wanderlust_76

Thanks! I know everyone has a story. I enjoyed sharing mine. I have to say that on this site, there are so many people that feel the same way. It makes me happy to know I am not the only one struggling with food choices or guilt for eating.

I still WANT the stuff, but I am ok not being able to eat it. Weird, huh? I guess that is good. I talked to my dietician and she said everything I am feeling is normal. I am really not that worried now, but I am worried about five years from now.
As far as eating out, I just share with my husband. He is nice enough to let me. I am a Mexican food fan as well. I have two sons and I will order a big dinner and we all share. I take a few bites of the taco and chalupa and the boys eat the enchiladas. It works out. Most people recommend eating off the kids menu, but there is few things I want to eat on the kids menu.
I think the trick is to listen to your body. When you feel full, STOP EATING!!
If you have any questions feel free to ask. I feel like an expert. . . lol.

I just read your blog and giggled a little because I swear I could have written it. Other than telling my mom, I was in the same boat as you are three weeks ago. Here is my advice (for what it is worth).. .
1. As far as mom is concerned, she doesn't have to live in your body. She doesn't have to live with the constant thoughts about why you are overweight and the constant feelings of judgement. She doesn't have to feel the guilt you feel when you eat something you know you shouldn't or the defeat you feel when you give in. This is for you. Not mom. And as the saying goes, "sometimes it is better to ask forgiveness then it is permission."
2. My baby survived. He got to hang out with his grandparents and daddy for week and they are closer now than before. My feeling is he will not remember the few weeks I couldn't run to his side, but he will remember all the times I run with him because I have lost enough weight to be able to do it.
3. You are the only one that can decide if it is worth it. It is not easy. But, like I said, I am three weeks out and I am already wearing jeans that were stuffed in the back of my closet with dust on them. For me that is worth it.
Last. . .you wouldn't be human if you weren't scared. Especially knowing there is a little one involved. Put your faith in God or Allah and he will get you through it. It will be worth it in the end.
Good thoughts and prayers are coming your way. Let us know how you do.