Hello everyone. I've been meditating on my weight loss journey today. My doctor said his goal for me was 134 lbs and I was like yeah right. I will be happy if I make it to 150 which is what I weighed in high school. As of yesterday, I'm now 144 and I thought my scale was playing a trick on me. So I weighed in today and sure enough, I weighed in at 144.8 lbs the exact weight from yesterday. I'm not saying this for kudos or anything I'm saying this because I remembered what my doctor's goal was for me at that moment this morning and now I realize well that's only 10 more pounds. First of all, I'm still trying to process the fact that I'm 144 and I'm not even trying to lose. I just am. The band is really doing it's thing here. So what I'm feeling right now at this moment, is SCARED!!!!!! I can't explain it I just feel like I don't want to be that small but then I do. I don't even remember being this weight I imagine in junior high but me, 134 pounds???? Are you freaking serious????!!!!!!! I don't know maybe I'm stressing for no reason but I just can't grasp this right now. I guess because I have been so used to being big, I don't know what it feels like to be small and for that reason I'm scared. Thanks for listening.