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Giddy! That's how I feel--GIDDY! When I think about losing weight, I never let myself imagine being thin; I just think about exercising and journaling, and being healthier, because "thinking thin" is just setting myself up for disappointment. After my first appt with Dr Smith, that night I dreamed that I was showering and I found a zipper on my back that I didn't know I had. I just unzipped my fat suit and walked out of the shower a normal weight. I dreamed a normal day with all my normal activities (pretty dull, really), except I was light as a feather. I just floated through the day with no aches and pains, no exhaustion, no range-of-motion issues. Life was EASY. This surgery isn't about my appearance. In my dream, I never once looked in a mirror--couldn't tell you what my thinself looked like, but I know how she FEELS: Giddy.

lessnless - 08/30/2007

Everyone in Dr. Smith's office has been wonderful--it's a very happy workplace, and Dr Smith seems very capable and sincerely invested in improving my life. Best of all, he is a LapBander himself, so he has first-hand knowledge of the whole process. I'm self-pay, so I didn't have the long wait insurance requires. I thought about switching to my husband's insurance and trying to get approved (no guarantees), but I justified the cost by "weighing" how heavy I'd be in 3 months time vs. having the surgery now. My husband's still in a bit of shock--I've researched this for a long time, but I havent' spoken to anyone about it. I made my first appt on August 8th, so he's only had a week to get used to the idea.

:whoo:I just made my surgical appt today--can't wait. I'm using Dr Adam Smith in Fort Worth, Texas. I've been pacing all day, don't know what to do with myself for two weeks. I don't start my pre-op diet 'til Friday. I spent the day starting a list of all the chores that I need to finish before the big day: Trim the dog's nails (2 80lb heathens, 18 nails apiece) Weed the flower beds