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Stef, they make full-body uhhh I hate to say "girdle" but thats sort of what it is. From your thighs to your shoulders. I was thinking of getting some of those myself, actually! thanks! My band is a 10cc band there's 2.something in there now. I'm sure I'll need another fill in a month, but I'm going to do my best until then to work on the "head" hunger issues. I realize now no matter how tight the band is, I can still gain at least some weight back if I'm not careful. So - I did a daring thing today too. I adopted a dog! It's daring because I'm not allowed dogs in my apartment (even though sooo many people here have them). I worry that I'd get caught and have to find her a new home, but she is sooo beautiful and so calm and sweet. I just love her already. I'm praying that having her will help me and my lazy-bum 7 year old get out more. My daughter refuses to go anywhere lately! I hope you all have a good weekend. Talk to you soon!

Sooo happy to hear I'm not the only one. I was starting to get guilty! I'm happy I'm finally standing up for myself. So this is what "normal" people are like!! They're not afraid to tell someone off because of being afraid of being called fat anymore, woot! I imagine this is going to be a pendulum of emotions. I'm sure we'll be swinging wildly from one extreme to another for a little bit, and settling somewhere in the middle. I'm just really happy that I was finally able to get this stuf off my chest by telling certain people off, and that I've eliminated the bad people in my life so I can start building healtheir relationships soon!

I can relate to being ANGRY. I'm angry all the time now. I've finally started telling some people what I've been meaning to FOREVER. I'm trying to figure out if this means I'm "getting better" or if I'm taking out my anger on the wrong people. As an example, my cousin, who I've always been very close with, had a "wedding" at her house one mile down the street and didn't invite any of her family, including her mom. I wasn't even going to talk to her about it (I HATE THE GUY), but she kept f'n asking me why I wasn't happy for her. After about the third time I just let LOOSE and said some really mean things to her. it felt GREAT to get it off my chest but I'm pretty sure I'll never talk to her again. Right now I feel like it's a good thing, it's not good to have draining people in your life all the time (she's always borrowing money or something else). I've also been super angry at work. Before I would "yes ma'am" everyone to death, now some people think I'm such a bitch. I do enjoy this empowerment, but it's very hard for me to think of myself as strong when I never have before. Okay sorry, done with the ranting. My emotions are everywhere. I even asked out my brother's best friend of like 20 years VIA EMAIL. What was I thinking?? He never even responded!!

Hi everyone. Life's been a little nutty. Having some family/emotional stuff going on, but at least now Im dealing with it instead of just stuffing my face. Weight loss has slowed a LOT and I put on 4 lbs in a week because I was eating CRAP. I'm back on plan now, though, and went back to the gym today. I think what I need to learn more than anything now is self-forgiveness. Before whenever I'd cheat I'd say oops the diets over! Now I know it'll never be over and this is something i HAVE to do. ughghg I'm sending virtual hugs out to all of you. You are the only people that know what this is like! I had an appt a few days ago but no fill. I go back in a month. I slimed for the first time last night (my fault - I took a huge bite that was hot so I swallowed it without chewing). Okay that's about it from me. I didn't really know what to say here lately so I've just been reading and not posting.

Faith - I was stuck for what felt like forever, too. I started using the eliptical machine for 25-30 minutes a day for almost two weeks now and the scale has started moving again. Have you been working out?

Stef you look AMAZING.

I listed all my starting/preop weights a few posts above this one. Sorry, don't feel like retyping. HAHA :-) My weight loss has not been consistent. I lost a lot in the beginning, then over 3 weeks I lost maybe 2 lbs, so I started working out in an actual gym for 1/2hr a day and the weight loss has started up again!

THANK YOU FOR THE COMPLIMENTS. That pic is from my heaviest last year, I was 327. I went to the surgeons in November and weighed 319 on my first (second) consult. I didn't lose much weight on the pre-requisite 6 months nut consultations, maybe 5 lbs. I started dieting heavily about 1 month before the surgery and lost 25 lbs that month. The rest is all from the lap-band. I'm 5'10 and think that has a lot to do with making me look smaller. My arms and legs are proportionatily bigger than the rest of my body, just my middle has disappeared a lot. I'm at 260ish right now (haven't weighed myself in a few days).

PAM YOU LOOK AWESOME!! OKAY EVERYONE ITS PICTURE TIME!!! Post them up!

My current gym playlist is as follows: It's Alright - Ricky Martin My Humps - Black Eyed Peas The Killers - Move Away Shakira - La Tortura Bell Biv DeVoe - Poison Beyonce - Check on It Kanye West - Stronger (LOVE THIS SONG) Nelly Furtado - Do It Melanie C- I turn to You Timbaland - The Way I Are Get Your Head In The Game (HSM soundtrack ..uhhh how did that get in there?) LL Cool J - Apple Cobbler Ozomatli - Ya Viene el Sol Beyonce - Get Me Bodied Daddy Yankee - Impacto Q-Tip - Breathe and Stop Gwen Stefani - Wind It Up K7 - Come Baby Come Timbaland - Give It To Me Kelly Rowland - Like This Lady Sovereign - Love Me or Hate Me Lloyd - Get It Shawty Lumidee - Like The Wind Salt-N-Pepa - Push It Ricky Martin - This Is Good (GREAT SONG) Rihanna - Don't Stop The Music John Mayer Trio - Try And that's mostly it. I have some others on there but I listen to these the most. I have like 80 gigs of music and can sing almost every line of the songs. I've always been into music more than TV or anything else really. I'm dead tired. I'm hung over too. I drank half a cup of vodka last night on a "date" that I was nervous about... :-| Today is my midyear review at work so I'm not having a great day I guess! hahaha

This 2nd fill has been awesome for the last couple of days. Even on liquids only I feel okay, but today I ate for the first time. I had 2 eggs (fried. I know, I know) around 3pm and haven't been hungry since. :-| I hope it stays this way for a few weeks at least! Today I got the best compliment from someone I haven't seen since before the surgery. They just freaked out and he said something like "oh my god you're like.. a normal skinny person now". haha well i'm far from skinny but it made me feel good to have him at a loss for words! Back to the gym tomorrow - I've been downloading tons of music so I can keep my workouts fun. :-) Good night everyone. I'm happy to hear us getting a little bit better as the fills go along!!

Suzzie - that is EXACTLY what I've been going through. We've lost our "friend", we've lost our ability to cope. I'm right there with you, I PROMISE.