birdmadgirl

edit to say i was a cigarette smoker not a marijuana smoker but still....

I dont believe my clinic did drug testing but my advice would be to stop all smoking of anything at least a month before your surgery. I was a smoker and stopped before surgery. it can hinder your healing and make you more prone to a leak.

Really can't remember that ever happening........

being a shell of my former self due to becoming a complete recluse. I dont go out anymore. I avoided an old friends wedding by lying saying I had to work when really, I just havent seen them in about 15 years and I am horrified about how I look. I wouldnt be able to find anything to wear anyways and Dont have the money to find a new outfit at the fat girl store anyways.
Being diagnosed with social anxiety disorder when I used to be a complete social butterfly. I had tons of friends and would go out all the time.. now the phone never rings and I am home with my fella everynight.
housework going to **** because I dont have the energy or motivation to clean. Feeling like a piece of crap because of what I have done to myself. Eating because of how I feel and what I have done to myself. being 34 years old and feeling like my life is over when it should just be starting...
oh man, does the list go on..

I've lost 10 lbs so far. Sleeved sept 23rd. Congrats to you!!!!

I'm 6 days post op and feeling much better. Had to stay an extra night in the hospital due to high blood pressure. Drinking well and sleeping a lot. Feeling hunger pains though.

Have to be there at 730. 930 surgery time. Thank you all. So many emotions..... Good luck to you too tomorrow. Message me if you're up to it tomorrow

Have to be there at 730. 930 surgery time. Thank you all. So many emotions..... Good luck to you too tomorrow. Message me if you're up to it tomorrow

ME TOO!!! jamie marie tomlinson on Facebook from michigan. find me!

ME TOO!!! jamie marie tomlinson on Facebook from michigan. find me!

I have a few meds I take regularly. am I going to be able to take them normally after surgery or do I have to crush them?

36 lbs in one week! omygosh! thats incredible.

Just bought the
Just bought it off the website. It got great reviews. I hope I like it!

being a shell of my former self due to becoming a complete recluse. I dont go out anymore. I avoided an old friends wedding by lying saying I had to work when really, I just havent seen them in about 15 years and I am horrified about how I look. I wouldnt be able to find anything to wear anyways and Dont have the money to find a new outfit at the fat girl store anyways.
Being diagnosed with social anxiety disorder when I used to be a complete social butterfly. I had tons of friends and would go out all the time.. now the phone never rings and I am home with my fella everynight.
housework going to **** because I dont have the energy or motivation to clean. Feeling like a piece of crap because of what I have done to myself. Eating because of how I feel and what I have done to myself. being 34 years old and feeling like my life is over when it should just be starting...
oh man, does the list go on..

23rd here too!

I'm so nervous that they will find something wrong tomorrow and it will prevent me from getting the surgery, help!!!

called and left a message, they didnt call back. I go in on monday. havent had a cigarette in 2 days.

they wanted to move me to sept 3rd but unfortunatly, that doesnt work for me workwise.. now I am september 23rd. My great grandmothers (she has since passed) birthday. She was my most favorite person in the entire world. This is a special gift for me on her special day.

My surgery date is September 30th in Ypsilanti, MI.
who else is in september? what are your thoughts? are you excited??!!! Nervous?

I cannot wait to have mind blowing sex like I used to. bring on the skinny shagging!

My surgery date is September 30th in Ypsilanti, MI.
who else is in september? what are your thoughts? are you excited??!!! Nervous?

I have no friends left. I have literally alienated myself from everything and everyone. I feel like I am trapped in my life and trapped in my body. I thought I was ok with it until I realized that my anxiety, depression, lack of motivation, tiredness, and lost sex drive ALL have to do with my self esteem and weight. I have turned into a lazy, unmotivated, grumpy person. I used to have tons of friends, be outgoing and very social.. now I am a hermit. I dont love myself, I dont even like myself. Luckily, I have a long term boyfriend that loves me for who I am and is supportive and happy for me.
I want to have a baby. I am 34 years old and I want to be happy and healthy for a child. I want to get married. We have talked about it. I will not be a fat bride. I just wont.
I am tired of having my life feel like its over at 34. I want it to just begin. I want to start over. This time I will make the most of it.
this is the most empowering choice I have ever made. for the first time in years, theres a spark of life in my eyes and hope in my heart.

WOW, you are so right about the "regrets about NOT doing something" rather than regrets that you did something. I just never thought of it that way. I do this with all decisions in my life.. even things as simple as where to go out to eat, I flip flop and am very indecisive. this is the biggest descision I have ever made and I cant believe I am doing it!!!

WOW, you are so right about the "regrets about NOT doing something" rather than regrets that you did something. I just never thought of it that way. I do this with all decisions in my life.. even things as simple as where to go out to eat, I flip flop and am very indecisive. this is the biggest descision I have ever made and I cant believe I am doing it!!!

^^^^very inspiring post gamergirl..
as the date approaches, I am getting more and more nervous. I know I am making the right descision, its just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Too many "what ifs"..
what if I didnt try hard enough on my own
what if people judge me
what if it doesnt work
what if I regret it
what if.................
sigh......... I need encouragement