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Thank you so much for the support Shangefan! I know that I am hardest on myself, but it definitely helps to hear some reassuring and encouraging words!!

Good Morning All! I have been lurking here for about 3 weeks and have so enjoyed all of the topics and appreciated all of the information that is shared here. My surgery is scheduled for July 24. Liek everyone else here, I have been on this weight loss roller coaster for more than half of my life. I'm 44 now, and my journey began at age 11. I was underweight and very active up until that point. It was dicovered that I had a cyst in the bone of my right femur and after surgery and a bone graft, was in a body cast for 6 months, and there came the first 50lbs. And well... you all know the rest of the story. My issue, or should I say one of my issues, is that I know that I need and want to have this surgery so that I can finally get off of this roller coaster for good, and get on with livign my life and loving myself. However, I'm feeling a little guilty and not a little hypocritical because I am a Registered Dietitian and Diabetes Educator. This is what I do and I can't do it for myself. I feel like I can't be 100% successful in my job since I'm still on the same journey that my patients are on. It does make my way more sympathetic to their situations than other RD's ( or NUTs as they're referred to here) and even some of my co-workers because I get where they are coming from. But at they same time I feel like "how can I tell someone how to be healthy and lose weight when I can't do it myself?!" It's frustrating beyond belief...on top of all of the other emotional issues that come along on this roller coaster ride. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest... V

First time poster and July 24 surgery date!