pink grace

Am really at the end of my tether with it all now, feel like deleting the blog and go back to try and loose weight on my own, i am writing this blog to keep account of my life before and after the sleeve operation, but seriously wondering if i will ever have the op.
I have been waiting in hope every day that i would get a telephone call to tell me why my blood isnt clotting and what the treatment will be.
Why does it take this long, am sooo annoyed and fed up.
I have been trusting in God and patiently waiting and if wasn't for my faith in God i just don't know what i would do.
There is something inside that keeps me from walking away from it all and helps me to continue to hope and keep on with this, but i am still having to battle with my feelings which are at screaming point, my feelings say just give up and stay fat, but in me deep down i know that it is worth hanging on and keep waiting to get my operation, but it feels like i am hanging by my fingertips.
I have had a really bad time with gout, and fibromyalgia this last month, in fact it is so bad i have had to get a chairlift to get upstairs to go to bed, i can hardly walk and am desperate to get this weight off which will help my joints not having to carry so much weight.
It is 2 years in january since i first started the process and all the other people who started at the same time have had their ops and lost their weight.
I know it can always seem to be darker just before the dawn but, i need my dawn now.
I was told that i could ring my specialist nurse anytime which is good, but has she has never had this happen to a patient before she is in the dark too.
I can't ring the hospital because they say they are checking everyday and will ring me as soon as the results are back.
This limbo is driving me crazy, the not knowing is horrible.
The comments are wearing thin now, that it is better to be safe than sorry, i know, i know, i have never wanted something as much as i want this and that is why it is so hard, i have jumped through hoops, starved for two weeks, and then nothing, dissapointment is the worse thing.
Do i feel better for writing this, well, no not really, but as i am an honest person at least this hard part will be recorded and not glossed over.
God doesn't say we won't have problems in this life, but thank you God you are with me and i know that only you will bring me through this time and that stretching and growth hurts, ouch, but it will all work together for my good, i just don't like this going through it, i need to be carried for a bit, my legs are tired of walking, i need rest, those that wait upon the Lord will renew their strength like eagles on the wind, I am waiting Lord.
God is never late, always on time, His time. here endeth my blog for today. but hoping for in my next blog

Enjoyed a lovely carvey with hubby and our two sons yesterday for my birthday which is today. i even had half a yorkshire pudding, it was yummy.
I am getting a stairlift fitted today, I didn't think i would be so excited by a stairlift on my 55th birthday, but can't wait, my left leg is agony when i walk, no more crawling upstairs in agony, yay.
I am going out tonight with the ladies from our church, it is the ladies christmas meal that just so happens to be on my birthday, thinking i might have a steak.
I am hoping that by this time next year i will be wearing size 18 rather than the 28 i am in today, or even a 16.
I am already eating much smaller meals than i was able to eat last year, and next year i suspect i might be eating a starter for my main course, bring it on.
Still waiting to get my blood test results back, hoping it will be soon, ive waited 5 weeks now, so must be nearer getting them.
Funny thing about time, 5 weeks just seemed like an eternity 5 weeks ago, but here i am, 5 weeks done and hoping i will get the phone call any day now.
I have been able to address comfort eating in this waiting time and also am pleased that i now prefer to go for the healthier options for my meals and always try to share it with my dogs or leave some on the plate, not bad for someone who was brought up to eat everything on my large plate.
It took a long time to get over the dissapointment of my sleeve op being cancelled, but now i am at peace that i will have it when it is the right time for me, God knows best, i am resting in Him.
I particularly wanted to do a blog today to record how i am feeling and will compare with how i am next year, believing
God Has got good plans for me, to do me good and not harm, and that my latter years will be even more fruitful than my former years, that the years that the locusts have stolen from me will be restored back to me 100 fold, amen.
Praying for everyone who reads this to have a quick easy operation with no complications and a swift good recovery, to get to the weight of your dreams.
I also pray for all who have already been sleeved for good healthe and continous weight loss to get to your dream weight too, God Bless to all, Janet, xxxxx

just spent 45 mins typing an update and poof, when i tried to preview it and edit a word it dissapeared
basically, still waiting for blood test results, really fed up of waiting, not got my hopes up to have my op in november any more.
Today i have cast my cares on the Lord and will have my op when He gives me the date, He knows best.
I know i still want my sleeve, and will restart the liver shrinking diet when i have a new date for my sleeve.
I am not concerned if it is just before christmas, any time soon will be ok with me, i was motivated and ready for oct 9th and can do it again, but this time without the problem of my blood it will be safer.
Hope everyone is doing well, sleeved or to be sleeved, God Bless, xx

