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My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

i never kept any of my old/too small clothes - or even the "normal" ones i was wearing and they got to big
in other words i never "saw" my transformation
i finally saw a few differences, new clothes sizes, things improving - but i could never grasp the weight loss mentally
went to the store the other day to try on a pair of the exact same 2X blue jeans, elastic band, same brand
i put them on in the store and just stared at myself in disbelief
i did that for about 10 minutes!!!
then i took those jeans off, put my size 6 jeans on with the 2X over them
i again kept staring at myself
i bought the jeans and sat in the car for another few minutes
i was so sad!!!
Reason????
i just kept looking/staring at myself say "OMG" is that really me in those gigantic pants???? i filled out "ALLLL" that empty space
i was very upset, still am alittle just thinking and talking about it
i don't think i'll ever forget this incident - i was looking back at 59 years of my life - pretty sad!!!
but................
i know, i know - out with the old, in with the new
i am so very happy now - healthy now - no more diabetes meds/insulin - high blood pressure - CPAP
self confidence through the roof
life IS good
proud to be a veteran - looking forward to continueing a new good life!!!
only the best for all of us!!!

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

Thanks for this post and replies very helpful. I didn't realize how this stall I'm in is completely devastating me - making me think im failing so soon postop . Its hard to believe I can eat 800 Cal a day and not lose for 2 weeks. Really wish I could stay off scale

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

Sleeved 8/27
Highest wt. June 261 lb.
Day of surgery 253 lb.
current wt 219 lb
Best decision I ever made. It wasn't easy but definitely not anything near what I worried about. By the 3 rd week post op I was walking everyday. If you are preop don't be afraid. Read all our stories and take courage - you are starting a new life.

Congratulations. You are an inspiration!

Its sad how quickly people get self righteous and nasty on this forum sometimes.

I completely get it! I am sad on all of the cute mom and kids pics I have missed out on because I felt too uncomfotable in front of a camera. The funny thing is instead of feeling depressed, I feel quite the opposite! I am looking forward to my kids bday parties and taking pictures. I can't wait to have my surgery and get this photo shoot going!!

Injury chocolate and vanilla. Is good. Try with cold skim milk and blend with 2 strawberries. I buy frozen berries and add to shake. The berries add a lot of flavor

I have had several people at work comment on how "easy this is for you" or "it sure is coming off fast." "Aren't you glad you took the easy way?" (my personal favorite)
I just look at them and say, "care to join me at the gym tonight while I sweat my ass off on the elliptical for 30 minutes and then weight lift for another 45? Or how would you like to join me in eating my 3 oz serving of Protein while surrounded by people in the cafeteria who are eating fried corn dogs, onion rings and homemade chocolate cake?"
That usually shuts them up.

8 oz skim milk, 1 keurig cup Caramel vanilla Green Mountain coffee (makes about 8oz) cooled in fridge (make it night before), 1 tablespoon of Torani sugar free Caramel Syrup, 1 scoop Vanilla Protein, Ice Cubes. MIX. Tastes like Starbucks, I swear, with no guilt. 32 grams of protein. And takes me about half the am to drink.

The stalls are fairly normal and happen to everyone. No exceptions. It is the body adjusting to the weight loss by moving things around and rehydrating your muscles with Water to support stored glycogen. The stall will naturally take care of itself and usually be followed by a good drop on the scale. On my first stall I decided to try and break it by hiking on a pretty extreme, stair master type hike (2000 feet in 1 mile). While I did break my stall, I do not think it was because of the hike ( stall was already going on 3 weeks) and I ended up overdoing it. I spent the next week recovering and not being able to walk very well. And I had to cool it on even the normal exercises. And I got extremely dehydrated and thought I needed to go to the ER even before I finished the hike. And I have hiked all sorts of challenging hikes since a child. The point is that extreme measures for breaking a stall are not worth it.mbeing patient would have saved me the 1 week recovery time.
I don't really pay attention to the scales any longer and weigh in about once a week. I have found it much better to focus on how you feel, how clothes are fitting, getting adequate sleep, getting adequate rest, keeping stress low, being happy and more. Sure I was not always like this, but have found life and work much more enjoyable if you just let go and not stress about things that are out of my control.
I used to think exercising like a fanatic led to better results, but ultimately it did not because my diet was all wrong and it put stress on my body because I did it so often. I do still exercise, but I do it out of enjoyment and best of all, for me. One of the exercises I enjoy the most is walking my dog for 1+ hours. It is not real intense (some hills, a little brisk), but it helps me relax with nature, fresh air, listening to the birds, etc. And my dog loves it.
Hope this helps. Good luck.

Yeah, I can pack away a lot of bacon too if I want. That is why we only make it once in a while and I don't care how much of it I eat. And once cooked (as long as you don't fry it in its own fat), it is not AS bad as one would think. My lettuce wrap with 4 pieces might have had around 200-250 calories all together, at the most (4 slices bacon=170 calories, lettuce+tomato=almost nothing, 1 tbsp light miracle whip=30 cal, which I did not put a while TBSP on). So it is not that bad when you look at it!
Yes, I am below target. I actually never thought I would get to my target as my weight loss really slowed down. I actually did not reach goal until 18 months post op and the last 2 months I have been losing and have lost around 5 lbs, so it is true that you can continue to lose for the first 2 years! I am proof!

I always like to answer those questions with a question or some vague 'answer'.
"What a weird question."
"What difference does that make?"
"Our family is nuttier than a fruitcake!"
"It's hard work losing 50lbs!"
"What do you think of the pics I posted?"
"I must look GOOD if I'm the subject of gossip. Whoo hoo!"
At the end of the day, it none of anyone's business and you don't have to tell ANYONE.

Thank you Lissa for all your posts. I have been reading them since I first found this site and am now 4 days postop
Your words of encouragement helped me so much. Thank you and Congratulations!

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.

My life..tight sleeves, too may layers, 3x No!!, seatbelts, waterparks, beaches, weddings, parties, photos, being underestimated, self conscious, fat walks in the room first, my fat comes before me, always on my mind, will this still fit -no too tight, another month, another season, another year no change, the dream fades, mommy why do the kids say your fat, make the appointment, walk thru the door. -am I really this big - denial - doc says need sleeve not band -I am that big - thought this blouse hid it - Nut says you can get it all off....all off...don't look better (band) look great...all off. 8/27 please pray for me I'm scared.