if I just lost even a little bit of weight. But each time I try to stop eating out of control I just cannot seem to stop myself. Right now I am sitting here at my computer and I keep thinking I have something I need to do. But I know it is just my way of getting up and going into the kitchen and opening the refridgerator and stuffing something else in my gut even though I already ate. I do not even know what a hunger pain is or what being satiated from eating normally means. I just think I am supposed to eat until I am stuffed to overflowing then I feel satisfied.