terry1118

Tried bending, didn't work. Tried fingers down the throat, didn't work. Tried looking at food, made me nauseous but didn't work. I'm just not a puker. I think remembering I am not the same as I used to be and being more careful in the future is going to be my best defense.
Am I the only one who feels so normal that you sometimes wonder if the doctor did the surgery right? That is, until this happens? Feeling like this is a confirmation that yes, he DID do it right.

I'm gonna be honest. I had pregnancy cravings and the baby "told" me that it would be ok if I had some Choc chip cookie dough ice cream WITH chocolate Syrup. My pouch immediately told my baby that he was full of sh*t and I dumped so bad that I twitch and cower in the corner at the sight of Choc syrup. I've cream I can handle but not the syrup
HW:358 DOS:338 CW:275 SD:1/28/13

My surgery is day after tomorrow. I'm not nervous about it but I am a little worried I may have forgotten to do something to prepare for it. So to distract myself I am playing a little game called 'Things I will not miss'.
These are only SOME of the things I will not miss:
- clueless people saying 'Congratulations! When are you due?' (Really people?! I am 53 years old!)
- buying clothes whose only redeeming quality is that they fit.
- Rashes from sweating
- back and knee pain
- snoring (I have a feeling my hubby won't miss this one either)
- pretending to wear a seatbelt that doesn't... quite... reach.
- watching from the sidelines while every one else has fun.

We never discussed goals and no one set one for me. My only real goal is to feel better, be healthy, do things with my husband, and enjoy my life.

Definitely an issue to bring up with the manager. If it's a chain store I'd bring it to the corporate office, too. With today's economy no business can afford to lose customers and they would have lost me for sure, along with my friends and family. And I'd definitely perdue the discrimination issue - no business wants to deal with a mess like that. You'd be helping to prevent anyone else to be embarrassed in that way in the future. At the very least that guy needs some retraining and sensitivity training.

That a good thing. The more you tell, the more people may try to talk you out of it. When surgery is done, telling people may be something you want to do or not. It's your choice. I told everyone right away, deciding to educate. But you have to do what you feel comfortable with.

I am four days post op. Weight day of surgery was 220lbs, weight after was 233lbs. Today I weigh 229lbs. The extra weight was from all the fluids they gave me during and after surgery. I am dealing with gas issues right now - not painfull, just loud. Post op pain is minimal.

We went to a Mexican restaurant for lunch. I got a grilled tilapia burrito minus the burrito part. Basically I got grilled tilapia w/black Beans and salsa. I ate a little for lunch, a little for dinner, and tossed out the rest. I feels decadent to throw out food but I'm doing it a lot now. The clean-plate club has lost a member... :-)

We went to a Mexican restaurant for lunch. I got a grilled tilapia burrito minus the burrito part. Basically I got grilled tilapia w/black Beans and salsa. I ate a little for lunch, a little for dinner, and tossed out the rest. I feels decadent to throw out food but I'm doing it a lot now. The clean-plate club has lost a member... :-)

Self esteem boost.
In my mind I'm doing something positive so it's affecting how I feel about myself, even though I haven't lost a lot yet. I feel proud of myself for taking this step. I feel anticipation rather than dread for my future. I feel satisfaction (tinged with surprise) that I am already feeling the benefit of losing 19 pounds. I feel delight at the clothes I outgrew beginning to fit me again. All these things make me feel a sense of self-worth and contentment.
When I started this whole thing my goal was to feel better about myself and start to live my life. It's already beginning to happen... :-)

It's true for me. Thinking of food relationships as abusive helps me to stay away from things that aren't good for me. And I feel that comparing my relationship to food with any other bad relationship keeps it in perspective. :-)

I am four days post op. Weight day of surgery was 220lbs, weight after was 233lbs. Today I weigh 229lbs. The extra weight was from all the fluids they gave me during and after surgery. I am dealing with gas issues right now - not painfull, just loud. Post op pain is minimal.

I only have two real goals:
1. Be healthy and feel good
2. Start living instead of 'existing'
Anything else is gravy...