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I have to say thank you to everyone that has posted regarding this issue. Relationships are so difficult at times. I realize that the relationship I have with myself is more imortant. I am now working a 2 jobs, saving for a house and just bought a new car. I am determined to make things happen on my own with the help of no one. This is more about my personal empowerment in knowing that being alone with myself and loving the person I am is more important to me than any relationship i can have with someone else. I have to like who I am am first and then I can begin introducing new people into my life. I am in charge of how people treat me. if i allow someone to abuse me I can only expect to be abused time and time again, So i am not a victim I am a victor.

I have yet to exercise. I immediately began feeling pain in my back and hip and have terrible sciatica. I want to exercise and I am in too much pain. Hopefully my 3rd steroid shot will work next tuesday and I will be on my way to walking. I have lost 59lbs so far since march.

@@GSDMom I had the same feeling, its called espohogeal spasams. it goes away over time. You will just need to ride out the uncomfortable feelings and then they will be an after thought. Stay strong. You will be okay.

@@vsgval Please do this ASAP, Prilosec......You will be glad you took it. It was the only thing that stopped the acid.

@ I was plagued with this same notion until I started eating normal food again. Sometimes I forget that I cant eat What I used to eat and then I regret it very quickly. You will see what i am talking about soon enough and then run to the bathroom.

Im post op and screw up. Dont beat yourself up. You are human. Its human nature to go against the grain. The wonderful thing is that you recognize it and feel remorse. I think that once we get into the habit of feeling guilt over our faults we can then change them. Self awareness is key to this journey.

I had my surgery on March 10th at the Orlando Regional Hospital by Dr. Jawad. My experiance wasa very comfortable. Everyone was very attentive and professional. The nurses were angels especially when I first came out of surgery. I was very uncomfortable in the recovery area when I first woke up and they ran to my side right away to comfort me. I remember one in particular that was hugging me and being very motherly. I was there for a day and then wqas sent home feeling great.

Thanks everyone. It is nice to know that I have friends in the same boat as me. I am back to normal now. My brother just moved in with me so I am not used to having junk around me. No more for me now. I had my share and I am good. I know that once you get started it is hard to stop so I am making a conscience effort to repel the urge.

You'll be able to drink lots of water just not all at once. Sometimes I am really thirsty and I go gulping like I used to and then my stomach tells me that I need to chill out. So then i drink a little here and there. Its the new normal.

Be patient and try not to beat yourself up when you stumble. Its just about recognizing your issues and trying to correct them. Know that your relationship with food goes deeper than your stomach. This is a mind game and you will learn how to play it. You will hate food and love it at the same time and that was the hardest part for me.

I have had one heck of a weekend. I ate the wrong things and drank coke. I know I shouldnt beat myself up but the shame of it will help me so my job now is to get back on the wagon and not let this set me back. It is so easy to let this get to me and cause me to feel like I failed even though i know I have not failed but it is still a let down to myself. I just wanted to let you know that I was bad and be honest about it. Back to basics.

@@staceymeaux Awesome!!!!!

@A little less 4 now on I went through an emotional break down about a month ago because I wanted to eat a whole plate of food but over time you will get used to it. Promise.

@@rosieuk I had that also and it will go away in time. Just take an acid blocker and ride it out. It seems like it will never end but i promise it will. I started feeling better with in the first month.