Jesusgirl0909

Thank you Cindy for your encouragement. I am hoping back to see my surgeon this Wednesday. I am nervous because I know he will be disappointed. I am very disappointed in myself. I know how to gain and I know how to lose weight, but I've never been successful at maintaining. I am going to ask him for a suggestion of a counselor/psychologist to start seeing. My sense of worth is so wrapped up in my outer appearance and it's literally making me sick. It's also an interesting idea to go back to the post op diet. Have other people done this and been able to sort of restart? My only issue with that is I didn't feel hunger for the first 6 months, yet now I feel hunger every day. I almost panic still when I feel hunger and feel out of control. That's the real issue with me for the past six months or so, the lack of control mentally.

I am 2 years post op. I lost 85 lbs in the first 8 months and maintained that for another 3. Then I started to regain slowly at first and now I'm up 33 lbs. I am very disappointed in myself & feeling like a failure once again. I keep trying to start over each day, but haven't been successful obviously. I am so scared that I can't stop this regain. No only do I need to stop, now I need to lose the same weight yet again I'm beyond frustrated & feel very alone.