In my mind, I've made up my mind over the past couple of days to be banded. Preferrably, as soon as possible.
My wife has been really on the fence, which, it turns out, is probably a good thing. The past couple of days, I find I've found feelings coming out that I haven't had in recent and not so recent memory. I've dealt with depression for a couple of years now, but the past couple of days, I've really hit a new low. Like I'm in purgatory, waiting on St. Peter to make a decision on me. I've finally gotten the chance to see the rest of my life, but there's a big "PLEASE STAND BY..." before I get there.
There's been quite a bit of stress in my life lately. I'm a computer technician for an understaffed school district. There are 900 computers and three of us - all trying to get everything working immediately. The stress is enormous. I find very little satisfaction in my life right now.
The only thing that gets me through the day (my 4 year old and wife notwithstanding) are my trips to the fast-food restaurants for Breakfast, lunch and sometimes even dinner.
When I'm banded, what replaces that? I realize that my depression will gradually get better, I'll have more energy, I'll feel better - but what happens when life becomes a dog-eat-dog world, and you're wearing milk-bone underwear?
Do many of you seek counseling or therapy in addition to your fills? What replaces eating when you get stressed out?
I think I'm probably going to start seeing a therapist before officially signing on the dotted line - just to see what his/her plan is for when I can no longer wallow in mysery with my best friend, Ronald McDonald.
Suggestions??:paranoid:paranoid