Daisymay

Yes, when I make conscious decisions about types of food, things are better e.g. protien is a fuller longer feeling. I have difficulty "white knuckling" when I try to stop the binge. Then it's the downward spiral again!! I too hate the not full feeling. I'm not sure I've ever spoken to anyone before who totally expresses the same food feelings as me. Thank you.

Hi Shannon, I really do identify with you even though my story is different. I have been a compulsive eater all my life. I have tried it all...basic stuff like medication and laxatives, hypnosis, every slimming club on the planet, OA and finally the operation. Eating is still such an issue with me. I munch all day and I really really want to eat most of all just after I've eaten. The desire for food is as strong as the urge to push during labour. I am glad I had the op. There is now some limit to the damage I can do...even if I've discovered a way to eat "through the backdoor" so to speak! Before the op it was difficult to walk any distance. My hips ached and I was breathless. Now I walk the dogs for a half hour before work and swim regularly. I still attend OA but am not working the programme. I have just completed sessions of NLP and I'm waiting to see if changes have been made. Why does eating take such a major role in my life? Why do I jeapordise everything? It's almost as if I'm born to wear the sabotage t shirt. I was sleeved in July 2009 and although I'm glad, I'm disappointed that I get hungry and I'm disappointed that the aftercare and advice was poor. I've only recently found this site and I'm glad I have. Best wishes to you. Take care.