dpeeler28

if your surgeon said so then i guess ok....but if you're getting plenty of fluid in (other than the gatorade) that just seems like a waste of calories/carbs to me. i'm definitely not a dr by any means, so don't take me at my word. but don't be frustrated by what others are eating/drinking and their weightloss, you are doing GREAT!!

can you drink crystal light or some other flavored water instead of the powerade/gatorade? i've always been told to steer clear of those unless i was severely dehydrated!

Well Monday is the big day!! i have so many thoughts about the whole thing that i cannot sleep! i'm doing ok on the preop diet, i'm down 10 pounds as of this morning. Hopefully i can get at least 5 or 6 more off before Monday. Yesterday i was sitting in the car with my mom and out of no where i blurted out--what if i look like a big wrinkly prune when it's all over with??!! my mom started laughin and so did i! i realize this is the best choice for my health, but i'm super nervous!

i had a lot of trouble with the pre op diet on days 3 and 4 but i have to say the last 2 days have not been bad at all.....it is getting a little easier. i'm gettin kinda nervous since my surgery is a week from today, and god knows what i do when i stress-EAT! but i went shopping with my mom today and bought few things that are 1-2 sizes smaller than my current size, so im gonna keep them in sight as a reminder to STICK WITH IT!!!!

head hunger sucks.....but i did find a trick that helped me get through yesterday without cheating- i kept my hands busy! i started crocheting and cruising the internet for new outfits for when i lose weight. after about an hour, i had completely forgotten i was even thinking about food AND looking at all the clothes gave me that kick in the rear i needed!

seein someone for the mental side of this is something i have strongly considered, but i just don't have the money for that right now....it's a miracle in itself that i'm even getting the surgery done! i have a great support system at home, and i know they are there if i need to talk things through, but I have to be able to open up and i'm not good at that at all....i'm a very independant and stubborn person, and i hate admitting i need any kind of help. the surgery itself was admitting defeat(at first) but i DO need help with my weight, i can't do it on my own....now i just need to get my mind wrapped around that with the emotional/mental issue and i will be good to go! thanks for all the input : )

i am completely willing to make the changes, it's just harder than i had oringinally expected! Obesity is not my excuse....there'a a lot to my life history that i am not going to divulge to complete strangers that would explain why YES food is my best friend.....i understand it's not living and breathing but it still is my best friend. my issue is not a "well i never feel full" it's a mental issue....i'm not the type of person to hand out hugs or console in an animal(it's just my personality)...i chose food....as a child, my family chose food....it's a life time of habit and emotion that i am going to have to break....I get frustrated really easy and tend to giveup. BUT i haven;t given up this time, i did dust it off and came back at it with a vegance today...and i'm doing great!(so far lol) i appreciate all the feed back and the "tough love"! i will get through this and be happier and healthier in the long run!

the first day was actually a breeze for me, and now on my 4th day (i think) im not having 'real' hunger. it's all my brain! it's that i'm missing the food and i give in, so now i am going to have to come up with a plan to stop sabotaging myself!! if we don't see it, we can't eat it right? the protien shakes really do fulfill your true hunger....i start out my days on a great note, when i'm truly hungry and have a no sugar added instant breakfast and i'm satisfied....then it's all down hill lol! i think we need to set ourselves up for success and throw everything out(or at least get it out of sight) that we cannot have...it's the only way(for me i think) to get through this pre op diet crap! I KNOW we both can do this, it's just a matter of mind over food!

so i'm new to this whole bloggind thing, but I'm sitting here stewing over this whole pre op diet. my surgery date is set for July 23rd and i have been on my diet for 3 days now. i understand that the diet is to help shrink the liver, give you a taste of what's to come, and so on and so forth....but COME ON ALREADY! 25 years of being obese and do you really think i can give up food for 2 weeks......grrrrr! I want this so bad(surgery), but am completely frustrated at this point. food is definitely a mental issue for me. it's my best friend and i really think i need a behavioralist..... I am an extrememly self aware person, and i realize i am an emotional eater, but man this pre op diet is way harder than what i thought it would be. my diet is as follows: 2 sugar free instant bkfsts, 2 1/2 servings of skim milk, 3/4 c steamed veggies, and 3 medium pieces of fruit. that is all i can have in any given day...... i have failed quite a few times, but i at least tried to keep it mostly protein and very small portions when i did. one issue i am having is my job, i am the boss, so i am working 3rd shift(due to being short staffed) while trying to sleep during the day and take care of 3 kids(needless to say i don't sleep!) then i'm moody and grouchy and OF COURSE i want food! so by the time midnight rolls around, idk if i'm supposed to be starting a new day or logging what i just ate as supper...... ugh! and to top it off i had to make 3 dozen cookies tonite for our residents lunches...and wouldn't ya know it, i ate a cookie.....this is HARD! and i'm not a quitter, but this sucks!! i have completely quit smoking, i quit drinking pop, exercise doesn't even seem daunting, but i cannot get rid of the control food has over me! please tell me i'm not alone in this!

good for you!!

i think while being overweight we tend to allow people to "belittle" us. every big person wants to be accepted and looked at as "normal" (whatever that may be). but at some point YOU have to accept yourself! never apologize for who you are!! i originally felt the same way, and over time and with positive people in my life, i realized that if people looked past me because of my weight then it was their loss, not mine! i have yet to have surgery, but instead of having the surgery for happiness(i used to think this was the magic "happiness"), i am having it to be healthy and live a longer life. i have finally accepted that i am a big girl, and the only person that ever held me back was myself! food is an addiction, and obesity is a sickness. you have to forgive yourself for allowing this to happen, but love yourself enough to own up to it and fix it. take one day at a time and keep your chin up and ALWAYS love who you are!