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Congratulations on your date, I'm so excited for you. Did you meet him online? I hope to have the self-confidence for a date one day.

Thanks everyone for your responses. I did answer the questions honestly and at first I thought I should have told them what they wanted to hear, I know that it was in my best interest to tell the truth. Gustavo, you say the surgery isn't for everyone... how so? Is it that it's mentally tough? I'm sure it is but that is what your suport system is for right? Plus, it seems like everyone keeps saying it gets better after a couple of months. Things were left that the psychologist is going to call my psychiatrist and talk to him. We'll see how that goes. If that doesn't satisfy him then I'll go from there. I'm not going to give up that easily.

Follow up with the program's psych today. He thinks I'm on too many medications and that I'm too depressed for surgery. He, the psychologist is questioning my psychiatrist? Uh, who's the medical doctor here? According to his psychological tests I'm off the charts in depression. His "tests" say that I am passive dependent (wth?), gives up easily, oppositional, pessimistic and a poor candidate for surgery at this time as compared to other bariatric patients. Boy I sound like a real winner, who here wants to be my friend now? (oops that's sarcasm and pessimism) So my first reaction was to cry, then scream and tell him what to do with his tests, but I thought he would probably make note of that. It took everything I had, but I sat there and listened to his recommendations which was to go get a second opinion and start all over with my meds, get a "clean slate". Are you kidding me? My psychiatrist knows my history, knows what medicines effect me how and he's the one who helped me when I was face down on the floor. That was 12 years ago. Since then my weight has gone up, but my moods have been pretty steady, lower then the average person, but we are all different. I just can't believe this. I finally make this decision then bam right in the face. Like I'm going to get happier being this miserably overweight and in pain? Anyone else gone through this? Help? If I wasn't depressed before, I'm devastated now. Way to start the weekend.

Raven, I saw the psych yesterday and I didn't like him at all. He was so negative. I would just rather stilck with my psychiatrist. I still have to see him one more time on Friday. HOpefully just one more time. He said I was on too many meds and made it sound like my fault. Hopefully he won't hold up this process for me.

Oakcliffmom, you hit the nail on the head. The nerves come from the fact that it is an elective surgery at least that what others will see. It's kind of like "well you did this to yourself". However, for us it's not elective, it's life and death. BUt then, what if we fail? What if we don't lose all this weight? What if all the people on this forum are the success stories? I've tried googling other stories but they mainly seem good which is the only reason I'm still in the process of doing this surgery.

Thanks to everyone. Great advice. I do need to do this for me right? I need to stop thinking what others may say. People are going to judge and I can't change that. Those who are my true friends will hopefully understand, or at least try to. But... that was easy to type... what will really happen? What will I really feel? I already suffer from major depression, is this going to make things worse? Will I be able to handle this? All questions I will ask the psych on Tuesday. I hope he doesn't disqualify me because of my "crazy".

It’s given me a lot of time to contemplate. Am I really going to get sleeved? Am I willing to make that drastic, DRASTIC change? Then I realize…It's hard to be 300 pounds at the beach (well everywhere really). The group I'm with, they don't understand nor will they ever. We are on the 3rd floor... I won't even get started on my knees. They went and climbed the lighthouse, they walk the beach. I'm trailing behind just dragging the umbrella and beach chair 50 feet away. It's hard. It’s humiliating. I have to sit in the front seat of the car because if I sat in the back seat we wouldn’t be able to fit 3 people back there. So why wouldn’t I jump and say, yes, let’s get sleeved. Why am I having such a hard time with it? I’ve already seen the surgeon and I see the psych on Tuesday. My life revolves around celebrating food. It’s such a big daily, 3 times a day event, especially on vacation. How would my “new” lifestyle fit in? Will my friends understand or will they get tired of dealing with me and my food restrictions? I keep wishing there will be a sign saying that I should do this. What if I am missing the sign? What if the sign was my leg giving away getting out of a booth at the restaurant and nearly hitting the ground? What if my sign was not being able to go see a friend in a play because I don’t fit in the theater seat? What’s a fluffy girl to do?

what did the doc say? Will this get better? I'm so sorry you are having complications.

Why did you have to go back to liquids?

What is an endoscopy? Is it something that has to be done before surgery?

that's good. 5 bites? What do you do the rest of the meal? Watch him, or does it take a while to get those 5 bites down? This is going to be so difficult I think.

what happened? did you get dehydrated? By the way I would have killed him.

What about in the beginning while you were still on liquids and mushy foods. I guess it would depend on the restaurant. Some people went out for Chinese food today and I was thinking what would I have eaten here had it been after surgery?

What do you do for the first few months when people want to go out to eat? Do you still want the food as you sit there and smell it and watch others eat it while you drink a protein drink or whatever?