moonchild1968

thanks for sharing...even though embarrassing I'm sure there are many out there who go through similar things. I had my own bathroom issues when I was extremely overweight...female issues. It feels awesome to go to the bathroom like a normal person.

Our sleeve is a tool. We still have the demons inside our head to fight with. Don't dwell on relapses.....just start out with a fresh attitude of making good choices. Good luck

I found using a ridiculously tiny pickle fork at meal times helped slow me down a bit.

I know! i'm 51/2 months out and still eat too fast. I try so hard to chew chew chew but it's just not 1st nature for me.

I wish I had it done sooner. I haven't felt this good in a long time. I don't miss large quantities of food nearly as much as I thought I would and I certainly don't miss the extra weight. It just feels GOOD! You'll see. Congrats on beginning your journey. Blessings.

I wish I had it done sooner. I haven't felt this good in a long time. I don't miss large quantities of food nearly as much as I thought I would and I certainly don't miss the extra weight. It just feels GOOD! You'll see. Congrats on beginning your journey. Blessings.

I wish I had it done sooner. I haven't felt this good in a long time. I don't miss large quantities of food nearly as much as I thought I would and I certainly don't miss the extra weight. It just feels GOOD! You'll see. Congrats on beginning your journey. Blessings.

I hear ya! Sadly, I have first hand experience with your concerns. I had the lapband and it didnt work. After regaining 'ALL and then some' of my lapband weight loss, I heard a few comments about it and got many looks, but I was my own biggest critic. While burying my head in the sand (pretending to ignore my expanding waistline), I couldn't see that I had choices. I believed that I had failed and I let that fear paralyze me for a long time. In hindsight, my fear was the biggest hinderance to my success. I'm so thankful that I found the courage to try again.

I hear ya! Sadly, I have first hand experience with your concerns. I had the lapband and it didnt work. After regaining 'ALL and then some' of my lapband weight loss, I heard a few comments about it and got many looks, but I was my own biggest critic. While burying my head in the sand (pretending to ignore my expanding waistline), I couldn't see that I had choices. I believed that I had failed and I let that fear paralyze me for a long time. In hindsight, my fear was the biggest hinderance to my success. I'm so thankful that I found the courage to try again.

"At this point I’m transferred to a manger or some higher up sociopath."
My favorite line. Funny. Thanks.

Hi. I'm sorry you've had a rough start. I am almost 8 weeks out and I can relate to some of your experience. I was in the same mindset 2 months ago. I woke up one morning about 5-6 days out and lay in bed wondering what the hell I had done. I've since collected myself and am now celebrating my sleeve more WHILE I adjust to my new stomach, appetite, and eating pattern....everything. I thought my belly looked deformed and bruised at first. My son thought it looked "cool". It's gotten/getting better...everything. It will for you, too. Hang in there.

"At this point I’m transferred to a manger or some higher up sociopath."
My favorite line. Funny. Thanks.

You are doing great. I love before and after pics...so inspiring. Thanks for sharing.

You are doing great. I love before and after pics...so inspiring. Thanks for sharing.

Good information to apply to my new journey. Thanks.

We must have the same ill-fitting desk chair.
It sounds like you're doing great, but boy can I relate to the body aches at 2 weeks and the back to work blues. I was hoping to return to work early, too. I thought that I'd go back in two weeks, but right before leaving work something told me, at the last minute, to change it to three weeks. I was glad that I did because I was just too sore and still moving around slow, like a old lady at two weeks. I went back to work this Monday after 3 1/2 weeks and felt pretty good, but sitting for long periods caused some discomfort on my right side. Not enough for meds, just uncomfortable. Today, no pain in my side and feeling almost 100%. Your going to feel so much better in a week. You'll see. I'm talking about the soreness, not the job. ; )
I was sleeved April 18 and I'm not cleared to eat deli meat, yet. Sigh....
Congrats on doing so well.

In my Bible study group the monthly breakfast parties are always sweets and more sweets, and then in April it was one of the womens turns, and she brought in hard boiled eggs, melon, strawberries, turkey bacon, turkey sausage, whole wheat mini bagels, fat free cream cheese.... it was so good, we talked about how much better we all felt and no one missed the goodies.... oh and she brought greek yogurt too, she set a new bar for all of us.

