bbbanded

I haven't made a post on here in ages. Maybe I've been neglecting my reality, who knows. But I have a problem, the same problem I had almost 3 years ago. I love food. I love the way it tastes, all the different flavors, all that. I've been going HAM on food lately, so much so that I thought of something pink and glazed with pineapples and brown sugar as I typed that. I have no idea why I won't stop. I would say can't but I can. I'm not sick, I just want to eat. Ugh...So I've gained 30 lbs since last May. GREAT! Once upon a time I was 22 lbs away from goal and now I have 50 lbs just sitting on. I will when I want to but when the fuuuuuck will I want to!? I wasn't even bad today, but I think my errors are coming back to get me. I did a nice amount of PB'ing and I guess my body said f**k it let's go all the way. And that is what it did. I vomited for the first time in 3 years. It was miserable. It hurt, stung burned, left me embarrassed the whole shebang. And yet still, all I can think about it what I can eat when I feel better. The amount of money I dish out on food should just invest in a thing I actually want. One day Tiana, but soon please. For your own good.

When I started I wasn't wearing jeans because my 24s no longer fit and I refused to venture any further than that. Now I'm in baggy size 12 jeans, from F21 of all places. But I don't understand it. Obviously the way weight loss works is you lose weight and clothes fit differently yadda yadda but, it's just so weird to me. I guess it's an nsv in a way right? I don't feel like I should be in anyones 12 much less them be baggy. What am I to do when the 12 is too big??? It's a great feeling to know that I fit into clothes or that I don't for a good reason. But I still don't feel like I belong in the "skinny:" side. I still have that feeling that an associate will come up to me and point me towards the plus sized section. Mental weight loss is a real b***h!

I've only had the MRI's. He said I likely didn't need the spinal tap because of all of the results from the MRI's. I went in initially on Monday and came out with a diagnosis by Thursday. He's insisting on me getting a second opinion which I'm fine with. I want so badly to believe it's some kind of vitamin deficiency or lyme disease. As much as I believe a spinal tap will hurt, I'd rather have it to be sure.

I just turned 20 on July 2nd and was diagnosed with ms on July 10th. After a bit of research I see there are a few types, I'm not quite sure what kind I have just yet so I can't say. I have to schedule an appointment for a second opinion, but my neurologist is pretty certain. Needless to say I'm pretty devastated that I got MS for my 20th birthday but being devastated won't make it go away. Any words of advice?

That shedding 100 pounds wouldn't make me feel good. Once the glory of fitting into size 14 jeans and large tops wears off there is really nothing to be happy about. I was just as healthy, if not more considering before there were no foreign objects in my abdomen and no slits on my torso, as I am now, but my brain feels exactly the same. I used to cry because I thought being thinnER would make me so happy, and would change everything, when in reality the only thing is changed is what I'm crying about. Now I cry because I did so much to get here and my heart and my brain both ache just the same. Take a look a look under that silver lining.

I was banded on May 11th and I started at 331. I lost about 20 lbs on my own, in total I'm down 63 lbs.

I was banded in May 2012, Im down a total of 60 lbs so far. Good luck!

I think 4 weeks might be a while for any job. My surgery was on a Friday, I went back to work on the Monday. I'm a receptionist though, so aside from minor lifting daily, I'm sitting most of the day.

He puts in what he sees fit, does take the needle out, he says big gulp, and hands me a cup of water, as usual I have a hard time talking even focusing and he has me lie back down to take some out.

I hate having so much to deal with! My mom is on vacation and my dad works 24/7 so I have to watch over my 4 siblings, and work 40+ hours this week. I have to remember to make food so I don't stop and pick anything up. I have to make sure I get up in time for work. Make my car payment. Buy birthday gifts. Maintain this 12 lbs loss. Lose more. Get my protein in. Work out. Wear clothes that still fit. Sounds a lot easier than it is! I cant imagine whats gonna happen when classes start up again. I might just drive myself batty!