Becklinn

I feel just like this. I had surgery August 12th. I am just now supposed to be adding normal, solid foods back into my diet. However, I am finding that I am much more comfortable with liquids and very soft foods. Even when I eat very small bites, chew very thoroughly, and eat slowly, it HURTS. I vomit almost as often as when I was pregnant, and if I do manage to keep the food down, I feel nauseated for about 45 minutes after I eat. I am not going to lie, I like not wanting food, but I also miss it terribly. I love the weight loss, but I miss the enjoyment! I am such an emotional mess. I feel like all I do is count Protein and ounces of Fluid and grams of sugar. And even after losing thirty pounds, I am still having to take insulin about 2 times a week. OK...Seriously...rant over. I know that I am in the "buyer's remorse" stage. I just am praying that as soon as I am able to officially start exercising (next week) that my mood and emotions will improve, and that I will find an outlet. Does eating solids cause pain for anyone else?

I have never posted here before, and I am not quite sure of the etiquette of posting, so I hope that I do this correctly. Please forgive any mistakes. I have been reading posts now for about 3 months, but never quite had the nerve to post out of fear that something might go wrong, or I might somehow "jinx" myself. I had bypass r&y August 12th in Cheyenne, Wyoming and was released the next afternoon for the three hour trip home. I have lost 9 pounds in 5 days. Yesterday I managed to get in 50 ounces of water and 55 grams of protein. I go back to work Monday for professional development classes (I am a third grade teacher.) I totally understand what many of you are saying about being tired. I am still taking pain medicine about 3 times a day at the minimum dose, and I usually take a nap at about three in the afternoon. I am walking around the block two to three times a day and I need to increase that. I still can't sleep on my side which makes me really sad, and I really miss the horses, but I can't handle the four wheeler trip down the ranch road. I have found that warm liquids are my friend!! Anything cold makes my stomach/chest area ache really bad!! I used to hate drinking warm stuff, but now I am in love with herbal tea. Water is actually my best friend right now because my mouth is so dry???? I am still on clear liquids, so getting all of my protein in has been a huge challenge. The protein drinks and shots make me want to gag, and the thickness of liquids really sets off my stomach. I also cry....a lot....for no reason...is that normal???