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Great post! Yes...it is easy to get discouraged. Commitment to the journey is imperative. I have a feeling that, at the end of the day, you will do great!

Bandster Hell is very real and proper restriction will help. You may consider incorporating some food addiction therapy or other therapy to help you weed through the obstacles you had in the past.

Great post. You have such a wonderful sense of humor about these things. I too feel like I have always been fat. I am pretty sure I was the baby on low-cal Gerbers. I have been on a diet my whole life......but for the life of me don't know how I got so fat (kidding).

Awesome.....thanks for sharing.

I had my first "stuck" incident today. Pretty sure from eating too fast. That was fun....said NOONE ever. Ouch...I panicked a bit. Knew it was coming back up...went to the bathroom....coughed...and the foamy yuckiness was expelled. I haven't been able to eat since. I tried to eat a few pieces of deli turkey quite a bit later. No go! Same thing happened. I am standing here waiting for the knot in my chest to subside as I write this. Looks like I have a day of liquids to look forward to tomorrow!?

Bandster Hell is very real and I white knuckled it until I got enough fluid in my band to feel a difference. I am at about 5.5cc in a 10cc band and quite frankly, I probably could use a tad more. Talk to your surgeon and he will guide you in the right direction. Good luck!

I too felt like there was no way I would ever see my weight under 200. I got here and plan to lose more. The pipe dream totally became a reality! You can do this....one patient step at a time.

I agree with the above. For me..it wasn't a matter of losing 50, 60...or 100 pounds. Could I keep off any amount of weight I lost long term? The answer, for me, was a resounding NO. The band has helped me maintain all the weight I have lost.

Great post! I too had to get to this acceptance of the real changes I had to make and my full participation to achieve my goals. I got there kicking and screaming....but each day gets better. Good luck.

Medium?? What is that? (Wink)! How fantastic!

How rude and terrible!! People amaze me! But here is the thing. Although losing weight may stop the moo'ing noises from ignorant jackasses...it won't cure MEAN. There will always be something or someone that will comment negatively about something and potentially hurt your feelings. From this day forward...hold your head high, be proud of your accomplishments thus far, work on self esteem and self worth. I promise....MEAN won't ever affect your identity!

"Bandster Hell" is very real. Like the post said above......until you get several fills to get some restriction....it's all YOU and want power. I would stress that following the rules and eating smaller meals during this time will help you immensely when you do feel restriction. It's a process...a journey.

It is normal to mourn the lifestyle you had around food. I too had similar feelings. But only 4 1/2 months post op....I have gained more appreciation for family time, being in control of myself, and NOT letting food dictate a good or bad time! I am so much more present and aware with family and friends than I have ever been before. It is an amazing transformation....and it's not all physical! Hang in there......you will come to have a different appreciation of the good food you are eating (even in small quantities).

Thank you for reminding us that the process can be a slow one....but with mindfulness and keeping our eye on the prize...it can be done! I love this post and I too have been in "Onderland" for several weeks now. It's almost unbelievable for me....but I plan on staying there.....not creeping back again! Congrats!!

It takes out minds a little longer to catch up as well. I am still wearing clothes that I think still fit. And then someone says...that shirt is too big for you are swimming in those pants. I have to recheck it...put a smaller size on and WOW ...the smaller size really does fit. Don't be so hard on yourself......it's a process....physically and mentally.

When my underwear was falling off my butt......

I too drink regular coffee.......my doc doesn't seem to have an issue. I remember him saying something about the caffeine we consumed with soda's, etc. When some of us drank that all day...instead of water. Congrats on your son's accomplishments!

All these feelings are normal. I had them too. The emotional rollercoaster will continue after surgery. I agree with the above...the actual surgery was the easy part. Good luck...congrats!

Why would you want some fluid out before flying?

I call that sensation..."my reminder" to slow down and eat slowly. I too had my first stuck episode this week....and trust me......you absolutely KNOW when it happens (if your unsure...then your not stuck). I too panicked...drank some water....and that was a BAD idea. Was spitting up foam and yuckiness for 30 mins.

Great blog! Have fun...

Today I took the kids to Busch Gardens (here in Tampa) as they are kicking off their summer vacation. I have not been here in about a year. The last time I was here, I no longer could fit in a rollercoaster and was mortified, appalled, and embarrassed. So were my children. This was my rock bottom! TODAY...I not only fit in the coasters....I had plenty of room to spare! We spent all day walking the park with very little effort or exhaustion. I hardly thought about food all day. I never had any anxiety about my knees hurting, my back aching, or my feet swelling up. I was having the time of my life! Last year, all I wanted to do was lose enough weight to fit in a rollercoaster...that's it...a simple request. If I go by this measure of success...I am there! I am a success story!! I still want to lose more weight....and I will set small goals along the way. But today...I am here....I am successful...and my kids think I am a rock star!!