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Tracyks, how special, that was really touching!!! I am with you on the Adam thing TracyK. Susie, I understand how you feel, I was talking on the phone last night with a friend that I haven't talked to for about 14 months. It is amazing that we have let things go for so long. Anyways I told her I had the band, and have lost a total of 100 pounds. She said you must be really little. I told her I am not, it is amazing that I can loose 100 pounds and still be very heavy. I said I know we are hard on ourselves, and that I am proud of what I have lost, but the fact of the matter is I am still overweight and I can't believe I allowed myself to become so obese. It is a weird head trip and one that not everyone can understand. I am sweating going to Gruene all of a sudden because I am still so very overweight. But, then I think all the violets don't mind what weight I am at. It is very weird and I will probably feel self conscious for awhile, I do it to myself. The fact of the matter is nobody really cares what you weigh as long as you are happy. I don't care if my friends are fat or skinny, I love them no matter what. I want them to be happy and healthy, but besides that, I really don't care. Does that make sense or does it come off sounding harsh? I am proud of knowing everyone here, but I like you not because you lost weight, although you have all been very very supportive and inspirational. Losing weight just adds to our personality, and makes us more real and touchable, because we know the struggle. But, I am not going to like somebody less because they gained. I am rambling, but I have this thought (watch out), and hope I am making myself clear and not digging a larger hole!! I LOVE AND APPRECIATE THE VIOLETS FOR WHO THEY ARE NOT THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE.

Pam, that nest is really neat looking! It is amazing to see!! I didn't yet watch all of BB have it on tape, and saw the last bit, I DON'T LIKE ADAM, BUT, he did say he would donate $100,000 to Autism, I hope he is truthful about that!! His winnings are dwindling tho--he has to take Matt to las Vegas, Uncle Sam will get his fair share and so on. Just when the sun was going down, it stopped raining and the sun sort of came out. The next two days are supposed to be very very cold with freeze warnings. Went to Walmart and did not find my shoes!! I really want to find these shoes. I did find some shoes on Ebay that I thought I might like, has anyone here bought shoes on Ebay? I am rambling again. Have a good night. Jane

It is really cold here and rainy, so Suzie here is hoping we get your weather tomorrow!! Off to Walmart, I am on a serious shoe hunt, and saw somebody today with shoes on like I want, I asked where she got them, she said Wal Mart!! I don't think I have ever been to see their shoes. I actually don't like going to Walmart, too crowded and too many people slapping and hollering at their kids around. I go there occasionally, but it is generally too much for me to handle. TracyK why is there a + sign after your name? Have a good night!!

I went on vacation once and spent so much money that I had to buy an extra suitcase to come back with!! I am with Michelle, plus I am heading to Houston afterwards for great shopping!! That is the one thing about living alone, no one to say "WHAT!?!?!?!?!" I need that every once in a while!! Jane

Thanks Judy!!!

Suzie, big hug!! Tracy, that is amazing your picture and story!! I am glad you sent a link cause I have trouble finding that. I printed out the year thing and what you said. I need to learn from you, you have done great and have a great gift of words. No wonder you were picked for Las Vegas!! Tracy and Pam, I almost forgot about that!!! I just really hope that Adam doesn't win!! Well I feel better, my fever broke last night, don't know what it was, odd. I still have really bad reflux, I have moved to the couch the past two nights. I think I will call my regular Dr. tomorrow. My neices kids birthday party is today, we are going to this park that has a carousel. It should be fun. If this was after Gruene, I could post a picture, but since Judy (THank you) hasn't showed me yet... Okay have a great day everyone!! Jane

I am bringing my laptop, because I want somebody to show me how to post pictures?!?!? So, would someone like to voluteer??? Thanks!!!

Up all night with bad reflux, then got a fever. Nothing hurt, just a fever, right now on tylenol it is 100.5. I checked my port site to make sure it is not red. Will go into work and if I feel too bad I will leave, it is just that today is super busy where the rest of the week was slow!! Jane

GOT MY FILL TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had lost about 1 1/2 cc's in addition to the 1 cc she took out in January. I hope this is not a bad sign!! I didn't like the Dr. much. I pretty much laid it on the table and told him how I felt, so he was probably thinking the same thing about me!! I've said it before and I will say it again, I am glad I am not related to him or he is married to a friend of mine! At least I had the support of a really great Dr. for most of the first year. For him I sure it sucks because when I self payed, part of that money entitles me to two full years of Dr.'s visits and fills. He gets nothing that I am aware of. So, I guess he can have an attitude, and I guess I can too!! I also think I might be PMSing (yathink!!). Well I see that you guys had trouble with the site today, that is so frustrating!! Tracy what you sent about your first year was wonderful!!

