Stephanee-
I can really identify with you. Like most of us, it sounds like you have some emotional issues with your weight. I have not been banded yet. I had my first appointment this week. My next appointment is next week. One of the people that I will see is the psychologist. I am sure he will have a lot to say to me! I cried on and off through the whole appointment the other day. My doctor, his physician assistant and my patient advocate all wanted to go over my medical history and questionaire. Just talking about my weight and self-esteem and how it affects my life is very painful to me.
Growing up I was always very beautiful and beauty was highly prized in my family. As I have gained and gained weight my entire self worth has been lowered to nil. What made me read your thread was you tag line, "not just a pretty face." I know how that feels. I have heard that so many times from well meaning friends and family...."You have such a pretty face." It is meant as a compliment, but it is definitely not! I hear "the rest of you is ugly."
I am working on myself and will have to have some counselling before and after my surgery. The doctor said this will help my weight loss results and my overall well-being. This website is also very helpful because I see so many people struggling with the same feelings of hurt and sadness.
Please add me to your buddy list. I would like to keep up with you.
Dana
not banded yet
Weight 228
Age 35
three little ones - age 9, 6 & 9 months
long-term goal 140 and healing soul