Surgery was 4.5 weeks ago. Tonight Joshua, my 21 year old son turned on the oven tonight to make some dinner. The smoke detector went off, and the kids found a "broiled" mouse in the oven. I guess I haven't been doing alot of baking since surgery. I found it very funny, the kids not so much.
Just another chapter in this weight loss journey
one month out, 40 lbs lighter, my grandmother died, I feel exhausted and painful. no NSAIDS or steroids for another 2 weeks. I have dropped one pant size, but I don't feel any lighter. I don't have buyers remorse, but I thought I would feel better than this. I still take 1-2 hour naps every day after work, but is that really so bad.
I spoke with the exercise therapist, and am working on strengthening my back, walking a bit more during marching band rehearsal, I just thought I would bounce back quicker. I do feel better every day, I just want it to happen faster.
Today is June 1st
It is also the first day of a long and winding road. My life feels like it has been rolling downhill, out of control. I am ready to put a halt to this path, turn a corner, and discover something new. I'm looking for a new, healthier, sassy woman who weighs 160 lbs. The problem is that the person walking on this road is 350 lbs and feels trapped in a body that can't move.
I decided to look into gastric sleeve surgery after speaking with my PCP. I have seen the internist, surgeon, behaviorist, GI doc, and the sleep specialist. I have been scoped upper/lower, labs drawn, ekg done, and after speaking with GHP (dr's office) I have been approved. I will find out my surgery date tomorrow.
I have informed my sister of this decision, but no one else in my family. I am not ready to discuss this with anyone else until the date is set. I am going this for me, I want to have my new path set, then I will include the kids, siblings, and parents.
I am looking out into my back yard. The leaves on the trees are dancing in the wind. The sun is shining, it is 73 degrees and windy. It is a perfect late spring day. It really feels like I am starting something new today. It hasn't seemed real until today.