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Surgery was 11/4. Lost about 13lbs pre op diet and another 17 since surgery. So that equals about 30 total since the pre op. Please guys, try not to compare yourselves to others. Just bc your surgery was the same day, you're not a 'slow loser' if you have lost less, or whatever. Every BODY is going to lose differently, have different composition of Fluid, etc. Any loss is a good loss, and you will lose as long as you stick to the plan. Heck, you will probably lose if you DON"T stick to the plan.

WOW that totally made me want to book our family pictures!! I have not had them taken....I was waiting to be thin!! F THAT!!
Thank you for posting that was just what I needed to read!

Oh WOW! I love this! Thank you so much for sharinf

Surgery was 11/4. Lost about 13lbs pre op diet and another 17 since surgery. So that equals about 30 total since the pre op. Please guys, try not to compare yourselves to others. Just bc your surgery was the same day, you're not a 'slow loser' if you have lost less, or whatever. Every BODY is going to lose differently, have different composition of Fluid, etc. Any loss is a good loss, and you will lose as long as you stick to the plan. Heck, you will probably lose if you DON"T stick to the plan.

No not meant toward you at all. Most pain for me I say is in my mind. The side effects form that stuff is much worse to me then the pain. My Hernia surgeon few years back when I told him I worried about getting hooked said flush em down the toilet I did just that

I guess I've seen too many get hooked I tell myself going in to get right off them. I see no real benefit it's all in the mind Tylenol is fine I wanna drive ( I drive home from hospitail) and get stuff done not lay around in alleged pain sleeping all day. It's just me

http://myfriendteresablog.com/so-youre-feeling-too-fat-to-be-photographed/
Read this. I feel the same way a lot of the time, and this article lays it all out. Focus on the moments, not your imperfections, because you're the only one paying attention to how good or bad you look.

Look, here's the thing (and I know you know this). People are amazingly oblivious to the things we do with our hair. I have gotten real extensions, I have used clip ins and added a foot of length. People BARELY notice. Seriously, people will comment, 'wow your hair grew' or, 'your hair looks good, it's getting long'. Nobody really notices as much as we think they do.

http://myfriendteresablog.com/so-youre-feeling-too-fat-to-be-photographed/
Read this. I feel the same way a lot of the time, and this article lays it all out. Focus on the moments, not your imperfections, because you're the only one paying attention to how good or bad you look.

Nurses are caretakers. Which is ironic, because we often forget to care for ourselves.
Nurses also tend to lose their identities in their profession and family roles. Meaning that identifying as a nurse becomes part of who they are, not what they do.

If I only knew then what I know now....I can't decide if I'd be better off or not. I might have just been dangerous.

Do or do not, there is no try. Suck it up and get it done. What helped me was finding a shake that I really liked. Be sure the calories/ protein/ carbs meet with your doctors approval. It's hard, the hardest thing I've ever done. You can do it.

Do or do not, there is no try. Suck it up and get it done. What helped me was finding a shake that I really liked. Be sure the calories/ protein/ carbs meet with your doctors approval. It's hard, the hardest thing I've ever done. You can do it.

Another option I haven't heard yet is ordering them online. I ordered my effexor from india for the year I was off work on disability. Not the cheapest option, but may be cheaper than local pharmacy. I know for me, going off my meds means disaster. weaning or not. I would shut off my cable and internet before i went without. I think the county or city clinics are a fabulous resource. Some ppl won't use them bc they're ashamed. Don't be one of those people. Your mental health is as important as your physical health. If you had cancer, you wouldnt wean off your cancer meds...you would find a way! I hope you find a way.

I used to drive to Tijuana when I lived in So Ca and was taking Phen-Fen (in the early 90's). U walk into a Mexican pharmacy and pay the pharmacist a nominal amount (like $25) and they write u an RX and then they fill it for wayyyy cheap (I got a 90 day supply that usually cost me $150 a mth for like $15).
It's also illegal in Mexico (as it is here) to get RX meds without an actual RX. Lucky thing the on hand pharmacist can actually write and fill the RX at the same time!
And thats my Mexican Phen Fen story....doesn't everyone have a Mexican Phen-Fen story?

I am contacting the drug company and I have an appt at the local mental health (humiliating) to get on medi-cal until the ins kicks in. While on the phone a call beeped through. .. my daughter got hit by a car on her way home from school. Omg... thank God she is ok but the guy took off. I can't think straight so I'm signing off for a while. . I need to be with my kids. Thank you all for the help

Is a trip south of the border an option? You are in Chico, right? Grab a cheap flight down to San Diego, rent a car and head south into Tijuana for a 6 month supply. Probably be the cheapest route overall.
Also, many drug companies have programs for financially challenged folks. Also take a look at other government programs available for you. Do a search in the GoogleVerse for Prescription Assistance Program in California.

