raquel mom of 3

Hi I am new went to my 1st Dr's appointment today very nervous now dhe is great and said I can be in surgery Nov ..I am having all pre op Friday and I am starting to 2nd guess myself.  I am 47 and mo of 3 so so tired of losing and gaining and for 30 yrs now I will loose 40 pds and gain it back so tred.
 
My sister just had gastric sleeve I dont know if I want to opt for that or the band she is post op 10 days and is doing great I am not great with surgeries nervous now I have 3 kids 20..14..13 married 31 years and he never ever says anything about my weight loves me liek this but I dont I kow what that feeling is I had lost 80 pds 2006 and had a surgery that laid me up and had awful staph infection and gained it all back and went into menopause and its been the worst all belly fat I saw a pic f myself for my mom's funeral July 2011 I cried so hard I wont look ata mirror unless I have too. I am just scared and dont know which way to go does anyone know about weither the sleeve ..Thank you for lsitening!