luckybee13

Thanks for all the encouragement! It is very helpful and makes me know that I can do this on a permanent basis moving forward. Wheetsin, I appreciate your candidness, but I wasn't 'justifying' so to speak (at least I didn't think I was). My intent was to give a clear picture of what I ate and the circumstances behind it so that I could get honest feedback and maybe learn more about the diet overall. Your comments did get me thinking though, and I know that I did try and justify (to myself) the 'why' I ate the food immediately after I ate it. I know this is a life choice. I looked at getting the surgery over two years ago and didn't because I wasn't ready to make the commitment needed. I now have the support system and mental readiness to move forward. Thanks for your comment...please continue to keep me honest! amandatxgrl, the Protein liquid diet is really not bad as long as you remember to keep one with you at ALL times! I think that was my biggest mistake. I went a couple places thinking I would drink one on the way, and when I got there I had nothing and my tummy was growling. I originally purchased atkins Protein shakes both chocolate and vanilla...the chocolate were ok, but the vanilla needed some flavoring. After my appt with the NUT she told me to blend in a little fruit...MUCH better! My husband and son took pity on me and went to target and bought me a bunch of EAS protein shakes and I have to say that I really don't mind them. The strawberry cream tastes like strawberry quick...i have gone thru almost 3 containers of those alone. The cafe caramel is not bad, I think blended with ice would taste very similar to a blended coffee. The double chocolate is a little too much for me, but it isn't bad. I suggest those, and of course I am living on sugar free Jello...every flavor there is! We can do this!!

Thanks Everyone! I did tell my NUT on Monday that I was cheating here and there, and when she found out that I was drinkiing 4-5 (they are hard to get all down) EAS shakes per day, she wasn't surprised because it was only totaling about 500 calories per day. I will make sure to mention to my doc on Friday...it helps to hear someone tell me to 'do it'! I am happy that I have lost some weight before surgery, because I know it is supposed to make things easier for the surgeon and for recovery, but I can't take all the credit. I have to confess (again) that I was weighing a little heavy on my first consult appointment because it was 'that time of month' However, the 12 lbs lost since starting this pre op diet is all me! For me, losing 20 lbs isn't really hard, but losing anymore than that seems to be impossible. I haven't seen the scale go below 220 in too long to remember; even with diets and consistent exercise, which is how I decided it was time to take charge of my life (and my body) and move forward with this WLS and this permanent weight loss tool. Thanks lollyfiddy1965, I am going to order that book today. My husband (my whole family) is terribly addicted to certain foods. Mayber this will help break all of our addictions Thanks for the suggestion.

So my surgery is in two days and I have to admit I have cheated a little. My diet was for 10 days of high protein liquids no food. My approval went really fast, and because I am a bit smaller (i guess?) my doctor was able to squeeze me in for surgery faster than what was originally planned. I didn't meet with my NUT until Monday, almost 1 week after starting my diet. I was STARVING...turns out, I wasn't getting enough calories on the high protein liquid drinks I was drinking, which led me to cheat. Here is what I cheated wtih before today....a couple bites of chicken (grilled, and very small bites...less than an ounce), scrambled egg...my son made it and it smelled so good, i ate two bites, a hard boiled egg, a bite of a hot dog (no bun), some frozen yogurt (no sugar added and was at a place that had no protein shakes available), and the worst....on day 3 of my diet a co-worker was leaving and they brought in cinnamon crunch bagels from Panera....I was bad! I felt so guilty! My husband told me to let it go and not beat myself up but to try really hard moving forward. I tried, I really did. I have told myself that I am not going to cheat at all anymore....surgery is in two days after all. I have lost about 19 lbs from my first appointment in July (12 of them since starting this liquid diet). Did anyone else cheat like I did? When I looked I only heard of people cheating with an actual meal, not a couple bites daily...I am really nervous that I screwed something up inside. Feels good to admit what I ate though, hopefully someone out here understands.