Sparklingbeauty53

I was 52 years old when i decided to and was sleeved. I'm new at 52.
I'm 53 now and better than new!

I chose BeachLover because it is the one thing that can soothe my soul without even trying. I live on the beach and spend many hours getting my natural prozac fix. When I reach goal I am going to freaking surf and hopefully it won't kill me!!! This is a picture of the beach I love!

One of my favorite shows was King of Queens. There was an episode where they referred to Doug as Fatty McButterpants. I thought it was funny.
When I had to come up with a screen name, I thought it was appropriate.

When I was a child, I had red hair and my uncle started calling me Redbean...it has long since turned brown, but I still have people call me "Red". I love that my middle daughter has shocking red hair, hers will probably stay that way forever. It's gorgeous!!

My name is Hebrew and means The Glory of God.

By the way, we don't call it a "hooker" name; we call it a "drag" name. And mine is "Freddie Elk!"
My wife's is awesome: "Brandy Redberry"

"outwithbenjiboi" is a handle I've used since 2005, when I came out of the closet to my family, friends and colleagues as a genderqueer, masculine-identified butch. "Ben" is the "boy/boi" I should have been, and the name of my inner child that I'm re-parenting into the strong butch that I am today.
Benji -- the nickname for young Ben -- has been busting "out" in myriad ways my entire life. This surgery is just one more way that's happening. And my handle is the way I continually give credit to Ben for his courage and for all of the decisions that have made me whole.
Everyone calls me "JB:" initials that stand for my given name + my chosen name -- "J"en/"B"en.
Hope this doesn't blow too many minds.....

I originally had joined dailystrength a few years ago with this handle. My bf was in active addiction to alcohol/cocaine/ prescription pills and i made it b/c even though his family had given up on him, hope still lived within me that he would come through it. Today he is 20 months sober after 30 years of active addiciton.
Now, hopeliveshere, signifies my new start, i have hope that i will overcome obesity.

RJ's/Beginning....R J are my initials and beginning is meant to be my brand spanking new life that started the day I was excepted to get the sleeve.......It suits me because I feel like I have started life at the beginning again!!!!

I find a lot of names on here interesting and I'm sure there are good stories behind how everyone chose them. Anyone like to share? For me, Kindle is my horse's name and she was the "straw that broke the camel's back" in my decision to have VSG. I feel bad for her, having to lug my fat ass around the mountains and would love to be able to hop on her without having to find a rock or log to climb up on. (there's a dozen other reasons behind my decision, but my profile name is my tribute to her and how much more fun we will have next summer!)

I had RNY for one reason and one reason only: to get healthy. At 53 my health was severely compromised. I had uncontrolled type 2 diabetes, fatty liver disease, sleep apnea, PCOS, anxiety, panic, depression and recently battled Guillane-Barre Disease(also called GBS). I am still struggling with the Guillane-Barre but I am doing so well I hardly count it. I couldn't walk or talk when I was full blown with it so now I am much better. I was on 5 medicines for diabetes including insulin and my Endocrinologist suggested RNY. After much thought, prayer and research I decided it was the right thing for me. I applied to insurance and after 6 months of doctor visits and NUT visits I was cleared. My rebirth date was March 3, 2014. Now the journey begins...I healed small so I have had 2 anastomotic strictures and resulting out patient procedures to fix. I am hoping that is all I will need. Ironically, I am a GBS woman times 2!

I am trying to understand my patterns of emotions with eating. Really examine it and learn.
I have known for years that grief will cause me to totally lose my appetite. I literally cannot eat another bite, even mid meal, if I am given bad news, or become suddenly sad. Anger or fear will also stop my appetite cold.
This happened to me on a dinner out with my husband this past week. The vacation surroundings were wonderful, the food was perfect, I was hungry and enjoying the food. Then mid meal he started a fight and I completely lost my appetite. I took the rest of the food back to the hotel and gave it to my daughters.
Although that loss of appetite was not a revelation to me, it got me thinking about my history of overeating. I truly eat for comfort. I feel such happiness when eating. The comfort feeling is the polar opposite of the feeling in my gut I had during our awful dinner. During anger or fear or sadness, my gut hurts, burns, feels queasy. When I'm overeating I am feeling pleasure and comfort and joy. I don't go to the food right after a negative emotional episode. It's more like the next time I'm in a normal state (the next day or later), I just keep eating to keep the good feelings alive.
Of course, with the band I am not overeating as before. I listen to satiety signals and stop. I have a couple of months of good habits under my belt.
It's just that I know that unless I uncover the causes and triggers of my overeating, I am doomed to return to it over time. I always thought I overate to feel better. I now think it's more like, I overate to not return to the bad feelings again. To keep the good, normal feelings of this present moment going. It's not an immediate reaction to emotional lows of the earlier moment.
I hope this makes sense. I am curious what others have uncovered about their overeating triggers after they stopped overeating. Especially if you've had counseling to help understand it.

Wow healthyme, I had mine march 19th and I've lost 44lbs but I still can't handle a lot of foods?

I thought I wasn't old enough to wrinkle, haha turns out I was just fat!

I thought I wasn't old enough to wrinkle, haha turns out I was just fat!

I thought I wasn't old enough to wrinkle, haha turns out I was just fat!

I can finally say that I am officially scheduled for surgery. Scheduled for September 29th, what a way to wrap up the summer and work on the new me for next year.
After dealing with being overweight for so many years, I never thought that I would be looking forward to that day that I feel comfortable in my skin again so much.

Nail polish, nail polish, nail polish! Colors, designs, techniques, etc. LOL. Anyone else?

I think the surgery took about 10 years off my face. I do have the turkey neck fat under my chin. As I lose weight, it seems to tighten up.

I shall steal her beauty secrets!! Wish me luck

My wife has used it for several years now due to natural wrinkling. She never had surgery. I think it is one of her natural beauty secrets.

I had RNY for one reason and one reason only: to get healthy. At 53 my health was severely compromised. I had uncontrolled type 2 diabetes, fatty liver disease, sleep apnea, PCOS, anxiety, panic, depression and recently battled Guillane-Barre Disease(also called GBS). I am still struggling with the Guillane-Barre but I am doing so well I hardly count it. I couldn't walk or talk when I was full blown with it so now I am much better. I was on 5 medicines for diabetes including insulin and my Endocrinologist suggested RNY. After much thought, prayer and research I decided it was the right thing for me. I applied to insurance and after 6 months of doctor visits and NUT visits I was cleared. My rebirth date was March 3, 2014. Now the journey begins...I healed small so I have had 2 anastomotic strictures and resulting out patient procedures to fix. I am hoping that is all I will need. Ironically, I am a GBS woman times 2!

I have been reading all about loose skin on this board and haven't seen anything about facial wrinkles. Im no spring chicken (48) and I'm afraid my face will just be covered in new wrinkles (I've never liked the old ones!). Any experience out there or am I just being vain.
Ps I do realize being healthy is my ultimate goal! But being pretty AND healthy appeals to me more!!

Take this time to access why you are dependent on food, Feel the feels, don't feed them. I had this problem, I got a therapist before surgery and she helped sort out a lot of my issues. I would highly recommend a therapist that specializes in addiction or disordered eating.
Finding another vice just encourages the cycle of addiction.