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I have a few people i can call...mainly i need to get my mind on other things....like my daughter and my reason for doing this....i just kept makin excuses to eat something small.....argh

My boggest this was the seed thing. I would eat watermelon like crazy when i was a kid and my dad told me if i swallowed a seed i would grow a watermelon in my tummy....then i swallowed a seed on accident and i cried for 3 days off and on thinking i had something growing in my tummy...my dad cave me a big glass of water and said "here you need to water your seed" i freaked!!!

I dont know what is exactly in the drink...but ISOPURE is suppost to have a really good fruity drink with like 40grams of protien in it...i dunno bout carbs and stuff...havnt tried it yet but heard its really really good.

Thank you....i keep thinking that the Dr is gonna go in and say "stitch her up, she shoulda dieted...." and ill leave with no band. :-( makes me feel like a failure......

I cheated. I confess. I really tired to hold it together through this liquid diet thing. I started my Clear liquid diet on Last Thus and last night(sat) i couldnt stand it anymore...i have to get an ultimate cheeseburger from Jack In The Box. I really tried...i almost cried over it. This is bad....now i know how i got this big...im definately realizing whenever im stressed i get cravings like a pregnant woman. So then today i said to myself....im gonna do better i dont need this and i can fight this...so i took my fiance and took him to see 2 movies today. We saw Madagacar and Monster In Law.....welllllllllllll little did i know the urge of movie theater popcorn would be in my face...so i did it again i got popcorn. I could scream i feel so guilty....i felt like goin into the bathroom and pukin it up...sorry for TMI everyone...i think i seriously have an issue with food. This is the hardest thing i have ever done in my life hands down. I need some strength. I hope my liver isnt too big because i cheated on my clear liquid diet. I will be religeous about it from now on...ive made the promise to myself and my fiance is tryin to help me get through this. I hope 3 good clear liquid diet days will be sufficiant for my liver to go down enough. Anyone bigger and have no problem with surgery after only a few days of the liquid diet...im scared i may have just ruined everything for me...why am i so weak!!!! Sorry i had to vent..someone please respond...i really do need some input...

Im in need of some serious help. Im on day 2 of clear liquid before surgery diet. Im craving anything right now, its like im imagining a double cheese burger this is horrible. I keep telling myself i can do this i can do this.......but i feel so empty. I eat a sugerfree juice popsicle everytime i get the craving to go in the fridge... Does anyone know of anything with substance thats a clear liquid? Funny huh... Can i eat watermelon plain on a clear liquid diet? Watermelon is kinda like a clear liquid. This is like a drug addiction and i need my fix...sniff sniff....i hope this gets better...i just keep thinking new clothes...new life....thinner body.....movie theater seats.....omg......

Hey i know how you feel...seems each thing is one step forward and for once in my life all the steps are leading forward!!!! I have to have my psych eval done and then im having pre-op tests done on the 26th...surgery on the 2nd!!!! Exciting huh?!?!?!

OMG this excites me to have my surgery! So glad to hear your surgery went well. Mine is in 2 weeks....im excited!!! Good luck with your progress and keep us notified of your success

I to am worried bout who to tell and who not to. I had to tell my boss today and he was like "um ok, well good luck with that" and i told one other person at work who was like "are u sure u wanna do that" I dont like peoples reactions. Im telling my maid of honor...well she actually knows already and is very supportive....but i am not telling anymore more friends for now. All my family knows...but they need to just in case there is an accident or something. Other than that i am kind of confused who to tell....some may have opinions i dont want to hear...

Well i was a lurker until i made the decision to have the lap band done. Now im slowly weaning my way into the board...hehe... come back and visit us or keep us posted froma library computer.... good luck

Wow Pat, that seems like a alot of work on your plate. Sounds fun tho. I hope to manage some realestate if i get mroe successful later in years. I hear it can bring a great return with the right place in the right area.

I noticed a lot of you girl and guys are on during morning hours and less at night so im thinkin you all are at work. Im a stay at home mom and i redeliver newspapers to people who did not get them on the weekends... I dont work right now as much because i have gotten to a point where i feel almost embarrassed to get a job. I have a hard time working in an office because i dont have the right clothing to wear and anything that looks office appropriate in my size is like 35 years older than me.. Well the benefits of seeing my daughter grow up right now are far greater than an office job so for now its ok, but i can be a sit on my azz mom forever....its time to get moving and get my career goin.... So anyway just curious what you all do for a living and basically just tryin to get a feel for you all. p.s. i dont think ive ever used "you all" in a post so many times!!

