13 Weeks & My Return To Oa
· bellalizza · 09/27/2012 07:10
i had my first "skinny" dream just the other night...
before surgery, after my first child was born i had a great deal of success (aka physical recovery) with OA (overeaters anonymous) and it was there that i was introduced to the idea that a person can be addicted to sugar. i can see my food addiction narrowing in on either booze or sugar and frankly, both prospects scare the **** out of me... i read all about transferring addictions when i was prepping for surgery... Kaiser does a fantastic job of giving you the straight dope about post-surgery obstacles and transferring addictions is a biggie. so... it's time for OA again... i am scared. and i'm not sure why. on the surface it's a time commitment that is gonna be hard to squeeze in right now... but since i'm being so honest, i'm really just scared that i will be judged for having my sleeve surgery. my ex-sponsor was very openly anti-weight loss surgery. it was kind of a big "no-no" in my local OA community, supposedly it was a Higher Power thing, like a person who decided to have the surgery was taking their will out of HP's hands and doing it all themselves... i don't want to be judged for my surgery. period. and in my heart, i believe that my Higher Power put everything in place to help save me from killing myself with food so that i can now focus on getting and staying sober from deadly foods and behaviors...
any OA sleevers out there???
i'd really love to hear from you...
thanks for reading!
xo
bellalizza
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