Started back on liver shrinking diet yesterday, thought i would be ok but wasn't, because i have had some wws puddings etc i found i was really hungry yesterday and have a headache due to lack of sugar and carbs.
I had my flu jab yesterday and don't usually have a reaction but feel really yuk today.
Rang up dri yesterday to see if my blood test results were back, and was told by one person they will be back on the 29th but the pre op assessment nurse said it could be weeks.
all the bariatric team are off until 1st nov, but the preop nurse said she will contact me if the results are back before then.
So here i am again shrinking the liver in the hope that i can be fitted in if there is a cancellation if my tests are back and i only need a vit K injection, but if i find i have to wait longer can go off the preop diet, but then the pain will begin again, when i start again.
I read today that God doesn't break a bruised reed, am feeling very bruised, but God knows best.
Mom was supposed to come home today but was told today it will be early next week now, she is going to be so upset, i am too, all this waiting and dissapointment is really testing, don't understand why, but such is life.
I am even more determined to get my operation, if i ever had any doubts, i don't now, i am ready for my sleeve NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW, lol, God give me strength.
Found a great web page yesterday, bariatriccookery.com if any one wants to take a look, it has some great post op recipies.
Keep up the good work friends, it will all be worth it when we get to our healthier small selves, meanwhile i will keep on learning from all of the great people on this forum, xxx

We had hubbies mom's funeral yesterday, i was dreading it, but with my sons and the eldest sons girlfriend with us we did ok.
We went out for the day today, just hubby and me to our favoroute seaside town, Scarborough, it was strange to be on our own, but it is just another thing we will have to get used to and we did have a lovely day.
I decided to have a few days of my liver shrinking diet , there is no chance of a cancellation until after the 29th oct, the day i should get my blood test results so i figured i would have a few foods that i know i won't be eating for a long while.
I am starting back on the diet strict on monday, to be ready for the op any time in november.
I was surprised to find that i can not eat as much as i could do and actually knew when i had had enough, the pre op diet has done me some good.
I had a fish today, in batter, and 2 toffee apples, the red toffee ones and really enjoyed them.
My mom should be home next tues or wed so we have been busy moving things around for her new equimpment and are going to clean her bungalow tomorrow afternoon so it is nice and fresh for her homecoming.
When my operation was delayed i was devastated and so down, but now i can see that in God's plans it was for my good.
I was very close to my mom in law and it hit me harder than i thought it would and can now see how difficult it would have been to have my op just after she had died and to then have to go to the funeral would have probably been too much for me.
I have been very fatigued with the grief, the fibromyalgia has been bad and at least now i get time to recover, but i am so ready for my op now.
My sister had her operation the day after i was due to have mine, and has just got back the lab results, it is great news, they got all the cancer cells and she only had one cell in her lymph nodes which was removed, she will have radio therapy and be on tablets to stop the cancer coming back for 5 years, but it was caught early and they expect her to make a complete recovery, so happy for her and her partner.
The autumn is really well and truly here now, the misty cold mornings with the crisp chill in the air and all the trees have turned into living fireworks of golds, oranges, reds and browns, they are a delight to the eyes.
Next week we put our clocks back in the uk and it will be getting darker an hour earlier, we have long cosy dark evenings to look forward to, and then christmas.
I am not a bit bothered wether i will be on liquids or soft food by then, i just want to have the operation and get on with loosing the weight and keeping it off.
Some people are beginning to notice how much weight i have already lost, i have gone from a size 34 to a 28 and all my clothes are very loose on me, much more comfortable than been tight.
Some are saying that i don't need the op now because i am doing so well, but i am not listening, i am loosing weight to have the operation so that this time i will loose the weight and keep it off for life, i wont have a huge stomach and be hungry all the time, but it is hard to get some normal size people to understand this.
Hope everyone else is doing well, we are doing this because we need to, want to and with the tool of a sleeve we can all change our lives for the better, keep up the good work everyone,

