*Misty*Raine*

So I know a lot of you have been following the rant that I posted about my husband. He's not willing to get a job, won't go back to work, doesn't help with the kids, and we have been at each other's throats for years. And we fell outta love years ago. I have 6 kids, 1 girls with cerebral palsy that been thru many surgeries, the vent, and now is 7 on oxygen and a great kid, that's my crazy Bella Grace! And I have 1 girl with a rare form of Down syndrome .... It's called mosaic downs. Harley Paige is 5 and beautiful! Having 2 special needs babies is tough, but I feel like I'm alone. I feel like I'm the only one that can care for them, because I have accustomed to no one helping. Well after my last post, I have had my ah hah moment in my life. I am going to make changes in myself for my children to be proud of and see how life should be. The first place I need to start, is in our lives. My husband (not really willingly) is moving out Friday! I am sad for my marriage failing and my kids having to adjust to him being gone, but I know this will in due time be what we all need. Not just myself. I don't want my kids to think that it is ok for men to degrade women for getting medical help (WLS) or that it is ok for someone to degrade you as a person. No one deserves that. No child deserves to have parents that can't be in the same room. No child should have to live in a home with tension. So I asked him last night for a divorce, and he asked me "what took me so long to finally say it?" Answer: didn't wanna hurt my children. But then I realize, if I'm not happy, I can't make them happy! So as selfish as this sounds, it's me and my kids time!! Please no bashing! I'm dealing with enough!!

I have an update, posting it in rants now. I know I'm gonna catch a lot of crap for it from some, but just know I'm ok with my decisions!

Waiting for surgery til sept. But a yr out, I will be "cured" from my comorbid conditions, and MAYBE even a size 8- from a 18! I have high hopes!! Lol

Ty Ty Ty .... Am just another ugly ducklin in life waiting to become the beautiful swan that I think I might have ate once! LoL *teasing* Thought of the day: Hey vegan...... My food poops on urs! Jus sayin! Lol

Signed up to get mine too!! Ty for sharing

No, let admin know ur having this issue... Jus start a thread about it and put admin in the subject so they can fix it.

Well I'm the short one with em! I have had 6 kids an well... They over used em! Hahaha

Nope I just did it too!! Lmao

Woah! Not this fatty pants! Lol I am showing my age bad. #thanks sickness Hate that my kids keep takin my pic! How do I make em stop!?

How are u doing post surgery!? Waiting I hear!

It is a proven fact, that any narcotics will labor ur breathing! Are you on pain meds? Try not taking th til u get up and motivated, walk a lil and then take em. See if that helps til you can get into the dr! Hope that was useful info!! keep us posted on how ur doing and what the doc says!!

One of the nice things about MFP or the one I use is lose it, it's a lil more private, no one can see ur food logs an ur still accountable to ur self, is these apps take the calorie guess work out of it. We put in how much of something we eat, and it does the work for you! It makes it really hard to "mess up" ur calorie counting. It even has a place where u put in what u want ur weight to be and by when, and it gives you ur daily calorie allowance!! I like lose it (the app looks like an orange scale) because it has goals for me to work towards to keep me motivated til surgery. Then they reward you with badges. It's a really cool app. Point I'm trying to make.... A very sweet gentlemen (who I will leave name less) taught me how to log my foods. And since then, I'm shocked at how much I was actually eating! I didn't think I ate a lot til I seen it on my app. Then it was my wake up call! Like I tell everyone now, I didn't get fat by LOOKING at food.... That I promise you! I'm an over eater!! Hello my name is Misty and I NEED to log my food so I don't over do it!! :)

My advice to u is to drive over to the surgeons an d not leave until u have the answers/dates you need. This would tick me off not getting answers! I sympathize with u completely!!!

Dave once again... You rescue us from bland or boring!! Ty Ty Ty!!!

Also u can add mio to it or crystal light and it does mask the taste! Food for thought!

