I am fat because I eat too much. Why? I was 3 years old and my mom got tuberculosis. Back then you were sent away to assylums. She was sent to Illinois. We lived in Maryland. My dad was in the military and worked two jobs, his military job during the day and bartender at night. He flew to Illinois on the weekends and left my two older brothers and myself with my grandmother. She came over from Germany to help take care of us. She spoke no English. We didn't speak German. She gave us food whenever we cried or whenever she didn't know what else to do with us. My mom was gone for a year. When she came home she didn't even recognize my brother and I because we had gotten so fat. I slimmed down with my moms help because she constantly watched what I ate. When I got married and had kids I never lost the weight from my pregnancys. I just continued to gain weight. My mom always told me that my husband would leave me because I was fat. She said men liked girls with a good figure know matter how ugly they were. I was always the girl with such a pretty face, it was a shame that I was fat. Oprah always says it's not about the food. There is something behind the eating, I just can't seem to figure out what that something is. I hope the band will help me to stop focusing on food. I have spent my whole life focusing on food and I feel like I have missed so much. I just want to eat and feel full and not think about what I am going to eat next.