Autumn444

I soooooooo understand this! Yes, i am freaking out about dying on the table.... I have 3 kids that are all very upset with me going through with this. However, my husband is the one that has been keeping a level head through this all. Go figure, he never has in the past in most cases, but he really has been there for me through this! He knows that I have battled with the idea of doing this for the past 4 years. I was even about to cancel my surgery 2 weeks ago because of the what if's... And he pulled me through that with complete suport. Yes, I am beyond nervous, yes I am freaking out internally.... But all in all, I know after the fact, I will be okay.... I will have to face the other demons that brought me to this procedure.... Like, my eating obsession... I recieved a message earlier that really opened my eyes... Yes, i am afraid of the operation, but maybe I am afraid of the life changes that come with it all the more... food for thought... pun intended. I wish you well with your operation. And as I lay on the table, I will have all your wonderful advice and suport cheering me on.... Blessed Be -

So here I sit with only 16 hours till my surgery having a mild nervous breakdown......:think I read most of you had the same anxiety and come through with flying colors. Why is this not helping me? <sigh> Its really strange that I am having such anxiety over this. Its mild compared to the 14 other operations I have had. 10 on my hips, 3 c - sections, and an apendectomy. The only differnce with this one that I can truly think that may be causing the anxiety is that I opted for this. The others I didnt really have a choice. I am a big believer in what one carries with them in thought is what is produced in the Universe. I am trying so hard to correct my mind set. All in all, I know I will be fine. Yes, I know I will be fine.... Let me start singing it as a song and I just might believe! I awoke today knowing that the clear liquid fast will be underway.... Not having a lot of problems with it. Not even hungry. Probably nerves. Had to take some Milk of Magnesia just about an hour ago.... Waiting for the results... :phanvan Did anyone have their blood taken before surgery to make sure your electolites ect were okay? I am drinking gaterade just to help that along. I am so pleased I found this site. Even though I have a suportive husband, Its nice to have a Lapband family who can know exactly what I am feeling. Will post again after my surgery.

Hi mel - I will be banded on Thursady the 29th. I wish you well, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you all so much for your replies and support. It does help. I just had a bit of a crying break down when my husband walked through the door from work. He has been very suportive. My surgery is at an ungodly hour of the morning. Have to be at the hospital at 5am sharp for check in. I guess it could be a good thing honestly. Get it over and done rather than worry half of the day.... lol There are silly things going through my mind ... Like, will I ever get to sleep on my tummy again, or <clearing throat> will sex be impossible with the portal right at the surface of the tummy.... (OMG did i just say that?) So I start my liquid diet tomorrow. Adding my milk of megnesia at 12:00pm. Not looking forward to the MOM... Last time I took this, the bathroom became my bestfriend. Worry of dehydration. Has this been a problem with any of you? Will the doctor take a blood sample before the surgery? Things indeed to ponder......

Hi there everyone - I have been on here several times now as a silent observer rather than particapent. I honestly have been trying to absorbe the fact that my surgery is creeping up .... and now, here it is only 2 days away, and my anxiety is beyond words. I have been bouncing back and forth from having the bypass to the lapband for over 4 years now. I never commited until this year. In the last year and a half, I have gained over 50 pounds to my already hefty 260 pounds. This was honestly the last straw. To add more fule to this fire, I was born with Bi - lateral hip dyspasia. Having to have 10 surgeries on my hips from the age 3 - 13. Putting on weight was what I thought to be because of my lack of mobility. Yes, this has been a thorn in my side for nearly my whole life. Now I face the surgery.... This is to help me become more moble, more active with my kids... Just the idea gives me strength to follow through! Yet, the what if's plague me still.... My doctor is from Smart Dimensions in Fountain Valley, California. The Doctors I am using are Dr. LaPort and Dr. Francis. I have heard only good things about this group. Yet, have not seen any on here that has used them. I guess with this long winded greeting of hello is to thank you all for helping me get through many days of pure relentless anxiety. To help me move forward for this much needed proceedure. So many of you, after reading your trials and sucesses have had a silent cheering section <me> I hope in the days, weeks, months, years, to come, I can be as much help to someone as you all have been for me. Thank you all so very much! Many Blessings your way - Autumn