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Gwen Glad to hear that your doing ok. You will do ok, you have done so good so far. It will be tuff, but your tuff. I had the 2nd of 3 set of injections in my knees today. I'm hoping that the will start to feel better. I would like to be able to go on vacation soon and enjoy the walking around. I would like to go for a walk peroid. I miss not walking for fun. Everybody have a good day. Keep in touch love hearing how people are doing. Carol

I think now is the time most of us need that kick. It just to easy to fall back into the old ways, besides it very tiring to have to work at it all the time. You look great, so stick with it. Sorry you have to get a complete unfill. Is that just temporary thing? Let us know how your doing. Most of don't post often, but we are here for everyone. I got up my nerve today and got some injections in both of my knee. I hope they work. I'm so tire of them hurting and I really can't do much. I have to go back for the next two week for more injections, which doesn't make me happy, but if the work I will go every week if that is what I have to do. Good luck and stay strong. Carol

Thanks for starting the Sept thread. WE WILL DO GOOD THIS MONTH. CAROL

I'm still hanging on and the weight is still here. I went to the Doc the first part of the month and had lost some since I had seem him in april or may. That was a good surprise and my Hc1 was really really good. I still need to work on portion size as I eat to much, but I still have lots of issues with stuff not wanting to go down. Yesterday was one of those day where I could eat very little esp. protien. I have a really hard time with protien. Yesterday morning I fixed some eggs, bacon and fried potatoes as I was just sick to death of cereal. After going to all the effort of fixing it I couldn't get much down. My cats loved the eggs with cheese in them and my husband loved the bacon and the potatoes just got thrown out. Lunch was a granola bar and supper was carrots and a rice casserole with not much protien except the cheese. Later I ate another granola bar. The granola bar did give me some troulbe last night as it just feels as if its just sitting there I also have trouble on these days with my med. Sometimes the feel as if the are just caught in my throat. Even those I do have some problem I'm still glad that I have my band or I would probably be a lot heavier than I am. I still need to lose more so that I can get my knees worked on. The hurt so bad and I don't think people realize how much they hurt. Its so hard to go up and down the stairs. As for my husband and his little friend from the office I ask what her story was and he told me some of what he wanted me to know. I'm sure there is more. She still e-mails him serveral times a week that I know of. He makes it a point to tell me when she does, but only if he thinks I know there is a e-mail. Like he will get one and reply and delete everything, but she replies back and you can tell that he had already reply once before. I think he thinks I'm stupid. He swears there is nothing going on, but he makes himself look guilt. I really don't think there is anything going on, but I guess he doesn't trust me. Maybe he thinks he is protecting me so that my feeling won't be hurt, but hiding thing just makes him look bad. I'm so glad have this blog so that I can rant and rave when ever I want too. It helps to write it down.

I'm still hanging on and the weight is still here. I went to the Doc the first part of the month and had lost some since I had seem him in april or may. That was a good surprise and my Hc1 was really really good. I still need to work on portion size as I eat to much, but I still have lots of issues with stuff not wanting to go down. Yesterday was one of those day where I could eat very little esp. protien. I have a really hard time with protien. Yesterday morning I fixed some eggs, bacon and fried potatoes as I was just sick to death of cereal. After going to all the effort of fixing it I couldn't get much down. My cats loved the eggs with cheese in them and my husband loved the bacon and the potatoes just got thrown out. Lunch was a granola bar and supper was carrots and a rice casserole with not much protien except the cheese. Later I ate another granola bar. The granola bar did give me some troulbe last night as it just feels as if its just sitting there I also have trouble on these days with my med. Sometimes the feel as if the are just caught in my throat. Even those I do have some problem I'm still glad that I have my band or I would probably be a lot heavier than I am. I still need to lose more so that I can get my knees worked on. The hurt so bad and I don't think people realize how much they hurt. Its so hard to go up and down the stairs. As for my husband and his little friend from the office I ask what her story was and he told me some of what he wanted me to know. I'm sure there is more. She still e-mails him serveral times a week that I know of. He makes it a point to tell me when she does, but only if he thinks I know there is a e-mail. Like he will get one and reply and delete everything, but she replies back and you can tell that he had already reply once before. I think he thinks I'm stupid. He swears there is nothing going on, but he makes himself look guilt. I really don't think there is anything going on, but I guess he doesn't trust me. Maybe he thinks he is protecting me so that my feeling won't be hurt, but hiding thing just makes him look bad. I'm so glad have this blog so that I can rant and rave when ever I want too. It helps to write it down.

