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YAY Enerfina!! 6 weeks out and down over 40 lbs! That is awesome...40 lbs would have me in ONEDERLAND!! yay!!!!

KISHA!!!! MOM OF 7?! WHOA....im doing this so i can have hope for maybe 1 in the future...but ill take more!! yay...1 month!!!!

SURE WILL!!! I cant wait to put up my little ticker on the end of all my posts AHHHH!!

Im wearing it on my sleeve...but it really is about personality! People whisper regardless of what any of us do. I have a really good girlfriend who lost 200 PLUS LBS on her own (over 3.5 yrs) and people talk s&(?* all the time about her. Im not worried about my work people...like i said they all already know. They knew when I went to the seminar--I went in like hey Im going to this..yal wanna come? see my comment before this. I dont think it is something to feel shame about...Im more ashamed of my lack of motivation to get up and look pretty coming to the office, and I come in with leggings and a messy ponytail all the time. Time for me to wear HIGH HEALS again and stop hiding behind the scenes especially at my own events, I wont even sign my name to my amazing projects because I dont want to show face--that is SHAMEFUL.

MMMEEEEE TOOO!!!!!!! YAY!!! I had May 9th and then changed to the 16th!!! SOOO EXCITED and SCARED! OOO pre-op diet...dreading!! but we can do it!!!!

My office staff knows Im having surgery... 1. because we are extremely tight knit, I babysit people's children for whole weekends, they were at my wedding, etc. 2. because we are all overweight, and we complain and do WW and fail. There are some here who need to feel it is ok to go have SURGERY--it is necessary for some, I AM ONE and just opening up and saying Im going to the seminar, has had everyone doing their research. They can all make their own decision. We are all women here and we struggle together. Im SURE that if insurance covered tummy tucks a few people here would have it done in a blink of an eye! To EACH her OWN and 2 people are going to seminars to learn about it!and Im all about being informed! I was motivated to do it by someone who i used to work with who had it done. My work family is not a concern...actually its my husbands family who is! haha! They are all about body images and weight loss (yet most should be asking to workout with me instead of commenting) I already told my husband...U ZIP IT MISTER...no one is to know on your side! and my family doesnt know outside of my parents and sisters. I just dont want the crap answers of oh you can lose that if you eat right and exercise...but are the same people who say "Why dont you want to eat" when they are trying to serve me a man size plate of plantains and fried chicken. Same people who go to Dominican Republic for a routine Lipo and breast lift but look down their nose at the mention of getting WLS. My thing is why cant i wear this decision proudly as a badge of courage for taking my problem by the nuts!? Why do we need to be so secretive? I see this as my fertility treatment, I need to do this to move forward. I need to do this for me emotionally as well. Do we look down at the person who gets a pace maker for their heart? This is my pacemaker...I need to do this to LIVE my life.

BTW...SHAPESHIFTER always has the most awesome responses to blogs I read...gracias!

I wrote about this today! I dont know how I feel...I think its easier for me to tell people and have the WHATEVER attitude. But I dont want my husbands family to know...THEY ARE SOOOOOO CRITICAL and they all have an opinion! But they are also the people who keep asking when we are going to have a baby, even after knowing we have a problem in that area and it's very sensitive! If you know that it is what you want and arent going to let negative people sway you then SPEAK FREELY! Although no ones opinion is going to sway me not to do it, I really dont want to be nasty with anyone and I can feel that coming on.

MustangAli...I am pre-op so I cant speak to the challenge of "wasting your chance" but I can speak to the very thing you are speaking of when it comes to alcohol. My very good friends brother had his WLS and never picked up on good eating habits. After dropping more than half of his weight he was going days without protien and consuming lots of alcohol. One day he just wasnt feeling well and went to the hospital...just in time to FALL INTO a COMA. For 6 weeks his family held vigil by his side. He was killing himself by drinking and eating poorly and not getting his Protein in. He had sepsis (sp) and infections were running his body. His liver had suffered in 6 mths what a normal weight long term alcoholic's liver would look like. He is alive today...still with poor habits and looks like the walking dead. He has gone to rehab now and his protein levels are still off. It will be a long journey. He was killing himself being overweight and still continued to kill himself after the weightloss... You need to ask yourself some serious questions. Talk to your partner...get him on board with good eating habits and ask him to step in with your alcohol (maybe you dont want to tell him about the surgery fine...but tell him that you need to lose weight and need his support). ASK YOUR SISTER to HELP YOU...She obviously cares about you!! If you need a real shocker private message me and I will send you a photo of what he looked like in the coma with all the tubes etc so you can see what can happen to you if you dont make the decision to get yourself together. MAYBE JOIN A PHYSICAL SUPPORT GROUP...not just online.

