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I am getting the sleeve on 10/23 too ! In Minnesota -wishing the best for everyone!!!!!!

That's fantastic!! Good for you for making such a big decision in your life and going through with it. It's great to hear discomfort is minimal for you. I hope my surgery goes as well as yours:)

I am sooo terrified that I cancelled my 9/11 surgery for the love of!!!!!!. Soo many folks on this site that can't wait for their surgery date and I cancelled mine. I even went on wellbutrin prescribed by my doc to calm my anxiety and still I cancelled! I have been going to a lot of support groups and listening to stories and reading on this website (which is fabulous) and still I am freaking out! I am so irritated with myself! I am a breast cancer survivor and I would think that would be enough for me to go through with it due to fat producing estrogen and that is what was in my tumor so now have been put in a medical menopause so my ovaries quit producing it but the fat still does. Even my oncologist said I would benefit on many levels from this surgery. In 2005 I quit smoking with the help of wellbutrin --that was a 22 year habit for me. I was so sick of that little cigarette running my life. My addictive personality has always been focused on food, which you cannot completely quit. Unfortunately it is the highlight of my day. My favorite things are food and happy hour-yep, love the cocktails too!. I am a 45 year old gal divorced with no kids except my 2 pups. I wasn't going to tell anyone about my surgery. My family would definitely not support this. They think this would be a weak way to deal with my weight. Tried everything with dieting and exercise and still did the famous yo-yo thing like many of us. My food addiction is very strong , I consider food my reward and fulfilling which I know is wrong but am struggling. I even go to the movies more for the bucket of popcorn than the movie! I actually get excited the whole day just about the popcorn!! I have even contemplated going to the theater just to get the popcorn and leave-who does that??? So far I have not done that but just that thought scares me. I am 5''5" and weigh 229lbs. I have a desk job and a cleaning business. I work many hours so food is defiantly a highlight. This is very depressing-I know there has to be more to life. I want to call the docs office and reschedule before the end of the year. That is when my insurance approval expires. I even have an easy preop diet. Just liquids 24 hours prior to surgery. I did have to lose 5-10 lbs before they would let me meet with the surgeon . My clinics philosophy is that they want the patient to be able to lose some weight on their own to get you started and to see how ready you are before they okay you. I did that which was easy due to being so overweight. I just may need to have someone knock me over the head and drag me in to the hospital caveman style!!! I am also so afraid of the food mourning period. I'm already depressed, I don't need to climb any further into a hole. I am thinking some very good antidepressants might be needed for that. Due to my addictive personality I am wondering what my food addiction will transfer to? I need help! Any advise is greatly appreciated!!:-)

Thanks Arts137-I am leaning towards it being worth the psychic effort. This may be the reset button I need. I am sure it's not easy but then again that's why I'm here in the first place. Thanks so much-Happy Monday!

Wow! This forum is fantastic! Like I said before I wasn't telling ANYONE about this surgery. Now I know from being on here it is exactly what I needed. I really appreciate the advice and personal experiences-extremely helpful.. I do have a pretty extensive health history and when I weigh the pros and cons of doing this surgery, the list of pros is endless. It sure is a fact that the mind is a powerful tool. This decision was easier to digest the further out I was from my surgery date. I guess a lot of fear goes into the permanency of the surgery and the what if's.... I always compared things I have done in my life to my cancer and the treatments I went through for it. So every time I ask myself "is it worse or will be worse than that time of my life" or I woujd say "doesn't hurt as much as chemo". When I do that for this decision it seems like a no brainer.. One thing I was concerned about was getting all the nutrients I need due to depleting some being in this medical menopause. My doctor said that us a common concern with cancer patients who consider this surgery but like I mentioned before, fat produces estrogen so that definitely is on my mind. Hey folks -this forum really helps with getting things out there, listening to others and trying to hammer it out from there. From the bottom of my heart-THANK YOU!!!

Thanks for the replies-I really appreciate it! I guess my biggest fear is the loss of my best buddy -food. I get temporary highs from food but when I look at the results of focusing on food it really pisses me off. I know I need to change for better health and quality of life-just not easy.