AJPeezy

im never really on VST much but i stop by here when i can. last blog i posted i weighed in at 221 i believe. today i am 7 months (almost 8) and i weigh 185. a total loss of 95lbs so far. im happy, but sometimes i still feel "fat" lol i constantly have to do side by side pics to remind myself how far ive come eventhough i dont see it, other people do. to be honest i dont exercise like i should. but starting the beginning of september im joining the gym at my job. my birthday is next month and i would LOVE to be 100 lbs down or a little more. im thankful for the sleeve

3 months post op and ive been stalling this past week. been fluctuating between 221-224lbs but yesterday i started back at the gym so we will see how this goes for the next few weeks. i said im not gonna weigh myself again until may. but today i did weigh 221.8lbs. so far since surgery i only got sick once, and that was from chewing like 3 times and not 30. i cant eat boiled eggs whole, only chopped up. i cant eat greasy foods like conecuh sausage or rotel dip but maybe i will be able to further out. clothes are getting too big but im scared to try on new clothes. i went from a 3x in scrubd to a 2x and now at 3 months im fitting in a xl size scrubs. so far so good. i just hate the stalls but no worries or regrets. looking forward to how i will look at my 6 months post op! oh! AND im down about 58lbs

earlier today i was browsing on here and a girl who says she has bcbs of alabama approved her in 3 days. well i have the same insurance. so today around 11ish i got really nervous. like it literally hit me outta nowhere. the what if's set in. i was like omg what if i get denied, i will be mad as hell. BUT around 230ish my surgeon called and said Angel guess what? i said they denied me?! he said oh no they approved you! you were a perfect candidate there was no reason for them to deny you. now lets set a date
 
it was only one day! i thought i was gonna have to wait forever since its close to the holidays. but it only took ONE DAY. im so happy and so grateful that i can live my life feeling good about myself! thank you jesus! so my date is set for january 14th 2013. im soooo excited! losers bench here i come! if i could do a back flip, cartwheel i would! ha! one of these days i WILL be able to!
 

earlier today i was browsing on here and a girl who says she has bcbs of alabama approved her in 3 days. well i have the same insurance. so today around 11ish i got really nervous. like it literally hit me outta nowhere. the what if's set in. i was like omg what if i get denied, i will be mad as hell. BUT around 230ish my surgeon called and said Angel guess what? i said they denied me?! he said oh no they approved you! you were a perfect candidate there was no reason for them to deny you. now lets set a date
 
it was only one day! i thought i was gonna have to wait forever since its close to the holidays. but it only took ONE DAY. im so happy and so grateful that i can live my life feeling good about myself! thank you jesus! so my date is set for january 14th 2013. im soooo excited! losers bench here i come! if i could do a back flip, cartwheel i would! ha! one of these days i WILL be able to!
 

so on december 18th i go for my last visit. my pcp has to fax over everything to insurance. god i hope i get approved! she says it usually takes a week IF that! im super excited. i go for my lab work on january 4th so im hoping i have my surgery date before then.
 
my surgeon requires a 5 day liquid diet. i wonder why its just five days? i dont even care. thats better than 2 weeks!

so on december 18th i go for my last visit. my pcp has to fax over everything to insurance. god i hope i get approved! she says it usually takes a week IF that! im super excited. i go for my lab work on january 4th so im hoping i have my surgery date before then.
 
my surgeon requires a 5 day liquid diet. i wonder why its just five days? i dont even care. thats better than 2 weeks!

So next week I go for my 4th weigh in which means I have 2 more weigh ins to go! I'm so excited. Today I scheduled the day I can get my labs drawn (jan 4th) and etc and after that I should be getting my surgery! I'm so spooked its gonna be here before I know it

so last night i dreamed that i was packing my overnight bag for the hospital to have surgery. i woke up thinking it was real. it FELT so real. am i that anxious to get my sleeve? lol
 
i just pray to god that all goes well when the time does come. i know this is what i want but i keep asking myself "are u really ready for this?"
 
its the small things that count. the other day i bought a dress in a size xl just because i know im gonna be able to fit it in a few months
 
i work at a hospital and we have to wear isolation gowns for some of our patients. the gown wont fasten on me but i told mself "girl, this wont be a problem soon"