?! Originally I was thinking Im not going to tell anyone I am having this surgery, you know because people always have an opinion about what you are doing. I work in a really tight knit family setting, if you tell one person then everyone knows (theres only 7 of us in the main office, but there are lots of people in each program). So who cares THEY KNOW (I mean they are my other family!) But I dont want other people knowing. Is this weird?! I dont want the reaction of "O yolisse lost a lot of weight" and someone responds "o because she had that surgery" like if we dont have anything else to do, just get the surgery and life goes on and its fixed like LIPO and a TUMMY TUCK. They dont get it! Do I want to take the time to say "ACTUALLY, i had to do pre-op diet, and then surgery, then clear liquids for 2 weeks...TRY JUST DOING THAT!? and this and that" Or do I shrug that off like WHATEVER! Yesterday, I was talking to the Psych nurse here at my job (SISTER MAUREEN, the best NUN who you would never know is a nun--I love her) I just was picking her brain about the psych eval etc etc. and we were in close proximity to one of the receptionists from another program who asked "why the hell are you going through a psych eval?" I gave her the answer most people would expect from me "Because IM F*#% NUTS!" LOL !! Then I said "No Im going through the Weight Loss Surgery Approval Process, I mean just cuz Im nuts doesnt mean I should have to be Fat and Nuts! DAMN!" Laugh Laugh and then she responded "O my...you're doing that! " (IN MY MIND) YES IM DOING IT...and I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK BC 100034534 people can say DONT DO IT(well maybe not that many), but until you have been in my shoes YOUR OPINION DOESNT MATTER! Until you have journalled all the food touching your lips for 3 weeks and staying under 1300 calories and walking/running 3-5 miles a day and when you weigh in you have lost 2 POUNDS then BBBYYYYEEEE !!!!! and had to be on medication that makes you so nauseous that you cant even talk without gagging, and have to ultimately face your husband and say to him "I can never give you children because of my weight and the complications it causes in my life, and that I will likely suffer many many miscarriages and possibly birth an unhealthy child" then you cant say I SHOULDNT DO IT. So anyway...this sounds like I dont care about what people say because Im going to do it anyway (which is true) but the question is...DO I EVEN WANT TO HAVE TO EXPLAIN ALL THE TIME or DEAL WITH THE OPINIONS! I know many of you are going through this same battle...what are your thoughts!?

YAY!!!! Are you scared?

GET OUT OF HERE!!!! YAY JERSEY!!! MY SURGERY IS MAY 16th!!!

OMG thank you for this post!!! I am a young bride and have been with my husband for 10 yrs. When we were teenagers and younger 20s the sex life was AMAZING...and this weight has really effed that up for us... I cant wait to get my libido back in full swing! YOU GO GIRL!!!

Surgery date has been set for MAY 16th! whoa...that is a month away. I dont know what I was really thinking when I went into my consultation last Friday--well yes I do, I thought maybe 3-6 months and Ill be going into surgery but now the reality is that by my 26th birthday (and my one year wedding anniversary) in September I will be 4 months post op and quite possibly under 200 lbs (30lbs in 4 mths seems doable) I see my primary care physician today, thursday i see my nutritionist, and friday I have my psych eval. Then pre-op diet begins after that! I am excited!

Simply said, THANKS. Im with you on your top 5 reasons.

ooo Im excited by this! THIS IS WEIRD TO SAY...but ID LIKE TO HAVE MY PERIOD SOON...I have been missing it for a long long time. Before I never minded being young and all. But I kind of need it if i want to start a family one day.

I have PCOS, for 9 years now...and well you guys know how that goes. I have never been pregnant never used protection (hey hey with my one partner who is now my husband) but never got pregnant. My dr. was shocked when I revealed this information. Now we are at the age that it would be nice. Im 25 going on 26 and he is 29. Everyone in our family has children and all of our friends are on the next child already. I have to lose the weight to have a chance. So CONGRATS to you and if after I lose this weight...if I gained 30 to 40 to have a child. ID TAKE IT AND BE HAPPY. After being this weight Id take a 100 lb loss and a 40 lb gain to be 60 less and with a child. Good Luck...keep us posted!

