I know this wasn't meant to be funny, but I seriously busted out laughing about shoving the muffin down your throat because that sounds just like something I would do... Lol I'm pre-op myself and don't have surgery until March 11th. All of the questions that you have going through your mind, I have as well. I think that I'm going to kind of miss being fat because it's what I hide behind. When that's gone, what am I going to do? I'm going to miss all the foods that I eat now in excessive amounts and shoveling muffins down my throat, but this is best for the both of us!!