i had a phone call today to tell me there is a problem with the clotting in my blood, i have to go for more blood tests on monday and then wait 2 weeks for them to be processed, then the surgeon will consult with the blood specialist to see if i can have my operation.
15 years ago i had my gall bladder out by keyhole and the day before the op they found my blood was too thin and had a problem with clotting, they did some calculations and i still had my op.
When i got home i saw my gp for another blood test and he said my results where fine.
I have waited 3 xs as long for this op and worked so hard to loose weight i feel really fed up.
I know it is better to wait and check out my blood, but it is just so dissapointing, and i will have to do another 2 weeks on the 800 cal a day diet, can i scream
I have had a tandori mixed grill and some chocolate, but will get straight back to healthy eating tomorrow, but 1200 cals and not 800. it will be luxury, :wub:
Everything will work together for my good, still trusting in God, one day soon i will be sleeved.

I am going to have to ring my nurse, i was told i would need to go into hospital the day before because of the diabetese been controlled by injections, but, on the letter that came today i am to be admitted at 11am on the day of my op.
It also said for the by pass and yet i told them i wanted the sleeve, am puzzled, but will have to wait until monday to talk to anyone seeing as it is 4.15 on a friday afternoon.
Had a very stressful morning with mom, still very confused, sat and listened to 5 hours of mixed up memories from mom, really hope these antibiotics get on top of the infection and she gets her mind back soon.
The hunger is under control more now, and i am able to stick to the 800 cals and ercord it with fitness pal, which is a great app on my tablet pc.
I am aware that i need to be sttrong over the weekend, and then it will be one week done, and one week to go.
Now i must sleep and relax, zzzzzz

6 weeks today since my blood test, struggled to keep eating healthy this week, my birthday was my undoing, i had some chocolate mints after my meal and it gave the taste back for chocolate.
I really need to take control again, i have been down about the wait for my blood results this week and once i ate the foods i had cut out, the more i wanted them.
I have felt really unwell after eating too much high fat high sugar foods, i am actually wanting to eat better and feel better again.
Nothing tastes as good as loosing weight feels, i love the feeling that comes when i can feel the weight coming off, and i am eating right, and feel down when i am not loosing weight and eating right, perhaps i have learned more about my eating habits than i thought i had.
My aim is to loose weight ready for my op and to continue to eat right and follow the rules so that i can loose weight and keep it off for life.
The more i wait, the more i realise how important this is too me, and want it even more than ever.
Really hoping this week will be the week that i get the results and know what treatment i will need, and most of all to get my new date for my sleeve.
Really should go to bed and get some sleep, i will share my news as soon as i know anything, meanwhile, keep up the good work sleevers and sleevers to be, xx

We had hubbies mom's funeral yesterday, i was dreading it, but with my sons and the eldest sons girlfriend with us we did ok.
We went out for the day today, just hubby and me to our favoroute seaside town, Scarborough, it was strange to be on our own, but it is just another thing we will have to get used to and we did have a lovely day.
I decided to have a few days of my liver shrinking diet , there is no chance of a cancellation until after the 29th oct, the day i should get my blood test results so i figured i would have a few foods that i know i won't be eating for a long while.
I am starting back on the diet strict on monday, to be ready for the op any time in november.
I was surprised to find that i can not eat as much as i could do and actually knew when i had had enough, the pre op diet has done me some good.
I had a fish today, in batter, and 2 toffee apples, the red toffee ones and really enjoyed them.
My mom should be home next tues or wed so we have been busy moving things around for her new equimpment and are going to clean her bungalow tomorrow afternoon so it is nice and fresh for her homecoming.
When my operation was delayed i was devastated and so down, but now i can see that in God's plans it was for my good.
I was very close to my mom in law and it hit me harder than i thought it would and can now see how difficult it would have been to have my op just after she had died and to then have to go to the funeral would have probably been too much for me.
I have been very fatigued with the grief, the fibromyalgia has been bad and at least now i get time to recover, but i am so ready for my op now.
My sister had her operation the day after i was due to have mine, and has just got back the lab results, it is great news, they got all the cancer cells and she only had one cell in her lymph nodes which was removed, she will have radio therapy and be on tablets to stop the cancer coming back for 5 years, but it was caught early and they expect her to make a complete recovery, so happy for her and her partner.
The autumn is really well and truly here now, the misty cold mornings with the crisp chill in the air and all the trees have turned into living fireworks of golds, oranges, reds and browns, they are a delight to the eyes.
Next week we put our clocks back in the uk and it will be getting darker an hour earlier, we have long cosy dark evenings to look forward to, and then christmas.
I am not a bit bothered wether i will be on liquids or soft food by then, i just want to have the operation and get on with loosing the weight and keeping it off.
Some people are beginning to notice how much weight i have already lost, i have gone from a size 34 to a 28 and all my clothes are very loose on me, much more comfortable than been tight.
Some are saying that i don't need the op now because i am doing so well, but i am not listening, i am loosing weight to have the operation so that this time i will loose the weight and keep it off for life, i wont have a huge stomach and be hungry all the time, but it is hard to get some normal size people to understand this.
Hope everyone else is doing well, we are doing this because we need to, want to and with the tool of a sleeve we can all change our lives for the better, keep up the good work everyone,

