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Great post! Yes...it is easy to get discouraged. Commitment to the journey is imperative. I have a feeling that, at the end of the day, you will do great!

Bandster Hell is very real and proper restriction will help. You may consider incorporating some food addiction therapy or other therapy to help you weed through the obstacles you had in the past.

Great post. You have such a wonderful sense of humor about these things. I too feel like I have always been fat. I am pretty sure I was the baby on low-cal Gerbers. I have been on a diet my whole life......but for the life of me don't know how I got so fat (kidding).

Awesome.....thanks for sharing.

Bandster Hell is very real and I white knuckled it until I got enough fluid in my band to feel a difference. I am at about 5.5cc in a 10cc band and quite frankly, I probably could use a tad more. Talk to your surgeon and he will guide you in the right direction. Good luck!

I too felt like there was no way I would ever see my weight under 200. I got here and plan to lose more. The pipe dream totally became a reality! You can do this....one patient step at a time.

I agree with the above. For me..it wasn't a matter of losing 50, 60...or 100 pounds. Could I keep off any amount of weight I lost long term? The answer, for me, was a resounding NO. The band has helped me maintain all the weight I have lost.

Great post! I too had to get to this acceptance of the real changes I had to make and my full participation to achieve my goals. I got there kicking and screaming....but each day gets better. Good luck.

Medium?? What is that? (Wink)! How fantastic!

How rude and terrible!! People amaze me! But here is the thing. Although losing weight may stop the moo'ing noises from ignorant jackasses...it won't cure MEAN. There will always be something or someone that will comment negatively about something and potentially hurt your feelings. From this day forward...hold your head high, be proud of your accomplishments thus far, work on self esteem and self worth. I promise....MEAN won't ever affect your identity!

"Bandster Hell" is very real. Like the post said above......until you get several fills to get some restriction....it's all YOU and want power. I would stress that following the rules and eating smaller meals during this time will help you immensely when you do feel restriction. It's a process...a journey.

It is normal to mourn the lifestyle you had around food. I too had similar feelings. But only 4 1/2 months post op....I have gained more appreciation for family time, being in control of myself, and NOT letting food dictate a good or bad time! I am so much more present and aware with family and friends than I have ever been before. It is an amazing transformation....and it's not all physical! Hang in there......you will come to have a different appreciation of the good food you are eating (even in small quantities).

Thank you for reminding us that the process can be a slow one....but with mindfulness and keeping our eye on the prize...it can be done! I love this post and I too have been in "Onderland" for several weeks now. It's almost unbelievable for me....but I plan on staying there.....not creeping back again! Congrats!!

It takes out minds a little longer to catch up as well. I am still wearing clothes that I think still fit. And then someone says...that shirt is too big for you are swimming in those pants. I have to recheck it...put a smaller size on and WOW ...the smaller size really does fit. Don't be so hard on yourself......it's a process....physically and mentally.

When my underwear was falling off my butt......

I too drink regular coffee.......my doc doesn't seem to have an issue. I remember him saying something about the caffeine we consumed with soda's, etc. When some of us drank that all day...instead of water. Congrats on your son's accomplishments!

All these feelings are normal. I had them too. The emotional rollercoaster will continue after surgery. I agree with the above...the actual surgery was the easy part. Good luck...congrats!

Why would you want some fluid out before flying?

I call that sensation..."my reminder" to slow down and eat slowly. I too had my first stuck episode this week....and trust me......you absolutely KNOW when it happens (if your unsure...then your not stuck). I too panicked...drank some water....and that was a BAD idea. Was spitting up foam and yuckiness for 30 mins.

Great blog! Have fun...

I think its a case by case basis. I know, for me, it took me until I was 40 to commit and embrace the problems with weight and what I had to do to change this. I feel like I tried too many ways to lose the weight before that having the surgery was a last chance for me. There was NO way I was ready for this sort of commitment when I was a teenager. With that said, I was overweight as a teen...not obese. Had I been morbidly obese as young as 16, 17....perhaps it may have been a different story.

Not trying to be mean when I pose the question. I am genuinely cu rious! I often wonder if people really don't understand the nutritional value or NO value of certain foods/drinks? I believe that some have been eating and drinking a certain way for so long that they really have no idea what is good and what isn't. I sometimes see this with "normal weight" people as well. They just have no idea. This sometimes baffles me because, even super fat and unhealthy, I knew the behaivors and choices I was making were poor choices.

Don't psyche yourself out. If you are timid about eating real food because of your fear of being "stuck", I'm afraid you will eat more "slider foods" which can be loaded with calories. You will be defeating the purpose. Honestly, as long as I chewed a lot and took small bites, I could eat MOST things. Well, until this last fill....and then I realized why they want you to eat small bites and eat slowly from the beginning. You will be fine....enjoy your new food groups!

Yes..it was Boars Head Deli Turkey! Yikes.....I will think twice before eating that again! Thanks for the info.

I had my first "stuck" incident today. Pretty sure from eating too fast. That was fun....said NOONE ever. Ouch...I panicked a bit. Knew it was coming back up...went to the bathroom....coughed...and the foamy yuckiness was expelled. I haven't been able to eat since. I tried to eat a few pieces of deli turkey quite a bit later. No go! Same thing happened. I am standing here waiting for the knot in my chest to subside as I write this. Looks like I have a day of liquids to look forward to tomorrow!?