sgandy

I am having a bowl of edamame and making some omelets for dinner in a bit!

I am glad to find people who can help me. Maybe I can help someone else. Life is hard...... I am in montgomery, Alabama.

I appreciate your honesty. There was never a point that I GAVE UP. I lost 135 lbs. and was down 5 pounds less than my goal. I was also sick and anemic. My doctor wanted me to eventually add back 15 pounds and plateau. I did and stayed like that for 3-4 years, and didnt have to think too much about what I ate, because MY body did all the work. At one point I did have to have emergency surgery for small bowel obstruction. I also have had 3 cosmetic procedures with more planned. Now my obsessions and addictions have taken a new form. When you are sick, with one addiction and you fix it, it doesn't go away. It's there, waiting to consume you. It will find you. I am now at 150 and would be happier at 140. I may not get there, but I will NEVER go over 160. I drink too much. Covers a multitude of feelings! I eat, sometimes. Never much. Sometimes not good choices. But I mostly eat well. I don't get sick anymore. A typical day right now is a shake in the morning. coffee and cream, diet coke, and Water through the day. eggs, or half a sandwich, or another shake for lunch. And at dinner I eat what I want mostly, just only 1/2 a normal plate. And I drink 2-3 vodka Tonics every night. Not strong enough to change that right now. All I ever think about is how I look, how others see me, who is better, how I can look better.......it's insane and it drives me crazy!

I M doing better. Got some Nectar and it is wonderful. Used the 5 day pouch test. It always gets me back on track. Back down to 150 now. I don't think I would make a good mentor. I traded one set of issues for new ones.

I am 8 years out. How have you done. Have you put back on any weight? What is a typical day of eating for you?

Hi, I am new here and scared shitless. I did so well for so long, even when my eating became more or less normal. I didn't go back to binging, but I wasn't sticking to the plan. I have slowly been allowing my weight to creep up. I didn't worry I guess because I still felt good, my clothes felt good, I felt sexy, I am active.....but now my size 10 jeans are tight, I really see the weight in my pictures, and I FEEL like that fat girl is trying to reemerge. I am trying desperately to get back on a plan, shrink my pouch, protein first, no sugar......but I am spiraling out of control. I can't be that girl again, I don't want to live at all if it has to be fat. I guess I just needed to say it. No one else in my family is heavy or ever has been. No one understands what it feels like to be addicted to food.

Hi, I am new here and scared shitless. I did so well for so long, even when my eating became more or less normal. I didn't go back to binging, but I wasn't sticking to the plan. I have slowly been allowing my weight to creep up. I didn't worry I guess because I still felt good, my clothes felt good, I felt sexy, I am active.....but now my size 10 jeans are tight, I really see the weight in my pictures, and I FEEL like that fat girl is trying to reemerge. I am trying desperately to get back on a plan, shrink my pouch, Protein first, no sugar......but I am spiraling out of control. I can't be that girl again, I don't want to live at all if it has to be fat. I guess I just needed to say it. No one else in my family is heavy or ever has been. No one understands what it feels like to be addicted to food.