I haven't had trouble with my portion size, but I just crave sweet things. All I want to eat is sweets then I need to eat something that is not sweet. Its a terrible cycle to be in. The pool at the "Y" is closed this week and I'm missing. I just can't walk to far as my knees are soooo bad. I walk in the pool at what the call the river and its the only "Y" in our area that has one. Next week I think I will hit everyday, it makes my knees so much better. Stick with it I know we can do this Whitepants. Y

Glad to hear from you Gwen. I understand what you are saying. I have never lost like everyone else, but I still know that if I didn't have this band I would be bigger than I was when I started. I keep hold of that thought a lot. I know its not what I expected, but I still have lost some and for the most part have kept it off. I know teenage girls are a real pain. I raised two of them. Keep up the good work. Carol

Jen, I don't know I wonder often about serveral of the regulars. If the have reach their goals or if maybe they haven't and are embrassed. I mean its very hard for me to admit that I have not reach my goal or lost has much as I would have liked to. But that being said I have lost some and I know I would have been much heavier if I hadn't got the band. I sure hope that some are still reading the thread and will respond and lets us know how they are doing. Carol

Jen, Once you get your Iron back up you feel so much better, with a lot more energy. Good luck. Carol

Just becareful of constipation, that comes with taking iron. Thats a whole new problem you probably don't want.

Way to go Mrs Husker for starting this months thread. Glad your doing ok, its tuff thing to do. Stay strong and you know we marchies are here for you anytime. Its not just about weight loss. Jen you right this thread has been dead for about a month. Still love to here updates from everyone. Did the doctor start you on Vit D and give you some Iron to take? I hope so. Take everyone and let us know how your doing?

You might try the forms. You would probaby get more feed back there.

Hi everyone. This month sure is flying by. How is everyone doing. Everything is still same on my front. Take care and let us know how your doing.

I feel like I'm on the edge of very high cliff and it will only take a small push and I will be falling,falling and falling. I have only myself to blame for all my unhappiness. I keep looking for things and when I find them I'm just sick at heart. I really don't know what to make of all the e-mails my husband gets from a former co-worker. Since he retired in April he almost always gets at least one e-mail a week from this person. Now I don't really care except he hides them from me. I know he gets them, then he deletes them. I know he replys because he gets replys back. I don't really know whats going on, but last Friday nite he got one from her home email not work and the title was "Man I could use a shoulder now." He reads them and never says whats going on, this last one he didn't delete completely off the computer. I want really bad to read it, but feel that is betraying him. I just don't know what is going on. I don't know how to ask him without sounding completely crazy. I know he doesn't care for me like he use to. I know I disappoint him. I know I was never good enough for him. I know he hates it that I'm so fat. I know all these things why can't I just lose the weight, I know it would improve things alot. I feel as if he is ashamed to be seen with me. We never go anywhere. He never says I Love You, even through I have told him how important to me it is. I have asked to held and hugged, but he always acts like a little boy being punished. So I quite asking for him to do those things. He hates to hold hands or to kiss. What have I done wrong. I have done this for so long, that I don't really have any ideas anymore. So tonight I feel as if I'm on the edge. I have always loved him. But he hides things from me and its not just the co-worker. There are other thing too and it hurts when you hear things from other people. Then when I say something he admits he knew, but just didn't tell me. Life is so messy, so confusing and walls are so hard to break down. He told me serveral years ago that he has never had an affair and he never would. I do really trust him, but it this other person that I don't trust. I just think its wrong to e-mail another persons spouse. Maybe if he told me what was going on it would be ok. I do know that she asked his to lunch sometime and I know so far he hasn't gone. Maybe I'm just to old fashioned. Maybe I'm just crazy. I do know that I'm scared that I will wake someday and he will be gone.

I feel like I'm on the edge of very high cliff and it will only take a small push and I will be falling,falling and falling. I have only myself to blame for all my unhappiness. I keep looking for things and when I find them I'm just sick at heart. I really don't know what to make of all the e-mails my husband gets from a former co-worker. Since he retired in April he almost always gets at least one e-mail a week from this person. Now I don't really care except he hides them from me. I know he gets them, then he deletes them. I know he replys because he gets replys back. I don't really know whats going on, but last Friday nite he got one from her home email not work and the title was "Man I could use a shoulder now." He reads them and never says whats going on, this last one he didn't delete completely off the computer. I want really bad to read it, but feel that is betraying him. I just don't know what is going on. I don't know how to ask him without sounding completely crazy. I know he doesn't care for me like he use to. I know I disappoint him. I know I was never good enough for him. I know he hates it that I'm so fat. I know all these things why can't I just lose the weight, I know it would improve things alot. I feel as if he is ashamed to be seen with me. We never go anywhere. He never says I Love You, even through I have told him how important to me it is. I have asked to held and hugged, but he always acts like a little boy being punished. So I quite asking for him to do those things. He hates to hold hands or to kiss. What have I done wrong. I have done this for so long, that I don't really have any ideas anymore. So tonight I feel as if I'm on the edge. I have always loved him. But he hides things from me and its not just the co-worker. There are other thing too and it hurts when you hear things from other people. Then when I say something he admits he knew, but just didn't tell me. Life is so messy, so confusing and walls are so hard to break down. He told me serveral years ago that he has never had an affair and he never would. I do really trust him, but it this other person that I don't trust. I just think its wrong to e-mail another persons spouse. Maybe if he told me what was going on it would be ok. I do know that she asked his to lunch sometime and I know so far he hasn't gone. Maybe I'm just to old fashioned. Maybe I'm just crazy. I do know that I'm scared that I will wake someday and he will be gone.