I was having trouble with the idea of having surgery. I then started to think about food as an addiction. I asked myself whether or not a drug addict or an alcoholic who had the option to have surgery would do it, and whether or not their choice to do so would be frowned upon. This helped me with my decision to get the sleeve. This is a GREAT post. Thanks!

When I got the band, I got input from a few people...some that I now know I shouldn't have discussed it with because I didn't want to "go public". Telling one or two "wrong" people can be just like telling everybody. I didn't shout it from the highest mountain top, but I shared it. I admire those that can and do "let it all out".
This time, I'm more private. I've been more selective because it is my second time around and if you think the first WLS surgery comes with judgment, WELL, LET ME TELL YOU...
I want to learn my new tummy and lifestyle without the glare of the spot light. That is, the food police, the constant questions, comments and observations. Sharing every step of my journey with everybody does not interest me. I have a support system that works for me.
One day, I will happily share my WLS story when and with whom I choose. Right now, I'm doing something that I have rarely done in my life. I'm focusing on me. This is about me being better and healthier for myself and my loved ones. When I think about it that way, the list of people that I feel the need to tell just got shorter.

When I got the band, I got input from a few people...some that I now know I shouldn't have discussed it with because I didn't want to "go public". Telling one or two "wrong" people can be just like telling everybody. I didn't shout it from the highest mountain top, but I shared it. I admire those that can and do "let it all out".
This time, I'm more private. I've been more selective because it is my second time around and if you think the first WLS surgery comes with judgment, WELL, LET ME TELL YOU...
I want to learn my new tummy and lifestyle without the glare of the spot light. That is, the food police, the constant questions, comments and observations. Sharing every step of my journey with everybody does not interest me. I have a support system that works for me.
One day, I will happily share my WLS story when and with whom I choose. Right now, I'm doing something that I have rarely done in my life. I'm focusing on me. This is about me being better and healthier for myself and my loved ones. When I think about it that way, the list of people that I feel the need to tell just got shorter.

When I got the band, I got input from a few people...some that I now know I shouldn't have discussed it with because I didn't want to "go public". Telling one or two "wrong" people can be just like telling everybody. I didn't shout it from the highest mountain top, but I shared it. I admire those that can and do "let it all out".
This time, I'm more private. I've been more selective because it is my second time around and if you think the first WLS surgery comes with judgment, WELL, LET ME TELL YOU...
I want to learn my new tummy and lifestyle without the glare of the spot light. That is, the food police, the constant questions, comments and observations. Sharing every step of my journey with everybody does not interest me. I have a support system that works for me.
One day, I will happily share my WLS story when and with whom I choose. Right now, I'm doing something that I have rarely done in my life. I'm focusing on me. This is about me being better and healthier for myself and my loved ones. When I think about it that way, the list of people that I feel the need to tell just got shorter.

Preach it, girl!! There is a quote from Eleanor Roosevelt that I have always loved: "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent." You are absolutely correct that the sleeve is just a tool. I don't feel ashamed for one second that I'm doing this, and I could not care less about somebody else judging me for it. Nobody can make me feel ashamed without me agreeing that there is something to feel ashamed about. There are things in my life that I'm not proud of, but this ain't one of them. Good for you for being proud!

AMEN SISTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY WORDS FROM THE VERY START....SAY IT LOUD .. I AM SLEEVED AND I M PROUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND BY NO MEANS IS IT THE EASY WAY OUT !!!!! HELL NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... AND WHOEVER THINKS THAT CAN KISS MY BIG BOOTY ( WHILE ITS BIG CAUSE ITS GONNA BE AN ITSY BITSY BOOTY SOON) LOL............MAY WE ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL AND HEALTHY JOURNEY !!!!!!!! MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL

Congratulations on making the decision to take the bull by the horns. I can relate to all of your emotions. I was "all over the place" leading up to my surgery last week. I kept reminding myself of the actual statistics and the probable outcome. It helped me create a realistic view, not one based on fear. You'll do great, too.
My message to my future self is: I promise to take care of you and never forget where you came from. I won't let you suffer under that weight, again.
Good luck on your journey.

Good post. Funny. Thanks for sharing your story and writing talent.