THANK YOU SO MUCH...I have had PCOS since 15 when the weight started piling up in high school. i went for a size 2 to a size 9 in less than a year and it kept climbing. 80 lbs in less than 2 yrs and stayed stable from there with the 30 lb up and down yo yo. It is just recently that I decided enough is enough and someone is going to give me answers on what is up. SICK OF THE HAIR on my FACE and just being FAT a really great dr took 2 hrs of her day (im sure other patients werent happy) and really went through everything with me, ultrasounds and all. Confirmed everything and since then I have been in the battle to beat this problem! Thanks for the support!

EEK...i love my boobs! But they are way big 40DD one time i measured a DDD at VS. When I was a size 4 (in my former life) jk IN High School I was a 34C and I thought they were amazing then. I dont care if they shrink, and my husband sees me like this now and he saw me like that then sooo-- if I needed to I would get them surgically lifted, maybe not enhanced unless they look really bad in a bathing suit. With a bra on and in clothes they will look amazing either way! and Flat chested girls wear Water bras, push ups, chicken cutlet inserts LOL. We can do that too if needed!

Thank you so much for this feed!! Ladies, I am 25...and Im freaking out, well really Im excited not scared right now... I havent even set the surgery date, that is being done next Friday, BUT IM DOING IT. Once I cut my thumb and I didnt even let the dr. put stitches! But my friend did it and her incisions are barely noticeable and she said she wasnt in much pain. Its crazy how I can pinpoint events in my life by how much i weighed. I remember being a size 2-4 freshman year and junior year being a size 9-11 then my senior yr in HS i was a 16. Im not going to front Im a size 20 now. That bugs me out! I was a sexii size 9 and I think I looked pretty good, damn good actually! But that is in comparison to now. I wonder what I will think when Im a size 9 again and Im looking at pictures of me at size 2. Will I still say "girl you were too small and your head was too big--looked like a lollipop" (maybe because thinking of that size now the way I am i feel i can never be there again) or will I say, "Yoli you got this far you can go a little more" I think a good compromise is a 7. LOL. I hope to be healthy enough to start a family with my husband in the future (at this weight i cant) but Ill be so so spo happy to be able to wear a bathing suit and feel good! Another goal, a full body wax HAHAHA smooth, tanned and thin...but not too JERSEY GIRLISH. <3

Yesterday I attended my first WLS seminar, I thought I wanted to lapband but a friend of mine got the Sleeve and after the seminar I had decided that I too think this is the best route for me. Im a 25 year old married woman who works full time and is also a full time student . I have always been confident and even at my current size can't seem to grasp that I really don't look as great as I think--until I see pictures and I say "HOLY SMOKES! Do I really look like that?" My husband recently turned 29 and for the last (almost) 10 years that we have been together he has always said he wants children by the age of 30. Well THAT JUST ISNT GOING TO HAPPEN--not that I dont want to have children and find that in the next year I would be pretty ready to have a child but I have a problem. FERTILITY ISSUES... I have PCOS and insulin resistance. 1500mg of Metformin a day make me irritable and I hate the nausea I live with almost all day every day. Regular ladyparts doctor tells me LOSE WEIGHT and it will get better, REALLY? nooo I HAVENT BEEN TRYING? (sarcastic) . and Reproductive Endo tells me she wont help me get pregnant at this size and age because basically it is like me asking her to kill me and make a sick child. This bummed me out and I was convinced that couldnt be true because I mean I know people way larger than I am who have children. But then I say "Yoli, can they run and play with their children" and "they are bigger now, do you want that?" NO I DONT. So it is time for me to take some time out and do something that will help me to be the best me. The me I know I want to be and can be! So here we go. Consultation is April 13, 2012 in Paramus, NJ at the Advanced Laparoscopic Associates (Dr. Sebastian Eid, MD) and my pre-op required class is April 25, 2012 at 6:30 (satisfying an insurance approval requirement). Good Luck to you all and Good Luck to me. Comment, tell me your story...Im open to see it all!