Thank you all for your advice, I'm glad I joined this site and am able to connect with people who have give threw what I am going threw now. I have talked to my husband and as hard as it was I'm glad its over lol he is supportive 100% and I'm so thankful for him. He understands that I am happy just not fully I've struggled with being a large girl all my life and after trying diet after diet and hour after hour of excersizing and seeing no resaults and trying to just b happy isn't how i want to live. I want to b healthy to my fullest and be able to keep up with everyone I'm 22 now 60 I want to b able to have children and be able to live healthy with them and my husband. and even now that I have made this decision an my husbands support I have to get my doctor to c my view cuz now that i have talked to her about my choice I can tell she thinks in trying to have the easy way out even though she has been my doctor for six yrs and knows everythibgive done and haven't lost weight she just doesn't support me and changes the subject. Any advice for that!? She made me get all kinds of blood work done thinking its my thiroid or diabeties but I've had all that checked out not to long ago. I just feel so helpless