I finally have saved the money that I need to have my surgery. The surgeons office is willing to finance the last $500 I need to have the surgery. Now that I know that it can happen soon, I have started to feel guilty. I am clearing out ALL my savings. My husband is paying all the bills alone and plus christmas is coming and my dughters bday. I see all the things that my money could be use for. I know that if I use all my saving, everthing is going to be really tight until tax time. I don't want to have to wait that long. I could be half way to goal by then. I am unemployed so I don't have much income coming in and I know that my daughters are looking forward to christmas. I really want this for myself but like always I see the needs of other people more important than mine. A way has been made for me to have this surgery and have that confidence that I want but I don't want to put my family in a bind due to my selfishness. Have anybody ever felt like this and what decision did you make?