dragon_pasha

Good Morning I am seriously reaching out for help. I was banded june 2006. I lost about 75lbs from june to dec then I just stop loosing weight and have maintained ever since playing with the same 5 lbs but now that 5 has turned to 10 and I am still not loosing weight. I have been in for several fills and several unfills. I filled my band so much that I started having acid reflux so that have ultimately taken ALL the Water out. I know I need to go back to have a fill, but I don't just want to have a fill and be sent back out again to fend for myself. I need help to get back on program. I really didn't understand the program to much to begin with. Fear is what kept me in check and now that the fear is gone I really don't know what the proper program is. I unfortunately with my jobs don't have time to attend support meetings. I am in hopes someone out there can suggest a website that gives example programs or a dietician to speak with or a something. I am an actress and just got the part of my lifetime I have worked REALLY hard to get this part and I almost lost it because of my weight. I really don't want them to worry about my weight and see only the talent I have and can give to their patrons and I really want to loose the rest of the weight but I need help more than just nagging from my family. Any suggestions? thank you :thumbup::thumbup::thumbup:

Good Morning Kat Thank you for all the advice you gave. I do feel a little better telling someone about it especially someone who has been banded. I talk to my friends and they still have that look in their eyes that says they really don't get why I feel this way. 85lbs is a lot of weight but I still would like to loose another 75lbs. I do have a daytime job and not a very good one for having been banded. I am a kitchen manager for a cafeteria. I do work with the same acting troupe or at least the same group because in the past they are the only ones who would let me even act. But you are not the only one to tell me that maybe it is time to move on from them I'm just scared. I try really hard not to replace one addiction for another and maybe exercise is one I need to try. thank you again for listening and giving me hope that I am not the only one. thanks again

This is an apology for this entery I don't mean to bring anyone else down or make anyone rethink there decission but I need advice. I think I may have missed the main stream of conversation but here goes. I am glad to hear that I am not the only one dealing with anxiety and depression. I think my problem is no matter how much I told myself that this was not going to fix my problems. My heart still told me that it would. I have never had many dates and I am an actress at night. I thought that my weight is what kept the men I was interested in not interested in me. Also I thought the reason I didn't get any role but the funny fat girl was because of my weight. Unfortunately this year within a few months I found that nothing has changed. I found a man I was interested in him and I have become real close friends and in not so many words he told me that he loved me like a big sister. Then I audition for several plays a few months later for a director that I am very close friends with and once again am place in the back row of the chorus. I feel like I wasted my time, money, heartache, pain and energy and NOTHING CHANGED. I never in my life lost hope and within weeks I have lost hope in matters that until now have kept me in my opinion sane. I have tried to go see a counselor and was told that I would have to pay $2000 co pay. Well that is just out of the question. On top of everything else I was banded on June 2006 and have not lost a single pound since Dec 2006 I have lost 85lbs which I am grateful for. Can anyone help? What do you do to cope with the fact that you have lost your only means of comfort and the excuse that you tell yourself is the reason for the things in your life that you don't have or want? Any suggestions out there. :wink2::Dancing_biggrin: