Hi there.
It's been a long time since I have been here. I actually had to start a new login. Seems they won't let me back in under my other name.
I'm reaching out to you guys with a problem that I have encountered. I was banded in Oct. of 06. I did wonderful. It wasn't a very fast loss but I was losing. And I was so proud of my self. I was actually 3 pounds shy of losing 200 pounds when my husband and I went on vacation. We were going to L.A. for a wedding. It had been 25 years since I had been home. And I gave myself the go ahead to splurge while I was there. There were places that I hadn't eaten at since I had lived there. Ididn't really over do it, but I wasn't the best bandster.
But I need to back up a little bit. In January of "10", I had developed realy bad reflux while I slept. I went to see my band Doc and after some test it showed I needed to have surgery to repair a very bad hiatal hernia. It was right at the band site. So I was facing surgery but before I got to schedule it, I found out that I needed emergency surgery. During my weight loss journey I did a lot of walking. But over a few months time I was starting to have trouble walking. I finally went to the Doctors and he orderd an MRI. It showed I had cycst growing on my spinal cord and that I needed to be in surgery as fast as I could. So I had the surgery in June and came out a champ. Doc put me on a walking schedule and I followed it to the "T". We left for vacation August 25 and got back home Sept. 19th. I went right back to walking. Then on Oct. 13th. I entered my first 5K. It hurt like hell but I finished and was so proud of myself. But I had to get back to the fact that I had another surgey facing me. So the Thursday before Thanksgiving, I had Hiatal Hernia surgery. It seemed that was where I lost my weight fight. I was gaining but at a very slow rate. Then it happened again. Back into surgey to have my gallbladder removed. Then I noticed like I had simply given up loosing. I was feeling sorry for myself that I had to have 3 surgeries in a row. I've tried several times to get back on track but it just seems like I just can't find that person I was before the surgeries started. I'm good for about 5 days and then I fall back into my bad habbits. Then you know what? Yup, back in for more surgery. Jan. 4th. I went in for a laminectomy. I had severly herniated disc. L3 and L4. So I went in and they cleaned up the fragments and got me out of pain. So I think you can now see that I kind of have a reason for feeling sorry for myself. Some how I need to find the gumption I had and get myself back to getting this weight off. I need to get the weight off that I have regained and then some.
While I was in having this last surgery, the Doctor came in to talk to me about my weight and that he felt that the band had failed me and that I should look into having a sleeve done. I told my husband after the Doc left that I will not do the surgery. My band has not failed me, I have failed my band. I need to start getting back in for fills. First thing I will have to tackle is the fact that I have let my Band Doc down. I need to stop beating myself up about the gain. I need to take the weight that I haven't gained back and add to it. I need to get back to walking and back to that girl that was so excited about getting the band. And I hope that is soon.
Sorry for dumping this on you guys, I was just hoping I could find an understanding friend.
