TracyK

Good morning violets! we are going to moms to show her the new car today. Yesterday was absolutely gorgeous and I think it will be the same today. I wish I could send the snow violets some of this weather!!! I really feel for all of you. Well, one person in Georgia won the megamillions. Michelle-you are peaking my interest in that Stephen King book. I love to read his stuff and have not got that one yet. Everyone have a great day! I will check in later

My news...I just got a new Chevrolet HHR (the gold 'champagne' color). I absolutely love it. Its not a BMW, but it works for me!! A smaller car for a smaller ME!!

WWWOOOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOO Michelle!!!! Great job!

Good morning violets! Terri-thanks for the update on your mom. I am glad she is in a room that allows more visitation. That is wonderful. Pamela-poor Susanne! Yikes:scared2:that must be painful! Healing purple power to her! I do not even know how much food to put on MY plate mch less anyone elses. I still have the old habit of putting way to much food on my plate and end up wasting it. I am going to change my weight on here to what it really is. When I see the 173 everyday it depresses me, so I will just change it as it changes. Have a great day everyone!

That was beautiful....thanks for sharing!

I have never eaten eggplant in my life....how does it taste? Can anyone describe it?

Aetna told me now ay...so I self paid. Good luck to you :tt2:

Hello there....I smoked all the way up until I had my surgery and even now. No problems...good luck to you!

Good morning violets! ((((((Terri)))))) Tracy-sorry you lost your YauMan! I have a feeling Jonathens days are numbered. Not that I mind though! lol TGIF!!! Should be a quiet weekend over here. Macy wants to go to the wildlife park to pet the animals. I will probably bring her to do that and to play at Chuck-E-Cheese. She always sleeps so good when she plays hard like that! Our new couch has some issues and the place where we bought it seems to be in the 'avoid the customer complaints' mode. Hopefully I can get someone over here to fix it or replace it. Everyone have a great day! Does anyone have anything FUN planned for the weekend?

:grouphug:You are joking, right? LOL I am pulling for Ozzie or James the gravedigger.:thumbup:I love that show. Pamela-I was very please with the eviction on BB last night. I feel bad that Parker had to leave with the little witch though. You could tell he was not a happy camper when they were talking to Julie Chen. Continuing with my reality TV..... Judy-I agree with you that the weight the blue team lost was amazing! Can you just imagine 16 pounds in one week? Between The Biggest Loser, Survivor, American Idol and Big Brother, my DVR is working overtime! (oh, and Americas Next Top Model when i can fit it in) Hi Jane, Suzie, Kat, Laura, Jenn, Terri, Michelle, Haydee and all you other wonderful violets!!! (mia culpa if I forgot anyone) I have a new goal...not to GAIN any (more) weight. That is my focus right now. I just got an e-mail from one of my dearest friends telling me her sister who has had a long battle with cancer passed away at 1 AM this morning. My friend lost her mom just about 2 months ago and now has lost her sister. I wish I lived closer to her. I would love to give her a hug right now. OK, enough playing around. I have to give macy a bath. Have a great & restful night Violets!!

Terri-I wish there was something I could say! Hang tough sista! just know we are all thinking about you and sending you big violet hugs and we love you. Call if you need anything, please! Good morning everyone. I hope you all have a great day. (up another pound, ahhh screw it!) Kat-you poor thing! I hope you can get some help with that tooth sooner!!

If it takes boobies to save my life then I am one dead woman!!

Boy THAT is easier said than done these days!!

No I did not eat the whole cake. It was one of those little like individual size mini cakes. We all 3 shaared it so that is not bad. But with that and the candy and the vacation we had I am back up to 177 and I am very depressed. I know I shouldn't be and I know what to do to fix it but that still doesn't keep me from crying about it (literally). Today is a new day and I will try once again to be the model bandster! I know I can. I am just so scared about my body being where it wants to be and me not being able to do anything about it that I am self sabatoging myself. I am just depressed. I need to get ready for work. Take care everyone.

WOOHOOOO...will your insurance cover a 2 for 1?:cursing: What kind of insurance do you have?

