birdmadgirl

I wish I had known how emotional not being able to eat would be. It was very very difficult in many many ways and I was not prepared for that.

I cannot wait to have mind blowing sex like I used to. bring on the skinny shagging!

Mine have been crazy too! Especially the depression. When did you have your surgery? I had mine the end of september and Ill tell you what, the michigan winter did NOT help me at all. I dont feel any different. everyone keeps asking me if I feel better and I dont. I think I feel worse. I can see that I am losing the weight but my mental health is still the same as it was before if not worse.
I saw my meds doctor and told him whats been going on. I take 60mg of cymbalta and 10mg of abilify and he said that he doesnt want to put me on more medications because what I am on should be fixing the problem. so theres that.
keep in touch and let me know how you are doing.

Our stats are similar. I had my sleeve surgery on 9/12/13 and starting weight was close to yours at 278.4. I would say a couple of suggestions.
1. Get back to the basics. The beautiful thing is that you STILL have the same tool that you had when you first started losing weight. It just depends on the extent to which we use it appropriately that it "works." Get back to Protein first (at least 70 or so grams) and no more than 40 or so carbs, and at least 100 oz of Water. When I eat that way, that is how I lost 155 pounds, and I know I won't regain when I stick to that concept.
2. Find something you love to do to get some exercise. I found running. It has saved me in a lot of ways. It is my medication, my me-time, and cancels out that occassional straying from my new way of eating.
3. Do some emotional work (this is way harder than any 'eating' advice I could give you) to figure out what got you to 270 in the first place, and why you are struggling. For me, and I venture, for many others, it is about food, but it is NOT really about food. You have to figure out what is keeping you from making the choices you already know you need to make. I would recommend reading "When Food is Love". It literally changed my life. I discovered it at 7 months post op when I started seeing an eating disorder therapist who specializes in WLS patients. She recommended it and it has been the single most important element (along with weekly therapy - which I still go to) in helping me be successful in the long term - now 22 months post op and at "dream goal"
I KNOW you can do this. Please don't feel like a failure or feel discouraged. Sometimes we just don't "know" how to get back to where we know we need to be. But you have the tool, and you have the strategies. I believe you can succeed.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

aww! thank you so much for reminding me of this thread and for being so kind. One thing I did do is ask my family doctor to put me back on adipex temporarily. Ive been doing that for about a week and have lost about 4 pounds. The only reason I did it was to get my mind back on track and do a little "reset". When I am hungry, I'm trying to reach for a Quest bar instead of a cookie.
I still have not made a follow up with my surgeon (which I WILL do)... I am just so nervous about going after so long. I figure I'll just put it all on the table and beg for mercy.
Bought some more premeir shakes, trying to work those in in the morning.
Keep up the encouraging words, they are so helpful. I appreciate you guys.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

@@birdmadgirl how are you today? Your post is wonderful and it means you are NOT A FAILURE but HUMAN just like the rest if us!! Do track everything you eat, drink, graze and i think you stated you use My Fitness Pal, so keep going. 1 day and 1 meal at a time. Also, be kind to yourself and remember you have lost and have still maintained a great portion of that loss. Keep us posted please and be well ????

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

My suggestion is to go back to the basics that you used in the first few weeks after surgery. Changing our eating habits and controlling our cravings for foods off the approval list is a learned behavior. Using adipex isn't changing one's behavior.
Reset your mind and body without drugs.
Exercise 30 minutes every day.
Limit your caloric intake during the reset period to 550-850 calories a day.
Start with two Protein Meal Replacement shakes a day and one meal of 3-4 ounces of Protein from something that had a mother.
Eliminate dairy during reset
Eliminate extra carbs.
Don't cheat. No alcohol. Reduce cheese consumption.
Drink 64+ ounces of Water a day.
Eat at the same time each day and schedule meals about 4-5 hours apart.
Consume at least 60 grams of protein a day.
Use a kitchen scale and weigh all protein after cooking.
Eliminate fruit during reset.
Avoid caffeine.

I've lost on adipex several times, it works great ( pre sleeve). The problem is that it ALWAYS comes back. If it came back with sleeve, it will with meds. However, I totally get why you'd want to try it again. It could help get the 15 back off and maybe 'reset' your habits. Hopefully that is the case if you do it. If you do, here's a tip I leaned that made my meds go further, especially since you're smaller now. Break your pill in half and take half a pill along with a Women's One A Day Weight Smart Vitamin. You'll feel the appetite control with less jittery side effects. Good luck.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

I havent logged on in a long time. I was sleeved 9-23-13. my heighest weight was 270. I am currently 195. I feel like I have failed. I never went back after my 6 month follow up because I was too ashamed of going back to my old habits and being a slow loser. I was down as low as 185 but that was it.
I graze, I drink pop, I eat crappy foods. I rarely excersice. I am currently stuggling with depression issues and I really believe thats part of it.
What do I do now? A year and a half out and I am so ashamed. I feel like everyone is judging me and thinks I am a failure.
Where do I even start?

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)...
I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did.
Please keep up all the positive encouragement.
I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today.
baby steps but steps at least.

I wish I had known how emotional not being able to eat would be. It was very very difficult in many many ways and I was not prepared for that.

I wish I had known how emotional not being able to eat would be. It was very very difficult in many many ways and I was not prepared for that.

I am 7 months post op and have lost just under 60lbs. I havent lost anything in a month and a half. I am so worried that I will never lose another pound and that I am done forever. help!