Tammy J, Sorry you are having so much trouble, but glad your happy the weight loss this last week. Its just not fun having to lose that way. You would think the doctor would have found a way to get you in before 6 weeks. That's a long time to wait. Some of us are still around posting from time to time. Guess most of us are either really happy with our weight loss or disppointed in our weight loss. Don't hear from many of the bandsters anymore, but would love some updates, even its not good. Its the support that I enjoy the most. Take care Tammy and let us know how you are doing. Carol

I was a huge Diet Coke person before my surgery, I had my last one the night before and I haven't one since. Its been 2yrs and 4 months. I have had a diet root beer over sugar free, low fat ice cream for treat, but by that time the fizz is gone out of the root beer. I really don't miss the diet coke, I use to drink first thing in morning and all night long while working. I just don't miss it anymore. Wish I could say the same about cookies.

I have had trouble with bread from day one. chicken is a big no-no for me, it will just not go down. Sometimes meat in general will not go down. I can't eat anykind of cake,muffins,pancakes, waffles or bread. Toast maybe, but usually just don't try it because I'm afraid it won't go down. Tuna, I can't eat tuna, would love eat it but even in lots of mayo it still won't go down. Oranges don't go down eithers, but other fruit is ok. So now I avoid lots of foods.

I have not posted on my blog for serveral months now. I keep thinking things will change and I will start to lose. I'm so disappointed in myself. I know the band rules about junk foods, so now I'm trying not to have any in the house. I think that has helped me some, but I want to be thin. Thin is my dream these days. My life is all about food and what I can eat and what I cant eat. Sometimes I find myself hungry, but nothing sounds good anymore. Some of the things I want to eat I know will not go down so I just don't eat. Maybe one of these days it will all come together in my head and I will finally get my act together and just do this. I know I'm fighting myself , but I still don't completely know why. I know that my personal life has a lot to do with it and I don't think that will change anytime soon. I wish I was a stronger person and maybe I wouldn't let things get to me. My biggest fear is that I will die fat, or that no one will love me because I'm so fat. I sometimes feel as if my family is ashamed of me and really don't want to be seen with me. I went to the baseball game a couple of weeks ago and I was afraid I wouldn't fit in the seats. It was tight and I had bruises on my hips for the next week. Why isn't that a wake up call for me? Why don't I do something about it? I just don't understand myself. I can't blame anyone but myself for my failure. I know I have to be in control, but right now I'm way out of control.

I have not posted on my blog for serveral months now. I keep thinking things will change and I will start to lose. I'm so disappointed in myself. I know the band rules about junk foods, so now I'm trying not to have any in the house. I think that has helped me some, but I want to be thin. Thin is my dream these days. My life is all about food and what I can eat and what I cant eat. Sometimes I find myself hungry, but nothing sounds good anymore. Some of the things I want to eat I know will not go down so I just don't eat. Maybe one of these days it will all come together in my head and I will finally get my act together and just do this. I know I'm fighting myself , but I still don't completely know why. I know that my personal life has a lot to do with it and I don't think that will change anytime soon. I wish I was a stronger person and maybe I wouldn't let things get to me. My biggest fear is that I will die fat, or that no one will love me because I'm so fat. I sometimes feel as if my family is ashamed of me and really don't want to be seen with me. I went to the baseball game a couple of weeks ago and I was afraid I wouldn't fit in the seats. It was tight and I had bruises on my hips for the next week. Why isn't that a wake up call for me? Why don't I do something about it? I just don't understand myself. I can't blame anyone but myself for my failure. I know I have to be in control, but right now I'm way out of control.

I feel your frustration. I too thought this would be the end to all dieting. I'm 2years and 4 months since surgery and I have only lost about 30 lbs. I don't lose more I just stay around 30 lbs sometimes I'm up a couple lbs and sometime's I'm down a couple lbs. This is where I stay. I can't eat the things that I'm suppose to eat, so I eat all the wrong things. Chicken is a big bust for me, it just doesn't go down. I still can eat way more than 1/4 to 1/2 cup of food. I never did get to that point where I could eat just small amounts of food. Sometimes I wish I had never done lap band, but still I'm down 30lbs and God only know where I would be without it. I hate to excersise, but have found water arobics to be the best suit for me. My knees are to bad to do much else. I though by now I would be into small clothes and feeling great, but alast I'm not. Yes, I do feel your frstration, but please hang in and maybe one of these day it will all click for you.

Thanks Jeni, I think we all need a wake up call every now and again. Thing going pretty good right now. Yes and excerise is most important. Had a quite 4th. Husband gone on his annual campout, so its really quiet at my house. Carol

Juli, Not only do you look great, but you should be so proud of yourself. Rock on girl. Carol

Mom Lambert, That was a big question when my Husband retired earlier this year. So far so good, we haven't killed each other yet. Carol

Mom Lambert, Don't you wonder where 41 years has gone? We will be married 40 years this fall and I'm amazed that it has gone by so fast. Carol