I have great news for all of you. None of you have to worry about eating supper tonight cause I did it FOR YOU!!! LOL :cursing: I did so well all day then I get home...let the b-day eating begin...(warning, food porn ahead) DH had made me a ribeye and had me a b-day cake AND a little bag of dark chocolate peanut M&Ms :w00t: Here is the problem...bye bye good girl, hello higher number on the scale. Ugh, oh well, its my b-day right, RIGHT?! Was it worth it? Ummmm, ask me in a day or 2.:cursing: (the chocolate icing was awesome:tt2:) BAD BAD TRACY!!!!!:tongue: (are my mixed emotions apparent?)

love your hair too Tracy!!!

Good morning violets-another year older! AND I have to go back to work today. Oh well, I am a year older whether I am at work or anywhere else LOL Haydee-hope you are back to 100% very soon! Take care! Thanks for the comments and you are all SO smart. I knew I loved you all for a good reason! Have a super day everyone!

Wow, i watched this video blog and I hear what she is saying. I rarely post anywhere but this thread anymore. And to tell you the truth ladies, I have really noticed that as I have gotten closer to goal I am very careful (even here) of what I type because I do not want to come off sounding 'holier than thou'. I know you are all my friends and we all care about each other but it is that exact friendship that I do not want to hurt by saying anything that may hurt one of you. I am changing gears to the cheerleader mode. (or at least I have tried to). I try not to mention wanting to lose more weight because I know some of you are struggling so much and I do not want it to come off as sounding ungrateful for what I have accomplished. Being close to goal is great but I still have work to do. I always will have to work at it, just as all of you will too. I want all of us to succeed. We will succeed. We have a very special thread here. I believe it is a lifetime of friends we will have forever. I just never wanna feel like Chickie does. I could feel her pain in that video. She wants to be here and feels like she doesn't have a voice anymore cause she is at goal. Just because you are close to goal or at goal doesn't mean you do not need a support system anymore. Ugh...I am babbling now. Sorry...

Laura-love your avatar!! Kat-yes maintaining has been easier than I thought, but I am not ready to maintain yet! It is better than gaining for sure. I just wanna get these last pounds off to prove to ME that I can do it. So, in a nutshell, I am not done yet! My brain isn't done, hopefully my body doesn't think it IS done:confused: Judy & Laura-I forgot to tell you how great you both look in your pics! What a difference! I love your coat Laura! Great job ladies!

Thank you everyone....and Judy, I tried those pants on in a size smaller and they would not fit in the waist. The shirt, well, I am just so used to buying bigger clothes to cover up the fat that I have not gotten out of that habit. I probably never will! As far as the topic o' the day that Laura brought up. This whole weight loss joourney thing we are going through is fun, challenging, healthy, flattering and SCAREY. That is why I have been saying I am so scared. The fat girl in me is PISSED off. That is where the little quote "I have a screaming thin person in me but I can usually shut the bit*h up with chocolate cake". I know I can shut mine up that way. Well, maybe chocolate ice cream, cake doesn't go down as easy! But in the past my "fat girl" in me has always won because I have always gained it back. This time I won't let myself, I can't. My life depends on it. THAT is what keeps me going. Do I have bad days, hell yes. Why? Because sometimes I want to feel "normal". Eating what I want, when I want has always been my "normal". I just need to find a new definition of normal and I don't know how I am going to do that. I know why I eat. I know what to do to fix it too. So far I haven't really had a problem doing just that. Now? HAH! I do not know anymore. Who am I if I am not "Tracy, the girl who needs to lose weight"? Over the weekend I saw some friends of ours that came to eat with us at the casino. My best friend that I have not seen since about July asked me a question that I have never been asked before. She said, "Tracy, you re done losing weight now, aren't you?" Uhhh, scared the crap out of me. I just told her that I have 8 more pounds to goal. Then I started thinking, oh my God, who am I now? What do I do now? Don't get me wrong, I love the compliments (hint hint, lol) but I just am falling into a complacency as well and it scares the heck out of me. So, Laura you are so not alone. We are all finding our new paths. We are all learning this together. At this moment, the best thing I have is talking to all of you because you understand. ((((((hugs))))) (sorry for the novel) OH, Kat, I got the b-day and anniversary cards. Thanks SO much! Made my day!