Dee! Ty lady. My true ephinany came 12/27/13 when I had just been admitted into the hospital again for the 4th time in 3 mos with a copd exacerbation, asthma, and emphysema. When I to the er, the dr told me I was too young for all this. And that's when it hit me something was really wrong. I talked to my pcp and Taaaa Daaaa! I'm here. I jus love when I am watching something or hear something said like this... That just makes me realize where I went so wrong in life! And this is one of those areas. I DO have to rewrite my story and make it what I want it to be. I can't allow my medical problems to define me anymore! I define me! I make me who I want me to be! I want to be a fit mom that her kids are proud of, it ashamed of! I wanna be a better example to my kids. I want off the bipap machine that scares my 3 yr old. I want to be responsible for being a success for once in my life! And guess what.... I CAN and WILL do this for my self and most of all for my children! I want them to know you chose your destiny... It doesn't chose you! You take life by the balls and make it work for you... Don't work for life!

Im watching biggest loser and she said "you just said it yourself, I've never been good enough and that's your story. It's time to rewrite that story"! Well ladies and gents that just hit this fat girl smack dab in the big ole face! I AM rewriting my story, and I AM good enough an I DO deserve this life I am giving myself on this journey!!! This is one of MY personal battles! I have never been good enough or never mattered enough, or I've always put myself way below everyone else. It's my turn to do something for me and not for someone else and yes I do matter, and yes I am deserving of this, and oh yeah I WILL do this!!! *Feeling really empowered and good about my journey tonite!*

Well I remembered seeing ur post yesterday about the hiccups.... And when dr oz was talking about it, I ran to my phone and started looking for the post! Lol .... Yeah I know I'm obsessed! Lol ... But he said to take ice water and gargle it and I was curious how it worked... They never did say how it helped... Just that it helps!

Oops tagged the wrong poster! Sorry DL! Lol

This one is totally full of wisdom!!! This is exactly why I adore this site! There are great and honest people and lots of info here! Congrats on ur surgery! I know u will do well! Also, just seen on dr oz, ice water! Gargle it!!! It's supposed to stop hiccups! Hope this helps!

Ty so much Hun!!!! I am so greatful for the support I receive here on this board!

Keep me posted on how it goes and what they have to say!!! so happy for u!!! U got this!

Aweee! Ty so much! My lil twirps are my everything! They keep me grounded and going strong. Ty so much for ur kind words! They came at just the right time.

Kinda cliche' to say this... But my babies are my motivation and man do they do it well!

DL, I gotta tell ya... I've never been been so excited about something so great in my life! I haven't shared a lot about my personal self, but here's my personal motivation ... Starting in October of 2013, I got really sick. I have always been an asthmatic but when I got "sick" we found out that I have copd, asthma, and emphysema. They also diagnosed me with interstitial lung disease. They don't have a cause other than my weight and they fact that I have smoked for the last 20+years. But like the drs have told me, it's not the cigarettes that have suddenly brought this on.... It's due to the weight increase in the last 6months that I have gained because of the steroids that they had me on for the asthma flare ups.... Well the weight rose due to steroids, then the breathin got worse, and the next thing I know I'm on oxygen and using a walker! I'm 37 yrs old!!! That's too young for all that nonsense! Needless to say, I'm a fighter for my own health. I have battled many illnesses in my life and I always pull thru them. So that being said I asked my pcp what can I do to make this all change? She told me that the only thing that was going to really give me the tools (since I am already using the gym, and walking daily with my walker 1/2 mile one way, and I'm watching my diet, is going to be me looking at bariatric surgery. She said that it would help me with over eating due to steroids. (I'm constantly starving with em).... So I started y own research and talked to the surgeon, and he told me that this was my only option or I am going to continue to gain! Ugh! No way!!! I don't wanna be the fat mom sitting on the side lines watching my kiddos grow up! I wanna be the mom chasing them on the soccer fields again like I used to!!! So dr custer and I talked yesterday and he said I have a great passion for my health as well as my kiddos, and he can't wait to work with me! I'm so blessed to have a great surgeon!!! Like I told him, I am so into my own health, simply because if I don't take charge of it.... No one else is going to and my babies will grow up with no momma! So it's time to pull my boot straps up, put my big girl panties on, and do this for myself and my kids! I'm so passionate about this .... That I can't put it into words. I just hope it shows as much as I feel it! Look at these 3 (of 6) faces and tell me you couldn't help but be passionate about living .... If for no other reason... THEM!