At the risk of sounding crazy..,have you checked out rates on either your state or the national affordable care act website? The insurance would start in January, and perhaps would be more affordable than COBRA. That is assuming you can even get in the site.

Bipolar person chiming in here...I can't think of how hellacious my life would be without meds. I'm really sorry you're in this situation. I agree that you should ask your doctor for samples. I was able to save over $200 thanks to my doctor who had samples of the very expensive (but necessary) psych med that I take.
Hubby & I just finished up 3 months of COBRA which cost us over $1K/month, so I can see how that might not be feasible for you right now. I agree that you should think about just paying for the meds out of pocket if you can. Hopefully they have a generic version which will of course be cheaper.
My final suggestion is to see if you have a sliding-scale mental health clinic in your area. There's often a waiting list, but you will be able to get the care that you need at little or no cost to you. I have used the services of two clinics in the past and for the most part got good care. They probably won't spend as much "quality time" with you as a private doc would but if all you need is medication management that probably won't be an issue anyway. I wish you all the best, and BTW, you are NOT a loser!

I am writing these things down, because I am sure there will be times early post op when I wonder "why did I do this?"
This is why:
1. Having to shop from a limited clothing selection. Eff you , size 20, you suck.
2. The feeling of my fat middle squooshing out when I sit down.
3. swolly feet
4. Feeling like the fattest person in the room
5. Being the fattest person in the room
6. Feeling invisible
7. Feeling self conscious and size conscious
8. My stomach touching the table in a restaurant booth
9. Not fitting comfortably in a movie theatre seat
10. Looking at myself in pictures
11. Feeling ugly
12. Body aches, knee aches, hip aches
13. shoes that used to fit, and now are too tight
14. Low energy
15. Not turning heads
16. Looking in the mirror naked
17. clothes that no longer fit.
18. Not being able to wear my rings
19. Being afraid to run into people I haven't seen in a while
20. Not feeling pretty
Ok, I only wrote 20. I'm sure there are more. Help me out. Why do you never want to go back?

I am writing these things down, because I am sure there will be times early post op when I wonder "why did I do this?"
This is why:
1. Having to shop from a limited clothing selection. Eff you , size 20, you suck.
2. The feeling of my fat middle squooshing out when I sit down.
3. swolly feet
4. Feeling like the fattest person in the room
5. Being the fattest person in the room
6. Feeling invisible
7. Feeling self conscious and size conscious
8. My stomach touching the table in a restaurant booth
9. Not fitting comfortably in a movie theatre seat
10. Looking at myself in pictures
11. Feeling ugly
12. Body aches, knee aches, hip aches
13. shoes that used to fit, and now are too tight
14. Low energy
15. Not turning heads
16. Looking in the mirror naked
17. clothes that no longer fit.
18. Not being able to wear my rings
19. Being afraid to run into people I haven't seen in a while
20. Not feeling pretty
Ok, I only wrote 20. I'm sure there are more. Help me out. Why do you never want to go back?

And now the defensiveness starts. You're gonna need a lot of head work. Good luck though, been there!

Ok maybe I'll be spit in cause I have not actually been there yet but Jeeze, cut the girl a break! Lol!!! You don't need mental help or all kinds of therapy! Your HUMAN!
You know why you should not cheat and you know the risks. If your doctor says to do something, it is because he is a trained Medical professional who has your best interest at hand. Just do your absolute best and try to stick to it and pray to the liver gods that bastard is ready for show time!

I am writing these things down, because I am sure there will be times early post op when I wonder "why did I do this?"
This is why:
1. Having to shop from a limited clothing selection. Eff you , size 20, you suck.
2. The feeling of my fat middle squooshing out when I sit down.
3. swolly feet
4. Feeling like the fattest person in the room
5. Being the fattest person in the room
6. Feeling invisible
7. Feeling self conscious and size conscious
8. My stomach touching the table in a restaurant booth
9. Not fitting comfortably in a movie theatre seat
10. Looking at myself in pictures
11. Feeling ugly
12. Body aches, knee aches, hip aches
13. shoes that used to fit, and now are too tight
14. Low energy
15. Not turning heads
16. Looking in the mirror naked
17. clothes that no longer fit.
18. Not being able to wear my rings
19. Being afraid to run into people I haven't seen in a while
20. Not feeling pretty
Ok, I only wrote 20. I'm sure there are more. Help me out. Why do you never want to go back?

Highest weight: 275
Pre Op weight: 255
Surgery Day weight 243
Today's weight: 227
Time since surgery: 3 weeks 5 days
Height: 5' 7"