Enjoyed a lovely carvey with hubby and our two sons yesterday for my birthday which is today. i even had half a yorkshire pudding, it was yummy.
I am getting a stairlift fitted today, I didn't think i would be so excited by a stairlift on my 55th birthday, but can't wait, my left leg is agony when i walk, no more crawling upstairs in agony, yay.
I am going out tonight with the ladies from our church, it is the ladies christmas meal that just so happens to be on my birthday, thinking i might have a steak.
I am hoping that by this time next year i will be wearing size 18 rather than the 28 i am in today, or even a 16.
I am already eating much smaller meals than i was able to eat last year, and next year i suspect i might be eating a starter for my main course, bring it on.
Still waiting to get my blood test results back, hoping it will be soon, ive waited 5 weeks now, so must be nearer getting them.
Funny thing about time, 5 weeks just seemed like an eternity 5 weeks ago, but here i am, 5 weeks done and hoping i will get the phone call any day now.
I have been able to address comfort eating in this waiting time and also am pleased that i now prefer to go for the healthier options for my meals and always try to share it with my dogs or leave some on the plate, not bad for someone who was brought up to eat everything on my large plate.
It took a long time to get over the dissapointment of my sleeve op being cancelled, but now i am at peace that i will have it when it is the right time for me, God knows best, i am resting in Him.
I particularly wanted to do a blog today to record how i am feeling and will compare with how i am next year, believing
God Has got good plans for me, to do me good and not harm, and that my latter years will be even more fruitful than my former years, that the years that the locusts have stolen from me will be restored back to me 100 fold, amen.
Praying for everyone who reads this to have a quick easy operation with no complications and a swift good recovery, to get to the weight of your dreams.
I also pray for all who have already been sleeved for good healthe and continous weight loss to get to your dream weight too, God Bless to all, Janet, xxxxx

Started back on liver shrinking diet yesterday, thought i would be ok but wasn't, because i have had some wws puddings etc i found i was really hungry yesterday and have a headache due to lack of sugar and carbs.
I had my flu jab yesterday and don't usually have a reaction but feel really yuk today.
Rang up dri yesterday to see if my blood test results were back, and was told by one person they will be back on the 29th but the pre op assessment nurse said it could be weeks.
all the bariatric team are off until 1st nov, but the preop nurse said she will contact me if the results are back before then.
So here i am again shrinking the liver in the hope that i can be fitted in if there is a cancellation if my tests are back and i only need a vit K injection, but if i find i have to wait longer can go off the preop diet, but then the pain will begin again, when i start again.
I read today that God doesn't break a bruised reed, am feeling very bruised, but God knows best.
Mom was supposed to come home today but was told today it will be early next week now, she is going to be so upset, i am too, all this waiting and dissapointment is really testing, don't understand why, but such is life.
I am even more determined to get my operation, if i ever had any doubts, i don't now, i am ready for my sleeve NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW, lol, God give me strength.
Found a great web page yesterday, bariatriccookery.com if any one wants to take a look, it has some great post op recipies.
Keep up the good work friends, it will all be worth it when we get to our healthier small selves, meanwhile i will keep on learning from all of the great people on this forum, xxx

