????I confess - I'm as envious about skinny people as I am of those who can engorge themselves when eating .
- that I'm my worst enemy , I hate myself no matter what , people will say " u look great, pretty , sexy , etc " I dnt see it . When I take pictures it's like it's not me I'm looking at .
- that I wish I could have a day a month where I can just eat tell I can eat no more !!!!
- that even tho all my issues I wouldn't go back to being 224 if I had the choice !
- that no one knows the struggle of a weight loss surgery than those who have been threw it , I hat when I hear well you took the easy way out !! EASY???? Wtf?!!! Makes me angry this ish is not easy it F... With mind body and soul!
- that I'm crave a New York steak , moscato , Malibu pineapple drink , Chines food , a good coors , etc lol
- that I'm sick of relying on others I'm a go get my ish done and having to walk slow and ask for this or that pisses me off! But it's a learning process and humbling too
WOW that felt great I can go on but ill write a book lol ! Thnk u guys for reading ????????