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SW 187. goal weight: 175. Current weight, 184, =) 3 lbs this week,

SW 187. goal weight: 175. Current weight, 184, =) 3 lbs this week,

starting weight: 187. Goal - I'm going for 175 or 13 lbs.

191 today.

Thank you, LipstickLady. I wasn't expecting to read a comment saying that if you don't find Jesus before surgery, you aren't worthy of having it. Faith is personal, and it's hardly something to put someone on blast for on an internet message board. Judge not, lest ye be judged.
I am going to assume the best in people--perhaps those who've commented critically here have never dealt with mental illness on a personal basis. People who are mentally ill have an internal struggle, but it doesn't always mean that we take it out on other people. The OP mentioned that she was having thoughts that were shocking to her because of how judgmental they were. She didn't say anything to the women at the gym, and none of you are the thought police, so I think the efforts to slap OP on the wrist for thinking something negative are a bit misguided. I think LipstickLady had a very valid point earlier in this thread when she mentioned that it might be a part of internalized self-hatred for when you once WERE those women at the gym who weren't taking it seriously.
I also want to say that mental illness is not an excuse for behavior, but rather an explanation that contextualizes our behavior. If you do not know what it's like to have your meds off balance, or to be clinically depressed for years at a time, or to be manic and lose your better judgment, then the least you can do is not shame others who do struggle with those problems. Treating mental health issues requires a great deal of compassion and trying to understand that internal conflict. I think some commenters here could benefit from taking a step back and keeping in perspective that the OP has a legitimate medical illness which impacts her thought patterns and that she was seeking support. The title of the post indicates that yes, she understands that her thoughts were inappropriate. And, on a final note, I just want to affirm that within the medical community, it is widely acknowledged that a relationship with a deity is not an appropriate treatment for a mood disorder.

ONEderland Welcome Committee It's great to have you here.

194 today

ONEderland Welcome Committee It's great to have you here.

Check in: Last week 200 : today: 197 MADE IT TO ONEDERLAND and met my goal !! since I still have a few more check ins to go my next goal is 190 or (50 lbs lost total)

Check in: Last week 200 : today: 197 MADE IT TO ONEDERLAND and met my goal !! since I still have a few more check ins to go my next goal is 190 or (50 lbs lost total)

Check in: Last week 200 : today: 197 MADE IT TO ONEDERLAND and met my goal !! since I still have a few more check ins to go my next goal is 190 or (50 lbs lost total)

so close to goal and yet so far away. Goal is 199, weight today? 200. loss of 3 lbs though so that's good. (and 40 all together)

Curent weight 202. down 3 lbs. If I keep this up. I'm going to have to have a new goal...so close to ONEderland I can taste it.

Curent weight 202. down 3 lbs. If I keep this up. I'm going to have to have a new goal...so close to ONEderland I can taste it.

Curent weight 202. down 3 lbs. If I keep this up. I'm going to have to have a new goal...so close to ONEderland I can taste it.

slightly off topic but, that should keep you busy for awhile. Please let me know what you think of the game. I'm a bit unsure what I think based of the trailers. As for what to do with your hands, you can always come here, start a new book, do some crafts, volunteer at a local charity. Anything really that will keep your mind engaged and not thinking of food.

almost forgot to weigh in. SW 209 current weight 205 - 6 lbs to ONEderland

CONGRATS!!

almost forgot to weigh in. SW 209 current weight 205 - 6 lbs to ONEderland

great motivation>
Starting weight: 209
Goal weight: 199 (I'm aiming for ONEderland!!)

Update: Now DOUBLE the loss I was able to do without my sleeve. It truly was one of the best decisions of my life.

great motivation>
Starting weight: 209
Goal weight: 199 (I'm aiming for ONEderland!!)

great motivation>
Starting weight: 209
Goal weight: 199 (I'm aiming for ONEderland!!)

great motivation>
Starting weight: 209
Goal weight: 199 (I'm aiming for ONEderland!!)

Goal Weight: 210. Starting weight 225. CURRENT WEIGHT: 209! I did it!!