OMG there is so much stuff on Branson. Do a google search and there will be a web site full of coupons and dates of shows. Ive been there its great. Not great for a 3 year old tho if you dont have a sitter for the shows. Silver Dollar city was cool but i hear it better since ive been there. Have fun!

YAY!!! Im excited for you!!!! My date is June 2nd. Im nervous as can be. How do they put you out? gas? needle? ooooohhhh im nervous....good luck with you.

I thouhgt id bump this since someone was asking about babies. Im really curious to know your current weight now Brandi!!!

MINE IS JUNE 2nd!!!!!!! YAY FOR ALL US JUNERS!!!!!

Hey just curious if anyone here has had Dr. Wagner?

Looks like my surgery will be JUNE 1 is all goes well....some people are taking their time faxing my paperwork to the proper places....ugh....but hopefully this all goes well!!!!! YAY me!

Yes i've had my consultation. Im just sitting around waiting for the lady to call me so i can make my appointment for the day!! Im really excited and nervous all the same. Thanks for the reply!!

Hey at least you admitted it, right!?! Well, i know ive already thought of the consequences of drinking while eating when i get my band and my fiance will be here to pull the glass away from me. You dont have much more to lose, maybe this cold turkey will bring you to your goal! Good luck! You've got my support

Hi, Im Krystal, Im 22 yr old female from saint Louis, Missouri. I am 380 lbs and 5'4. Seems like on everyones before surgery weight i am still the biggest one here. I do not have the lap-band yet, but soon, i am waiting on the surgery center to call me to schedule the appointment so it shall be soon! My story: Ive always been heavy throughout my entire life but it was never really serious until i was about 18 yrs old. My mother left me when i was 2yrs old and i know of her and have seen her but dont KNOW her, if you know what i mean. So i was raised by my father who was an on the go dad who did a lot of fast food and eating at classy restaurants. I was never tought to make good food descisions. Good food to me was food that tastes good. The damage was done. I remember eating twinkies as a little girl for Breakfast. One morning when i was like 5 i noticed that St Nick had never come and my shoe at the door was empty(if you dont know what im talkin about u can email me) so anyway i ran and told my dad that St. Nick never came and he told me to go to my room because he heard him comming....when i came out of my room there was a twinkie in my shoe. Go figure right! So ever since i was 16 or so i have not touched a twinkie because ive had my fill. I was about a 16-18 up until Junior year of High School. Then i got with an abusive boyfriend and resorted to food. I gained almost 100 lbs in less than 1 1/2 years. By the time i got rid of the boyfriend i was almost a sz 22. I stayed that way until 2 years later when the stress of starting, stopping, and not finishing colllege started playing on my nerves and i went to a size 24. I met a guy name Kyle who is now my Fiance on Feb 14th 2003. We became pregnant Oct 2003 and i had a little girl named Chloe Nichole June 30, 2004. My delivering weight was 350+ i cant tell you what it was because the Dr's scale only went to 350. So its been 11 months since the baby and im at my all time high of 380 lbs and a size 30-32. Im miserable. I dont feel up to doing much with my daughter. Thank god shes not walkin yet, i dont know if id have the energy to chase her. I work part time on weekends as a newspaper RE-delivery carrier, and im a Stay and home mom during the week. I would work and do something productive IF I COULD. We went to Grants Farm(for those of u that dont know, its like a mini zoo) the other day and i could hardly get through it without feeling miserable and having knee pain. I used to drive a 2001 Yellow Mustang that was completely done up with stripes and yellow interior, i won awards with it....well i had to give that up when i got pregnant because i was getting too big to fit in the Mustang....my excuse to everyone else was that it was unsafe for the baby to be in. IM NOT LOOKING FOR A PITTY PARTY...im simply telling my story and how i got to be where i am. Excercise is near impossible for me right now because im so big. Simple things like going to the bathroom is becomming a task all in its self. I NEED this surgery if im to survive to see my daughter grow up. I have great support from my Fiance and we are getting married September 17th of this year! So maybe i can sport a 360 pound body instead of 380 for the wedding...who knows..... I want to thank all of you that read this....this was one of my own personal journeys to take the steps and backtrack where all this began. Im ready for change...and im proud of all of you that have already gone through this and succeeded. Thank you for reading and listening to my story!

Hi Jodie I have knee problems too and they hurt really bad, how do i know when too much is too much. Basically...what are the signs that they could collapse. Curious to know. I need the surgery too because everytime i stand it feels like my knees are breaking.

I am so excited for you and i dont even know you! LOL I will get my band soon...HOPEFULLY!! Good Luck! Dont over do yourself!