We had hubbies mom's funeral yesterday, i was dreading it, but with my sons and the eldest sons girlfriend with us we did ok.
We went out for the day today, just hubby and me to our favoroute seaside town, Scarborough, it was strange to be on our own, but it is just another thing we will have to get used to and we did have a lovely day.
I decided to have a few days of my liver shrinking diet , there is no chance of a cancellation until after the 29th oct, the day i should get my blood test results so i figured i would have a few foods that i know i won't be eating for a long while.
I am starting back on the diet strict on monday, to be ready for the op any time in november.
I was surprised to find that i can not eat as much as i could do and actually knew when i had had enough, the pre op diet has done me some good.
I had a fish today, in batter, and 2 toffee apples, the red toffee ones and really enjoyed them.
My mom should be home next tues or wed so we have been busy moving things around for her new equimpment and are going to clean her bungalow tomorrow afternoon so it is nice and fresh for her homecoming.
When my operation was delayed i was devastated and so down, but now i can see that in God's plans it was for my good.
I was very close to my mom in law and it hit me harder than i thought it would and can now see how difficult it would have been to have my op just after she had died and to then have to go to the funeral would have probably been too much for me.
I have been very fatigued with the grief, the fibromyalgia has been bad and at least now i get time to recover, but i am so ready for my op now.
My sister had her operation the day after i was due to have mine, and has just got back the lab results, it is great news, they got all the cancer cells and she only had one cell in her lymph nodes which was removed, she will have radio therapy and be on tablets to stop the cancer coming back for 5 years, but it was caught early and they expect her to make a complete recovery, so happy for her and her partner.
The autumn is really well and truly here now, the misty cold mornings with the crisp chill in the air and all the trees have turned into living fireworks of golds, oranges, reds and browns, they are a delight to the eyes.
Next week we put our clocks back in the uk and it will be getting darker an hour earlier, we have long cosy dark evenings to look forward to, and then christmas.
I am not a bit bothered wether i will be on liquids or soft food by then, i just want to have the operation and get on with loosing the weight and keeping it off.
Some people are beginning to notice how much weight i have already lost, i have gone from a size 34 to a 28 and all my clothes are very loose on me, much more comfortable than been tight.
Some are saying that i don't need the op now because i am doing so well, but i am not listening, i am loosing weight to have the operation so that this time i will loose the weight and keep it off for life, i wont have a huge stomach and be hungry all the time, but it is hard to get some normal size people to understand this.
Hope everyone else is doing well, we are doing this because we need to, want to and with the tool of a sleeve we can all change our lives for the better, keep up the good work everyone,

i had a phone call today to tell me there is a problem with the clotting in my blood, i have to go for more blood tests on monday and then wait 2 weeks for them to be processed, then the surgeon will consult with the blood specialist to see if i can have my operation.
15 years ago i had my gall bladder out by keyhole and the day before the op they found my blood was too thin and had a problem with clotting, they did some calculations and i still had my op.
When i got home i saw my gp for another blood test and he said my results where fine.
I have waited 3 xs as long for this op and worked so hard to loose weight i feel really fed up.
I know it is better to wait and check out my blood, but it is just so dissapointing, and i will have to do another 2 weeks on the 800 cal a day diet, can i scream
I have had a tandori mixed grill and some chocolate, but will get straight back to healthy eating tomorrow, but 1200 cals and not 800. it will be luxury, :wub:
Everything will work together for my good, still trusting in God, one day soon i will be sleeved.

I am going to have to ring my nurse, i was told i would need to go into hospital the day before because of the diabetese been controlled by injections, but, on the letter that came today i am to be admitted at 11am on the day of my op.
It also said for the by pass and yet i told them i wanted the sleeve, am puzzled, but will have to wait until monday to talk to anyone seeing as it is 4.15 on a friday afternoon.
Had a very stressful morning with mom, still very confused, sat and listened to 5 hours of mixed up memories from mom, really hope these antibiotics get on top of the infection and she gets her mind back soon.
The hunger is under control more now, and i am able to stick to the 800 cals and ercord it with fitness pal, which is a great app on my tablet pc.
I am aware that i need to be sttrong over the weekend, and then it will be one week done, and one week to go.
Now i must sleep and relax, zzzzzz

just spent 45 mins typing an update and poof, when i tried to preview it and edit a word it dissapeared
basically, still waiting for blood test results, really fed up of waiting, not got my hopes up to have my op in november any more.
Today i have cast my cares on the Lord and will have my op when He gives me the date, He knows best.
I know i still want my sleeve, and will restart the liver shrinking diet when i have a new date for my sleeve.
I am not concerned if it is just before christmas, any time soon will be ok with me, i was motivated and ready for oct 9th and can do it again, but this time without the problem of my blood it will be safer.
Hope everyone is doing well, sleeved or to be sleeved, God Bless, xx