Good morning all, gotta run!! Have a good day!!! Jane

Terri I am with TracyK!!! Slow day again today at work. I HOPEFULLY WILL GET MY FILL TOMORROW!!!!!! Aren't I the same person that raved and raved about my Dr.? Well I guess all good things must come to an end, and she is now in Oregon!! I hope this new Dr. is good. I am still paid up for another year. Well here is hoping everyone has a great night and weekend!! Jane

Off to work, fun, fun. This has been a slow week. It always happens at the end of the month!

Kat I would come watch Kinsey if I lived closer!!! Hugs and prayers.

Sorry Laura, it is frustrating when you do everything right!!! TracyKS you are doing great on your weight loss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TracyK good point about staying home and working!!! GEE what a novel idea--WORK!!! I wonder if these people have a good work ethic, or they just want someone else to pay for their work. I think the younger ones haven't really experianced life yet, so they don't count. I didn't notice the dry eyes that is kind of funny though. At this point I hope it is Ryan. Hi Pam, Kat, Denise, Susie, Jennifer, Michelle, Judy, & Haydee (love the email about the people coming in and robbing or adding to you!!!)

Pam and Tracy, OH MY GOSH!!! I went over to my parents after work tonight and they were watching BB from tonight that they had taped!!!! Could Shelia have 'been more devasted'? I think that was the word she kept using. SHUT UP AND QUIT CRYING!!!! She will be so embarrased when she watches it back. It for some reason just drove me crazy!! There I feel better after venting!!

Let me rephrase that, it is not that mine are so pretty and perky, just big!!! Jane

Hey wait!!! I'M SINGLE!!!! Plus I can probably get you a keg with my boobs!! Jane

Hey Judy, our church is looking for an interim pastor!! One of our 3 is retiring this summer and they want an interim while they decide what to do. If he can be presbyterian the job is his!!! I missed BB last night, I assume from your conversation that Sharon left. Who is the next hoh? I agree i don't want Shelia or Adam to win, so that leaves Ryan. He seems really sincere! I thought I would love American Idol last night since it was Andrew Lloyd Weber night, but didn't. The two Davids are phenomenal, the others are just okay. It is funny, I don't like the young David until he sings, then my opinion changes. I felt really sorry for Jason, because he looked like he was in pain the whole time he sang. Well off to start my day!! Jane

Michelle, that is horrible, I hope all works out, I am sure with all that is going on with the other daughter, they have one less worry since you are taking care of the other!! Hugs and prayers!

Parasailing is so much fun, did it like 20 years ago in Cancun. It is not scary at all, but I don't have a problem with heights either. Judy you will have a blast!!!

Haydee, I am almost there in tops! If any run big I would be interested. I am still HUGE in pants. Oh well. Hopefully Friday I will get a fill, not that I have NEEDED ONE FOR OVER A MONTH!!!!!!!!!! Bitter huh??? Pam the plants look great, I planted (sort of) this seed roll in my planter box. I got it for $5.00, last year I spent $80 for flowers and didn't like them, they never grew pretty! I am sort of excited about my seeds. I am like a little kid. I planted them Saturday night (I sure know how to party don't I?) and look every day!! I LOVE PEONIES!!! Tracy and Pam OMG, how shocking about James???? How do those things slide by the powers that be? Oh well, I just got a call that my house didn't appraise out, so I have to come up with $2,000. What is a poor girl to do!! Have a good day!! Jane

Haydee that is great!!!! Maybe the B & B has some though! Maybe not as many as we need, but less you have to bring!! Thanks again!! Jane Oh I went to order the swimsuit in a larger size, no luck, it was out!! So I ordered a different one in two sizes and will just send one back.

Moving suxs!! Hope she figures out a solution!!

I want anyone but Adam to win. I was offended the first night that he called autistic kids 'retards'. Shelia I like and don't like, same with the other two. I really haven't watched it like the other summer series, I think there is just too much on tv right now, with American Idol and Survivor! Well the guy came to do the appraisal, he was here about 3 minutes and left. I really think this is just a formality since I am not getting anymore money, just refinancing. Been on again and off again cleaning. Did get a swimsuit in the mail from Just my Size:eek::eek::lol::sad::ohmy::sad::sad::thumbup::eek::tongue_smilie::frown::sad::sad::eek::eek:!!! I am sure I could find more smiley faces, but I am sure you get the idea!!! I think I will just get a bigger size and see how it looks, the nice thing about this suit is it has pockets!! I am a pocket person!!! I am only happy if I have a pocket!!! I need to do some labels for the taxing district. Have a good night!!

Jenn who is calling you fat??? Not nice!!!!!!! I know it sounds crazy, but last week and this week I have been trying to remind myself how far I come, not how much farther I have to go. It is hard. Somedays I am better than others. Anyways that is not nice period!!!! Shame on people for using that!!!