things i want to do:
1. stop cropping my pictures. seriously, i am the master at hiding my fat in photographs. i love pictures, but man, for once i want to put all of me in the picture!
2. i want to wear a size 7 shoe. since i've gained weight i'm up to an 8 1/2. and it's not because my feet have grown so much.
3. i want to run. it looks so fun. and i just think that it would be amazing to do so without getting winded after 30 seconds of running.
4. i want to play with my kids. normally i'm so dang tired and it just feels like effort to do anything physical. this makes me feel sad and terrible.
5. i want things on me to stop hurting. 100 extra pounds makes for a lot of pain on joints...
6. i want to work out and feel like i accomplish something. it is so frustrating to work out and eat properly for 6 weeks and beyond and then wonder, "why am i doing this?" i need to see results. ugh.
and lastly, i won't number this one, because it's not really a number kind of thing. but i want to be who i am. i love myself. WLS has nothing to do with self hate or pity. i accept who i am at 218 pounds and i will regardless of how much weight i lose. i just can't keep living like this, because if i do, i know that i will end up 400 pounds or dead. regardless of how "healthy" i'd like to think i am (no blood pressure problems, great cholesterol, etc) the truth of the matter is that it's just NOT healthy to carry around a hundred extra pounds. i want to see my kids grow up. i want to not think twice about buying clothes. i want other people to see me as i see myself. fat people get stereotyped. i am NOT a stereotype... i love life and just want to continue living it.