just spent 45 mins typing an update and poof, when i tried to preview it and edit a word it dissapeared
basically, still waiting for blood test results, really fed up of waiting, not got my hopes up to have my op in november any more.
Today i have cast my cares on the Lord and will have my op when He gives me the date, He knows best.
I know i still want my sleeve, and will restart the liver shrinking diet when i have a new date for my sleeve.
I am not concerned if it is just before christmas, any time soon will be ok with me, i was motivated and ready for oct 9th and can do it again, but this time without the problem of my blood it will be safer.
Hope everyone is doing well, sleeved or to be sleeved, God Bless, xx

just spent 45 mins typing an update and poof, when i tried to preview it and edit a word it dissapeared
basically, still waiting for blood test results, really fed up of waiting, not got my hopes up to have my op in november any more.
Today i have cast my cares on the Lord and will have my op when He gives me the date, He knows best.
I know i still want my sleeve, and will restart the liver shrinking diet when i have a new date for my sleeve.
I am not concerned if it is just before christmas, any time soon will be ok with me, i was motivated and ready for oct 9th and can do it again, but this time without the problem of my blood it will be safer.
Hope everyone is doing well, sleeved or to be sleeved, God Bless, xx

Started back on liver shrinking diet yesterday, thought i would be ok but wasn't, because i have had some wws puddings etc i found i was really hungry yesterday and have a headache due to lack of sugar and carbs.
I had my flu jab yesterday and don't usually have a reaction but feel really yuk today.
Rang up dri yesterday to see if my blood test results were back, and was told by one person they will be back on the 29th but the pre op assessment nurse said it could be weeks.
all the bariatric team are off until 1st nov, but the preop nurse said she will contact me if the results are back before then.
So here i am again shrinking the liver in the hope that i can be fitted in if there is a cancellation if my tests are back and i only need a vit K injection, but if i find i have to wait longer can go off the preop diet, but then the pain will begin again, when i start again.
I read today that God doesn't break a bruised reed, am feeling very bruised, but God knows best.
Mom was supposed to come home today but was told today it will be early next week now, she is going to be so upset, i am too, all this waiting and dissapointment is really testing, don't understand why, but such is life.
I am even more determined to get my operation, if i ever had any doubts, i don't now, i am ready for my sleeve NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW, lol, God give me strength.
Found a great web page yesterday, bariatriccookery.com if any one wants to take a look, it has some great post op recipies.
Keep up the good work friends, it will all be worth it when we get to our healthier small selves, meanwhile i will keep on learning from all of the great people on this forum, xxx

I am going to have to ring my nurse, i was told i would need to go into hospital the day before because of the diabetese been controlled by injections, but, on the letter that came today i am to be admitted at 11am on the day of my op.
It also said for the by pass and yet i told them i wanted the sleeve, am puzzled, but will have to wait until monday to talk to anyone seeing as it is 4.15 on a friday afternoon.
Had a very stressful morning with mom, still very confused, sat and listened to 5 hours of mixed up memories from mom, really hope these antibiotics get on top of the infection and she gets her mind back soon.
The hunger is under control more now, and i am able to stick to the 800 cals and ercord it with fitness pal, which is a great app on my tablet pc.
I am aware that i need to be sttrong over the weekend, and then it will be one week done, and one week to go.
Now i must sleep and relax, zzzzzz

Had a horrendous time friday to monday, mom has a water infection and was rushed into hospital on friday night, she was delireous and not herself at all. Still managed to stick to the diet even though i wanted to eat comfort food.
Mom is on the mend and is getting 24 hour care, so i can relax a little.
My period came yesterday after only 19 days, it must be the weight loss on the 800 cal diet.
I have my pre op assessment in the morning, praying i will pass everything so that the op is not delayed.
Finding the diet easy now, got used to rumbling tum and eating loads of veg to fill me up.
Also,i am feeling much better for the healthy diet. It will be interesting to see how much i have lost when the period ends, am so glad it came this week and not next week.
Hoping this coming early will not continue, i am 54 and want them to STOP,
that is it for today.
I

felt elated last night at getting through the first day, managed to stay under the 800 cals, and when i woke up felt good but oh my goodness, this is real, 14 days to go.
Got weighed and dropped 4lb but i knew i would because i had many visits to the loo.
Keeping busy again today, sorted out the small dishes and cutlery i had bought ready for post op food.

i had a phone call today to tell me there is a problem with the clotting in my blood, i have to go for more blood tests on monday and then wait 2 weeks for them to be processed, then the surgeon will consult with the blood specialist to see if i can have my operation.
15 years ago i had my gall bladder out by keyhole and the day before the op they found my blood was too thin and had a problem with clotting, they did some calculations and i still had my op.
When i got home i saw my gp for another blood test and he said my results where fine.
I have waited 3 xs as long for this op and worked so hard to loose weight i feel really fed up.
I know it is better to wait and check out my blood, but it is just so dissapointing, and i will have to do another 2 weeks on the 800 cal a day diet, can i scream
I have had a tandori mixed grill and some chocolate, but will get straight back to healthy eating tomorrow, but 1200 cals and not 800. it will be luxury, :wub:
Everything will work together for my good, still trusting in God, one day soon i will be sleeved.

i had a phone call today to tell me there is a problem with the clotting in my blood, i have to go for more blood tests on monday and then wait 2 weeks for them to be processed, then the surgeon will consult with the blood specialist to see if i can have my operation.
15 years ago i had my gall bladder out by keyhole and the day before the op they found my blood was too thin and had a problem with clotting, they did some calculations and i still had my op.
When i got home i saw my gp for another blood test and he said my results where fine.
I have waited 3 xs as long for this op and worked so hard to loose weight i feel really fed up.
I know it is better to wait and check out my blood, but it is just so dissapointing, and i will have to do another 2 weeks on the 800 cal a day diet, can i scream
I have had a tandori mixed grill and some chocolate, but will get straight back to healthy eating tomorrow, but 1200 cals and not 800. it will be luxury, :wub:
Everything will work together for my good, still trusting in God, one day soon i will be sleeved.

Today I had kind of a large supper -- by recent standards -- of salad and fish. I've been reading about salad being disagreeable after WLS, so I wanted to eat it while I still could.
 
Seemed so slow while I've been waiting for my surgery; now, seems it's approaching quickly. Today is Thurs. I'll start liquids Sunday; fly to Tijuana Tuesday; have the surgery Weds.
 
A week from now, I'll have my sleeve. Excited. Scared.
 
We bought a lawn mower so I've been mowing for exercise. It's funny, I feel so tired just walking around; but when I'm doing something, I don't feel as fatigued.

I've decided to weigh only on Mondays. That way I can measure progress without tormenting myself over fluctuations.
 
Tomorrow I'll start all liquids. Looking forward to yogurt in the morning.
 
Made chicken stock tonight. Haven't done that in a while!
 
Got through the whole day without a nap. Really tired out, though, in early evening.
 
I'm taking Juven (wound healing powder) twice daily per my sister's instructions. She's a registered dietitian at a hospital. Taking these expensive vitamins she gave me: Juice Plus, which she says work better than regular vitamins. They're gummies and I love having something to chew. Even the yucky flavor tastes good; at least it's different for the palate. I'm taking regular multivitamin, per sister, twice daily. Continuing antibiotic for UI.
 
Haven't had any trouble taking my psych meds. Take them all at once without discomfort.
 
Reading Rediscovering the Greatest Human Strength: Willpower. It's not a motivational type book in the cheerleader sense. It talks about -- so far -- practical things like impulse control being affected by glucose uptake. That made 6 small meals a day make more sense to me. It's been a very interesting read, and I glad I shelled out the 16 bucks for it. I believe there are things I can do, easy things, which will make lifestyle change less difficult. It's really everything you ever heard but it explains the why part, which makes the healthy habits more of a "will do" than a "should do."
 
I can't believe how quickly my incisions are healing. Except for one, they are all thin lines, the smaller ones even being a little hard to see.
 
Taking it day by day. Not going to compromise on shoes anymore. I had bought a pair of tennis shoes 1/2 size too small because they were on sale and I had a coupon; but they squished my toes together and now the thrift store is going to get a like new pair of tennies.
 
Kind of tired, but I really enjoy blogging.